HomelessOKC

God's wrath involved in infernos in Oklahoma and Texas? Not. Just cause and effect.

2009-04-10T12:53:00.003-04:00

Paul Norwood watches helplessly as his neighbor's home is destroyed by wildfires in eastern Oklahoma County, Thursday, April 9, 2009. These homes are in Oakwood East Addition, near SE 15 and Westminster. Photo by Jim Beckel, The Oklahoman

The damage is pretty severe.Homes that caught fire were completely lost.Had no chance.

Many are homeless today in Oklahoma. Many who thought that it could not happen to them.

Not God's wrath. Just cause and effect.

Driven from their homes by a fire that consumed everything dear to them.

As many did when they voted to allow Rep. Randy Terrells bill 1804 ...

http://www.tulsaworld.com/webextra/content/2007/1804bill/default.aspx

...become law ,driving many Hispanics from the homes they had established for years in Oklahoma .

I still see vacant homes abandoned and still sitting empty. There is no one to rent them.

Now there will be...irony. These legal citizens renting the prior homes of the"illegals"!

Cause and effect.

NewsOK :‘The worst disaster in Midwest City history’(Video)

NewsOk Photos

Satellite Image april 9th

Beautiful Sister Susan

2009-03-20T10:23:00.007-04:00

Soon, this month ,we will be celebrating the birthday of Carmelite Sister Susan Clark at St. Josephs Old Cathedral in Oklahoma City with a reception and dinner.What a blessing that I will be able to be amongst the crowd honoring this gracious and elegant woman in the Autumn of her life.

Back row: Sr. Mary Joseph representing the Medical Sisters of Saint Joseph, Sr. Immaculata Commet representing the Carmelites of Saint Therese, M. Rachel Cavazos, representing the Sisters of Mercy, Sr. Susan Clark, representing the Carmelites of Saint Therese of the Little Flower and Sr. Joanne Yankauskis, representing the Sisters of Benedict. Front row: Sr. Laurentia Koehler, representing the Adores of the Blood of Christ, Sr. Teresa Chau Tran, representing the Carmelites of Saint Joseph, Sr. M. Modesta Weyel, representing the Sisters of Mercy, Sr. Ruth Miriam, representing the Carmelites of Saint Joseph of the Little Flower and Sr. Catherine Powers, representing the Sisters of the Congregation De Notre Dame.(Photo by Cara Koenig/Sooner Catholic)

I love this woman and have been blessed to know her in the short time that has been afforded us. Her disposition and demeanor are a grace to those she encounters in her daily interactions.The first grace one notices, is the youthful and vibrant manner that she carries herself despite her advanced age .Her long,fine hair is brilliantly white and looks as soft and supple as a toddler's. Her skin is glowing, as flawless and firm as a young maidens.She moves with the speed and grace befitting a well seasoned athlete....usually always cheerful as she does her duties...serving the people of her Lord.A genuine concern for people is felt by all who come to her for needs they feel she might be able to help them with...concerns, and though her resources are limited, she makes every effort to insure she did all "she" could do for them.I see her tired at times. She might think I don't notice. She works so hard through out the day at so many different tasks involving so many different people and problems,situtations. The poor darling is at times only able to catch a quick catnap at the closing of the day while she is still on duty. I pray that the rest she is able to manage to sneek in is sufficiently satisfying and refreshing of her soul so that she is able to peacefully conclude the day as she lies in bed ,reflecting of the things God was able to view and experience through her eyes and life. Her thoughts and words.Holy.I see ,at times, concern and sadness on her face for those she knows and meets through her day that are experiencing pain and troubles or losses . Doubt.Fear.It does take a toll on her heart ,as it also weighs on our hearts, these burdens that may only be relieved by empathy ,prayer and an embrace.For some,Sister Susan, this grace of yours has been a gift from God Himself through your precious hands ,smile and tears.Your Holy thoughts and being.May you never forget that your life has been very meaningful for me by your presence and action in my life.Thank you for listening to the call of your profession to serve the Lord ,God. You have been most dutiful and obedient.May I never forget the grace and beauty that God gave to me through you. Happy Birthday, Beautiful Sister Susan Clark. It's been a blessing beyond measure to have encountered the love of Jesus through you.Sister Susan Clark is standing right next to the lady in maroon, in the back, and behind the black and white attired lady(gray jacket,black collar), in the photo.
http://www.carmelitesok.org/nuns.htm
March 22,2009 will be the dinner.After the 10:00 am Mass .

This church,St. Josephs Old Cathedral, is located right next to theOklahoma City National Memorial ( Oklahoma City Bombing Memorial ) ,the site of the Murrah Federal Building bombing.
St Josephs was damaged in the blast. This was an intimate and traumatic experience for many that attend this church.And for many around the world...if not the world and Heaven itself.
So it hits home closer than we can sometimes fathom and it unites us ,for we are family. Thank you.
http://stjosephdowntown.com/

First Church's Celebrate Recovery's 2yr Anniversary.First United Methodist Church involved in Community!

2008-10-02T10:32:00.019-04:00

First Church ,Oklahoma City, is celebrating their Celebrate Recovery's 2nd year Anniversary this Friday October 3rd,2008 at 5:30 pm.All are welcome for fellowship. To come and see.

"Celebrate Recovery is a a Christian 12-step alternative, based on the eight principles from the Beatitudes that helps people turn their hurt into hope. Come join us every Friday night for dinner, praise & worship, teaching & small groups as we learn together how to LET OUR LIGHT SHINE!!!"

If you would like to find out more information about Celebrate Recovery,please call the church office at (405) 239-6493 or email info@firstchurchokc.com.

I first encountered First Church and the Celebrate Recovery program back in June(More Christian Exclusivity? click here) of this year and though our 1st encounter was less than amicable, through prayer,courageous effort and out reach this program, the Church and it's members have progressed to become the ideal reality of Christian fellowship.
Much healing is offered and much healing has taken place.
The outreach has extended practically to include a snack pack that is available to those that need it.Just ring the bell and receive some sustainance.
There is hope.There is love. There is willingness. For that I am grateful.
Thank you Father, God.Thank you, Jesus the Christ.Thank you Holy Spirit, a gift through the Father from Jesus.

MIGHTY TO SAVE (Key A) VERSE 1:
Everyone needs compassion
Love that's never failing
Let mercy fall on me
Everyone needs forgiveness
The kindness of a Saviour
The hope of nations

A special thanks to:
Pastor Mark,Pastor Kirk,Jenny O.,Tim,Tracy,Galen,Jerry,Melinda,Mike,Rachel,Leon and the numerous volunteers and members that make this possible,as all things are possible with God!
"With you, I am well Pleased!"

History of Letters to Pastor Kouri/Front Line Church

2008-10-01T14:00:00.000-04:00

History of Letters to Pastor Kouri/Front Line Church

ViewWednesday, October 1, 2008 6:31:33 PM
To:pkouri@frontlinechurch.tv

I'm the "new " guy that has been attending the thurs and sun services that usually sits or stands in the back...
Teodoro Leon III...I have included a collage that shows me and my family..some of them anyway.
I have attempted to attend the bible study on tuesday but have encountered a little resistance to my presence for one reaon or another..I did not want to take the stage or upshow the person presenting the study and have left. The guy "Brad"(kitchen manager,CRM) was going to be an alpha male that I had not the time or patience to deal with that day I saw you there,so I left.
This last time I was confronted on the pendant that I wear...and yes ,it is unusual...originally(I guess,Wiccan pendant) intended for those that"practice Magick.I donot practice "Magick".
I'm not wiccan. I am the Magick. Made in the image of God ,Himself.
I am son of God. I claim it. I have understandind,by the grace of God and the Holy Spirit,a gift of the Christ ,Jesus.

"I must leave you ,for if I donot leave you the Holy Spirit will not come to you,hence the reason I must leave you..."

A good friend who is devoutly a follower of Christ found the pendant in the mud and he knew what it was but was prompted by the Holy Spirit to present it as a gift to me.
I sanctified it. God is All Powerfull.
The dragon at the top is the dragon of eastern thought(mysticism) who is the enabler of human empowerment.
http://myspace.com./blackpearldragon

The symbol of protection is on the cross(star within a circle) as Jesus said to me ,"Pick up your cross and follow me." Not his cross,mine.

http://www.usccb.org/nab/bible/john/john16.htm
7 But I tell you the truth, it is better for you that I go. For if I do not go, the Advocate will not come to you. But if I go, I will send him to you.
8 4 And when he comes he will convict the world in regard to sin and righteousness and condemnation:
9 sin, because they do not believe in me;
10 righteousness, because I am going to the Father and you will no longer see me;
11condemnation, because the ruler of this world has been condemned.
12"I have much more to tell you, but you cannot bear it now.
So,I hope to see you soon.

I explained the verse in 1Cor6:9 to this man i met at the last attempt to attend the study as he was hostile to fact that a girl had a Catholic bible in her car that she could have used ...so I asked him which bible translation was Holy and which one he was using...He was using the NAS. The translation is not a correct rendering and only until recently have the Catholics corrected their intentional,hypocritical mistranslation due to cause and effect, an injustice is paid with an injustice...the "SEX Scandal" not only within the Universal Church but among many of the protestant faiths.It cost them all alot in many different areas,finances,prestige,attendance...etc.
They are slowly trying to correct these injustices...but fear hinders them.Imagine having to explain an agenda and motive that has driven them to lie and corrupt.It will all be okay..I'm here to help..lol.

http://www.usccb.org/nab/bible/1corinthians/1corinthians6.htm
Here's the passage and the true rendering of the greek(took alot of courage on the Admin. part..hahaha) and the footnotes.

8 Instead, you inflict injustice and cheat, and this to brothers.
9 2 3 Do you not know that the unjust will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived; neither fornicators nor idolaters nor adulterers nor boy prostitutes nor sodomites
Footnotes:
3 [9] The Greek word translated as boy prostitutes may refer to catamites, i.e., boys or young men who were kept for purposes of prostitution, a practice not uncommon in the Greco-Roman world. In Greek mythology this was the function of Ganymede, the "cupbearer of the gods," whose Latin name was Catamitus. The term translated Sodomites refers to adult males who indulged in homosexual practices with such boys.
Boys kept in the temple for the use of sex.

Sound familiar?Priests,Pastors,deacons and altar boys.
It had nothing to do with two honest and moral people in a functional ,healthy relationship for love and companionship.
Well, I'll see you later.sincerely ,Teodoro Leon III.

A letter I wrote to someone else than Kouri who I sent to:
ViewWednesday, October 1, 2008 6:34:57 PM
To:Pastor Josh Kouri

Yes that word is dark and should never be used except in relating it to what I had written. The cause of division and hate. The dark. He is dark for he has no wisdom...separated from the presence of the Father...enraged ,alone,the prodigal son.The most cunning and cherished of God's creatures and angels received his inheritance early and squandered it for he had no wisdom out of the presence of the Father,God creator of all.
We must not fall into that self deception.
Christ commanded us to forgive our greatest enemy, informedly.
Are we courageous enough to ask for the Holy Spirit's Wisdom, the gift of Jesus, our Lord?
All of God's creation must return to the Father to be healed..to made whole.The prodigal son.“But I tell you the truth, it is to your advantage that I go away; for if I do not go away, the Helper will not come to you; but if I go, I will send Him to you (John 16:7)Don't be scared.God is courage and Love.Wisdom.Teodoro Leon III. I teach this to Methodist and Catholics at their request.

ViewThursday, October 2, 2008 5:43:16 PM
To:lioner2@yahoo.com

Dear Theodoro,I am responding to your emails. First I care about you as a person and do not intend to hurt your feelings. Second I care more about the people God has put in my care at Frontline. So I want you to know that after reading your emails I am very concerned about you. You seem to have many unstable and unscriptural ideas that could hurt immature believers. I will be instructing our pastors to watch you closely and pay attention to your behavior. That does not mean I am saying you can't come to Frontline. I am just telling you that I have many red flags about what I have read. I hope you are able to stay at Frontline, be humble and teachable and grow in simple and pure devotion to Jesus the only begotten Son of God.Sincerely,Josh KouriPastorFrontline Church

My response,justifiably.
ViewThursday, October 2, 2008 7:04:34 PM
To:Josh Kouri joshkouri@cox.net

Why don't you be more specific as to what you 're "so" concerned about.
Unstable and unscriptual?You are not specific and you are vague for a reason.
What I call ,you call, "corporate " worship. You serve "mammon", who is a demon.

You've made inquiries as to who I am and that is good. Now you've been put on notice by those you are complicit with in profitting off the suffering of the poor and dysfunctional and you will have no excuse as to why you will impose the Fate that will befall those of you who claim to "Pastor" in the name of Jesus.
Tim Ulrich is one of those that does the will of his father,along with those associated with CRM.Have I not looked into your form 990's?
Big Money.
The "Big" sales pitch at the end of your sermons? Very classy and scriptural.
So lecture me some more about humbleness and teachability.Teach me how Jesus overturned the vendors and money changers tables due to their greed and insolence to God the Father..
You don't know me...but many well versed,educated men who are willing to respond to the Holy Spirit's prompting do know me.In many different denominations with a better understanding of bible verse and history than those you allow to mislead and promote an agenda of hate and division.
Now,if you are so inclined,tell me which part of my letters do you take offense at...pharisee?

Your selective and caught in a game of usury.
Am I claiming to be Jesus? Of course not.
Now your disposition of faith and your inability to really do God's work will impose on you and your followers a humbling. You had no idea that what you claim in the name of Jesus and His Father through the Holy Spirit would make you responsible and accountable to Him?
You felt what you felt while I was in your presence and it was no lie...but now you rationalize and deny that which was good due to your associations of fear,guilt and shame.
I didn't come to impose myself, your own actions brought me.I was invited.
Now I've been rejected 3 times.Excellent. You have blasphemed against the Holy Spirit and I hope you at least read Christ's words on those matters and to cause and effect.
I will/have nothing to do with what will befall you and those that you are so concerned about...you want sheeple? Those who will follow you with out question.For a reason.You serve Mammon.
Let me reiterate...many men more learned than you know me who are willing to do God's work and they have the proper respect for the gifts that I am granted through the Holy Spirit.
You'll feel it at your 7:00 pm sermon. I won't be there.You'll get this letter afterwards.Then you'll remember. You insulted me for all the wrong reasons, so be it.
Now,to rectify this self imposition of calamity write me back that which you claim is unstable and unscriptural.That's why I sent you the links...verifiable passages,no matter which translation you use!Ask Tim Ulrich and "Rev." Glenn Cranfield if the calamities in their lives is enough for them to do the right thing?I guess they wanted to draw you into their suffering.Now watch!And pray.
Ask Richard Webb if his $95,000 salary is justified at the Mission,a Christian Mission
http://homelessokc.blogspot.com/2008/06/city-rescue-mission-finances.html (under Schedule A Part I Compensation of the five highest paid employess)

Matthew 18: 5-7 5"And whoever welcomes a little child like this in my name welcomes me. 6But if anyone causes one of these little ones who believe in me to sin, it would be better for him to have a large millstone hung around his neck and to be drowned in the depths of the sea."

Now is this what you are referring to?About me?
Which is the sin?Answer!
Or are you leading these children seeking the Father astray by limiting their true understanding of Jesus?And those that you follow. And those that follow you.For Mammon.
These are Jesus's words...

http://www.nccbuscc.org/nab/bible/matthew/matthew6.htm
22 14 "The lamp of the body is the eye. If your eye is sound, your whole body will be filled with light;
23 but if your eye is bad, your whole body will be in darkness. And if the light in you is darkness, how great will the darkness be.
24 15 "No one can serve two masters. He will either hate one and love the other, or be devoted to one and despise the other. You cannot serve God and mammon."

Now one last point.Do you have access to the original greek and hebrew texts of the Gospels?
The Vatican has had them in the archives from the beginning.
They have kept them secluded,limiting the children.But no longer.
The Nag Hammadi scripts,the Dead Sea Scrolls,Qumran Scrolls...etc. have forced them to acknowledge the truth of the agenda and motive and at the least you have been greatly deceived, if at the most, you are complicit.Why the urgency?The time is near for the healing of our Nation.
Why do I care? You've been gifted. Don't let these men lead you astray and those that follow you with you into the pit.

" I will be instructing our pastors to watch you closely and pay attention to your behavior."
For yours and their sake I hope that you meant this as a compliment(I do have a sense of humor)as I am obedient to the will of the Father.What is Gods will?
To draw all of creation to Him so that He may embrace and heal them .

http://www.nccbuscc.org/nab/bible/matthew/matthew23.htm
37 19 "Jerusalem, Jerusalem, you who kill the prophets and stone those sent to you, how many times I yearned to gather your children together, as a hen gathers her young under her wings, but you were unwilling!
38 Behold, your house will be abandoned, desolate.
39 I tell you, you will not see me again until you say, 'Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord.'"

Sincerely,Teodoro Leon III = God's gift like a Lion.
http://reservedmind.blogspot.com/2006/12/welcome.html

Miracles!!Funding gives boost to homeless project (Tulsa World)Homeless Mentally Ill to have homes

2008-07-21T13:55:00.003-04:00

Click on Title above to go to Tulsa World Article or click here

By MICK HINTON World Capitol Bureau

More information about Tulsa’s project to end homelessness can be found at http://www.tulsaworld.com/%20buildinglives

The state Legislature is giving Tulsa a $2 million boost to help the mentally ill who wander the streets because they have no place to live. People must first have a home before they can benefit from services to bring them out of their chronic mental illness, said Mike Brose, executive director of the Mental Health Association of Tulsa. Nationally, this approach is called "Housing First."
It has proven successful in cities such as Seattle, Los Angeles and Miami, Fla., which have greatly reduced their numbers of homeless sleeping in alleys and under bridges, Brose said.
He believes that Tulsa could virtually wipe out the homeless status of those with serious mental illness.
Currently, both the public and private sectors of Tulsa are supporting enough housing to accommodate 245 individuals living in apartments throughout the city. The $2 million boost can add about 76 more units. Based on Tulsa's demographics, Brose and others estimate that if the city had 511 of these units, it would almost eliminate the number of chronically mentally ill without homes. These are people with schizophrenia, serious bipolar disorders and chronic depression. Often, these problems are coupled with drug and alcohol use.
Getting a legislative appropriation for the housing project was no easy task this spring. It appeared to be in jeopardy during session when lawmakers said they would be lucky to maintain current budgets. The legislative leaders were toiling with a troubled economy and more tax cuts taking effect. At the end of the session, the lawmakers had about $13 million that had not been committed, out of the state's overall $7 billion budget.
From the governor's office to leadership in both houses, the elected officials agreed that Tulsa's homeless project was worthy of more funding. The project had just gotten a start last year, when it received $2 million from the Legislature. At that time, there was no commitment made to fund the project in future years.
However, Tulsa private groups have stepped forward with big contributions, showing the Legislature the commitment on the part of the community.
The housing program is being administered by the Tulsa Housing Authority, which also taps into federal funding. It's easier for legislators to give money for something when Tulsa residents show they are doing their part, said mental health department official Steve Buck, who lobbies for his agency at the state Capitol during session. Seed money for the homeless project has come from the Maxine & Jack Zarrow Family Foundation, Anne & Henry Zarrow Foundation and Ruth K. Nelson Revocable Trust. Sen. Tom Adelson, D-Tulsa, and Sen. Brian Crain, R-Tulsa, urged leaders to help the already successful program to thrive, stressing that doing something as bold as eliminating homelessness requires financial commitment.
The reward, said Adelson, is that the mentally ill will not be wandering the streets, causing problems for law enforcement and showing up at emergency rooms for costly taxpayer-funded treatment.
Brose said this is a better approach than only providing shelters for these homeless.
At best, they continue returning to the shelters and never solve their housing problem. Once housing is taken care of, Brose said, they can concentrate on their other problems and eventually get back to being on their own.
Once they are in a home, the Mental Health Association strives to provide "wrap-around services" to get people integrated back into the community.
Brose says it is working. Many of them learn how to "make it" outside the environs of their newfound homes.

The reward will be greater than what is stated above.A community raises a child and all benefit when that child is treated as a human being.Cause and effect.
The healing of the Nation and the World has begun.

Mayors Homelessness action task Force/Homeless Alliance:3.2 Billion Dollar Incentive!!

2008-06-28T15:45:00.004-04:00

Click on Image to enlarge 3.2 billion
recommendations

LOCATION AND CURRENT MAP PROCESS
ISSUE: Immediate Negative Impact of Homelessness
CURRENT PRACTICE:
Complaints regarding the negative impact of homelessness on the downtown area have become more prominent in recent months. Complaints generally fall into six behavior related categories: 1) panhandling;
2) loitering / congregating;
3) trespassing;
4) group feeding of the homeless from vehicles or in public parks;
5) sanitary complaints including public urination, littering, etc.; and
6) obstruction of sidewalks. To complainants these behaviors are threatening, harmful to businesses, an impediment for urban redevelopment, and are generally unpleasant.
Citations for ordinances are available in the Planning Department.
The Oklahoma City Municipal Code contains permanent ordinances that address each of the homeless-related behavior categories identified above. The relevant ordinances are referenced below. Ordinances from other municipalities are provided as place specific comparative practices.
1. Panhandling restrictions:
Oklahoma City has an ordinance prohibiting aggressive begging, panhandling, and soliciting under § 30-428 of the Oklahoma City Municipal Code. At certain hours of the day, and in certain locations warranting harm, panhandling is prohibited. Other peer cities have similar aggressive panhandling ordinances, although each city defines aggressive conduct differently.
Philadelphia has an ordinance creating zones for restricted sidewalk behavior. In the specified zones, aggressive panhandling is prohibited. Anecdotally, the ordinance has proven effective at curtailing even modest panhandling behavior.
Orlando has an ordinance requiring anyone wishing to panhandle on the streets to wear a panhandling permit issued by the police department. Persons who hold permits are restricted from panhandling in certain areas--including bus depots, train stations, public parks, and sports arenas--and are subject to a lengthy set of guidelines.
2. Loitering/congregating restrictions:
Oklahoma City has an ordinance prohibiting crowds from obstructing streets and
sidewalks under § 50-7 of the municipal code. Oklahoma City does not have an
ordinance concerning loitering. Columbus, Tucson, and Tulsa similarly have no loitering ordinances.

Colorado Springs has an ordinance prohibiting loitering that warrants alarm (for the safety of persons or property in the vicinity).
Philadelphia has an ordinance prohibiting loitering in certain underground and elevated areas, railroad passenger stations, and the stairs which lead to them.
3. Trespassing:
Oklahoma City has an ordinance under § 30-31 of the municipal code prohibiting
persons from trespassing on public or private property. Trespass includes the violation of a request to leave, duly posted signage, or identified hours of operation.
4. Public Feedings in Parks or on Private Property:
Oklahoma City has an ordinance prohibiting the distribution of food from a vehicle without a license under § 21-416 of the municipal code. The City also has an ordinance prohibiting littering on public property under § 27-2 of the code.
Colorado Springs and Columbus have ordinances requiring permits for the distribution of any foodstuffs.
Tucson and Tulsa have ordinances specific to parks which prohibit the sale or giving away of food without a permit on park premises.
5. Sanitary Complaints Including Public Urination, Littering, etc.:
Oklahoma City has an ordinance prohibiting the deposit of refuse on public or private property under § 24-7 of the municipal code. Oklahoma City does not specifically address issues of public urination, but regulates the issue through the prohibition of public indecency under § 30-158 of the code.
Colorado Springs, Columbus, Philadelphia, Tucson, and Tulsa have ordinances
prohibiting both littering and the use of public places as a toilet.
6. Sleeping on or Obstructing the Sidewalk:
Oklahoma City has an ordinance prohibiting the obstruction of streets and sidewalks under § 50-5 of the municipal code.
Colorado Springs, Philadelphia, and Tucson have ordinances creating zones for
restricted sidewalk behavior. In the specific zones, lying and sitting on the sidewalk is prohibited.

FURTHER ANALYSIS OF CURRENT PRACTICE:
Committee members discussed the relevancy and enforcement procedures of the above ordinances with the Oklahoma City Police Department and Municipal Counselor’s office. The following conclusions were developed from these discussions:
The Police Department investigates or enforces all reported or observed violations of the law. The police also work to educate the community about the scope of the current laws, proper responses to apparent violations, and crosscutting citizen rights. It is recognized that the police face a difficult challenge meeting the expectations and sometimes conflicting demands of the political, business and community leaders, advocates for the homeless, social service providers and the homeless population.
The Oklahoma City Municipal Counselor’s office is responsible for prosecution of
violations of City ordinances in the Municipal Court, and is responsible for preparing the legal opinions and ordinances that have been adopted by City Council and recorded in the Municipal Code. An informal legal opinion from the Municipal Counselor’s office contends codified OKC ordinances concerning homeless-related behaviors are based on the limits of what local, state and constitutional law allow. With this in mind, the comparative practices of other cities may not be replicable in the OKC context.
Through the process of this discussion, the committee has come to the realization that enforcement alone will not reduce the negative impacts of homelessness. Continued enforcement or legislation should be pursued until more sustainable solutions and resources, such as those proposed in the balance of this report have been put in place.
RECOMMENDATION:
_ Efforts should be directed at concentrating homeless services outside of the downtown core. Indirectly this would relocate the homeless population and divert negative behaviors, which tend to be prominent in areas where homeless services are abundant and where the primary needs of the homeless can be met.
_ The Committee recognizes that this is a difficult issue that demands cooperative effort and coordination with the business community, other private sector interests, the police department, planning department, the municipal counselor’s office and the Mayor and City Council.
_ Create a brochure summarizing the current ordinances, limitations to
enforcement and a proper response to violations; distribute this to local
businesses, the general public and homeless service providers as an
informational public service.
_ Raise the necessary funds to develop a comprehensive service and resource
center, including a day shelter for the homeless at a location outside of and
sufficiently buffered from the downtown redevelopment area.
_ City staff or other appointed representatives should work with state legislators to raise awareness of the relationship between homelessness, incarceration and
the limitations of local correctional facilities.

ISSUE: Relocation of Homeless Services
The successes of MAPS and MAPS for Kids have greatly increased interest in
redeveloping downtown. This may result in the need for relocation of shelters and
service agencies that have historically concentrated in the areas west and north of downtown. Some will be directly affected by public improvements associated with the Core to Shore project and others may be approached by private developers interested in purchasing their land. Additionally some homeless service providers have expressed an interest in relocating to the Homeless Alliance’s WestTown Resource Center.
CURRENT PRACTICE:
Members of the taskforce began by identifying and mapping the shelters and homeless service providers located around the downtown area.
The Salvation Army is located in the area that has been proposed through the Core to Shore planning process to be redeveloped as a large park. City planners have met preliminarily with staff from Salvation Army about the potential need for relocation. Four service provider agencies that either directly serve the homeless population or count the homeless as a significant part of their larger clientele (Healing Hands, Traveler’s Aid, DRI, City Care through its City Church feeding site) are also in or near the redevelopment area.
Relocation of the City Rescue Mission, might only be relevant in a scenario where redevelopment around its property results in
1) a significant buyout by a private interest or
2) a limit to expansion of the current location (City Rescue Mission is serving beyond capacity, regularly accommodating over 450 individuals a night in a facility initially designed for 350).
RECOMMENDATION:
_ Develop a strategy to enhance the compatibility if a service provider or shelter
decides to remain at its current location.
_ Identify city resources that may be needed in the next five to seven years to
assist the relocation effort for agencies that will be required or willing to move.
_ Reduce the need for City Rescue Mission’s emergency housing capacity by
increasing scattered-site permanent housing options. Such a solution would
lessen the congregating traffic and loitering occurring at the location.
_ City staff should continue to examine the:
o level of benefit relocation would have to shelters, service providers,
and the WestTown resource center level of benefit that such a move would have on the ability to serve the target clientele
o individual service provider’s ability to make such a move

As redevelopment pressure continues to increase, it is recommended that city
staff remain available to assist organizations affected by relocation.
Successful relocation of homeless services has been experienced in the cities of Reno, Nevada and Portland, Oregon.
ISSUE: Inefficient or misdirected giving
Individuals, churches and unaffiliated organizations, intending to help the homeless, often provide well-meaning but ineffective assistance. Examples include handing out blankets, which inadvertently encourages the recipients to stay outdoors; feeding in public places, which leads to complaints of littering and other concerns.
Coordinated giving for identified needs is shown to solve long-term issues of
homelessness.
CURRENT PRACTICES:
The Homeless Alliance sponsors a “Real Change” initiative to provide travel and meal coupons to the homeless. Direct donations of cash may be used by the homeless for unintended purposes; the “Real Change” voucher is a positive alternative. The Homeless Alliance uses revenue generated from the sale of the vouchers to support long-term solution to homelessness, including development of the WestTown Resource Center and identification of additional units of permanent supportive housing.
Other cities, usually led by the downtown business community, have carried out Public Service campaigns discouraging the handing out of spare change while simultaneously encouraging more meaningful donations to established social service providers. For example, Philadelphia ran a successful public service campaign using the tagline, “The More You Give Change the More Things Stay the Same.”
Similarly, Columbus calls its campaign “Put Your Change Where You Can Make One.”
The Columbus Downtown Development Corporation hosts a link on its website to a list of all relevant service providers and their most common needs. The campaign is advertised throughout downtown on bus shelters, before movies at the downtown theater, and on all forms of public transportation.
RECOMMENDATION:
_ Wage a prominent, multimedia campaign through agencies such as ACOG,
Downtown OKC, and others to accomplish the following goals:
o raise awareness of homelessness issues among the general public
o identify real needs and opportunities to donate for real change

Mayor’s Homelessness Action Task Force
o reduce the stigma of homelessness and increase awareness of
facts such as families are the fastest growing group of homeless in
Oklahoma City, there are an estimated 1,500 homeless children in
the public school system, and that 20% of homeless adults are
actively employed.
o promote the ongoing work of homeless shelters and service
providers

The great profit in enabling some to be "Homeless".

2008-06-18T19:47:00.009-04:00

Part I The Great profit in...
Part II That's right,let's open...
Part III Guilt By Association

The malicious reason for the increase in street people in downtown Oklahoma City.
Many that I encounter have been permanently banned from the mission,usually for a small infarction.(They have no access to the inside and the simple services such as documentation) View table here (click) or click on table to enlarge
Ex; standing on the sidewalk outside of the mission,after getting off the bus.No,I am not exaggerating.I hope to document in the future how many of these there are that have been banned.I can make a good assumption that it is in the 100's;hence the reason for the huge increase from 2005-2007 listed on your site.658-94=564 more people in two years,which is not in proportion to the other columns.Next survey ask them this specific. I know Ron Jensen gets a thrill every time,he gives someone a "Vacation" and he has never had qualms kicking a mother and small children out in the freezing winter cold without jackets.For weeks at a time. I know this for a fact.You know that I do not artificially inflate facts to sensationalize an expose...The truth is bad enough.We have some serious problems created by a few men.Is your organization in a position to change this nondocumentation that hinders many from getting the help they need?Is it verifiable government red tape,I need to know before I proceed on this research,to write an informed article so that those wanting to help may come up with a viable answer based on the obstacles.
click here to view table and chart of Totals from Homeless Alliance ,then scroll down to bottom of the page!

City Rescue Mission Finances

2008-06-14T07:39:00.013-04:00

Financial Report as filed with the IRS form990 /Return of Organization Excempt From Income Tax Click here to read and view PDF on Guidestar.org

Click on above title to view website City Rescue Mission Finances or click here
Our Expenses FY07

Program Services

$2,519,679(74.03%)

General Administration
$275,850(8.10%)
Development
$608,603(17.87%)

Our Income FY07
Contributions
$3,017,420(83.74%)
Gifts in Kind
$475,902(13.21%)
Investment
$43,996(1.22%)
Miscellaneous
$65,904(1.83%)

Form990 Part II 07

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Line 26 Salaries and wages of employees not included on line 25a,b, and c,
(A) Total $ 1,098,867
(B) Program Services $ 808,440
(C)Management and General$ 112,143
(D)Fundraising $ 178,284
According to Part II/Statement of Functional Expenses
Column B
Line 44 total functional expenses = $2,519,678
which is equal to what is listed at top "Our Expenses FY07 under "Program Services$2,519,679(74.03%) ,minus $1

If listed on there website as Program Services 2,519,679
Minus total salaries and wages onform990/line26 1,098,867
Leaves $1,420,812

Part I of form 990

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line 1 e Cash $3,017,420 noncash $475,902
As listed as
Direct Public Support on
line 1b $3,493,322

Part III- Statement of Program Service Accomplishments

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Part IV Balance Sheets

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Part IV A,B Part V A-Reconciliation of Revenue per Audited Financial StatementsWith Revenue per Return

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Part V:A,B; Current Officers ,Directors,Trusteesand Key Employees
Part VI Other information

Part VI cont

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Part VI -X cont.

Part XI

Schedule A Part I-IIB
Compensation of the five highest paid
employees other than Officers...

Schedule A Part III Statements About Activities

Part IV Reason for Non Private Foundation

Sched. A IV Support Schedule

V
Private school Questionnaire

VI,VII no info

Form 990,Part I Interest on Savings and temporary Cash Investments

Form 990 Part II -Other Expenses

Form 990 Part IV-Mortgages and other notes payable

Form 990 Part V-A Current Officers,Directors and Trustees

cont. V-A

Schedule A Part I Compensation of the five highest paid employess

Gift amounts over $5,ooo

Gifts In KIND $5,000 and above

NOW LOOK at their website and look at the link to their
Tax record and start realizing how the numbers and titles
are manipulated to make one think...it should enlighten you as how the game is played,anyone else with some insight in what they see here ,let me know.

Clothing expenses?Following the money trail of the City Rescue Mission...more to follow.

2008-06-11T12:18:00.000-04:00

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Form 990 Part II ,Other expenses.
All the clothes are used and donated so why the expense of
$205,108?
All the food is donated, so why the expense of $ 136,226 and also look at the fact that today for breakfast all had a small bowl of cereal and a doughnut,June 14th,2008.

Outside with my God!(lol)

2008-06-10T14:56:00.003-04:00

Question.
"Where do you live now, if you don't mind me asking? At the Jesus House, another shelter?
Write back soon,
Jo".
Answer.
I am at this time experiencing and being made aware of what most of the people who live "in" the "outdoors"go through, that cannot be apparent to those who have not gone through it.
Rain.Harrassment.pestilence.Fear.Violence.To name a few.
It was necessary for me to learn of it this way,though it was brought on by the malfeasance ,malcontent and avarice of certain individuals,though it was by the grace of God,for His Glory.No coincidences or mistakes in this world of His.I had to be informed to be able to make informed decisions and take informed actions. I am doing research,willingly. I do not suffer,though I do see why many do and it is usually as a result of a lie designed to keep them from the presence of God, 'If I'm suffering then there must be no God or He doesn't care for me enough to end it!"Or something to that effect,variations abound. I heard this from a man yesterday motivated to walk with a bible and to go searching for an answer.Those who suffer are there for those who are able to relieve their suffering.It gives everyone the honor and duty,through freewill, to exercise the Love and Compassion of our Father,to be Royal and Noble,as we were created in His Image for this reason.We are not impotent in our embodiment of humanity, as the accuser of humanity would want us to believe.To deny our true worth and potential is to deny God Himself.Hence the reason many are now being moved by the Holy Spirit, to reaffirm our existence and to validate and sanctify our brothers and sisters in the process.To draw all people to God.
Yes,it has been very uncomfortable at times living in my sleeping bag outdoors(not really,as I am graced to be at peace in my life,though when my brother is peaceless it is of no value to me unless I am able to afford him the same right to it,informedly),though it has been invaluable beyond measure in experience and knowledge.No coincidences in God's world. I've learned many things I would have never known had I not gone through this. I was the one able and willing to learn this side of why "the" dysfunction permeates our society,our nation ,our people.And through the wisdom of the Holy Spirit, the Gift of Christ Jesus,promote this healing for the benefit of all of God's creation.
Yes,at this time I live with nature.My Father is good to me.Under a tree, in the grass living like a lion.
Clean.Fed.At peace.
Of course I, at times,get very tired due to my depreciated physical condition and it would benefit me if I had a place to rest and lie down,be still.My scholarship is almost over,thank God.God ,in His wisdom,knows "all" that He needs to reveal to me for His work to be done.In His due time and mercy, He provides rest.Amen.
Teodoro Leon III.

Most people can't survive outdoors and keep up some sense of dignity as the result of the stigma attached to the word "homeless".I have been 40 days or more in the wilderness that is called Downtown Oklahoma City and am still able to be at peace and keep clean and carry myself well, as you can see. I'm graced by the God of my Love.I'm graced by the Love of my God.
I "LIVE" where ever I am.Let us allow our brothers and sisters to "LIVE" where ever they are and what ever circumstance and situation they find themselves.Because a man might live in a mansion does not guarantee that he "lives " with peace and contentment.

Lies due to Misperceptions,ignorance,prejudice and bias.Suffering results.Then Miracles and healing.

2008-06-08T12:26:00.005-04:00

I originally wrote this article back on 4/22/08 and didn't know that at the time there was more to the stares , scorn and contempt that I got from the people named in this letter.Here I thought it was just because they thought I was a witch ,Satanist or both.Huh.Well the comment at the top of the page should help explain the behaviours at this link to Yes lets reveal the truth.The truth of Violence.And Revenge .(click here) I thought it good to republish this article due to the fact of miracles.Yes,now I'm really homeless (click here to read)april 24 A miracle of healing amongst these good folks. They've stopped the stares of contempt and scorn.They are even approaching me with smiles and getting to know of me by reaching out and talking.And asking.
The miracle of voice and empowerment attributed, as a divine right, to bring truth ,through the excercise of thought,knowledge and speech, into the light, by God's grace , so that we may all be honorable and truly honor God.
By perpetual gift of1787 , the Constitutional Amendment 1 - Freedom of Religion, Press, Expression ,of the United States of America," Congress shall make no law respecting an establishment of religion, or prohibiting the free exercise thereof; or abridging the freedom of speech, or of the press; or the right of the people peaceably to assemble, and to petition the Government for a redress of grievances."
Article the eleventh [Amendment IX]
"The enumeration in the Constitution, of certain rights, shall not be construed to deny or disparage others retained by the people."

April 22,2008
I have not told you ...that due to my source of income drying up, I am behind 120.00 $ in rent.I don't have a car, computer,mp3,camera,TV( everything ,except the car was sold to pay for the rent. The car was of course impounded in Nov and the police kept my camera.)...etc.,anymore.I am completely broke!Catholic Charities promised $95, the girl (social service assistant, Sandra C.)in charge of the case even called my manager in front of me and told them the check was in the mail; for the last 3 weeks...Then last Friday the girl in charge of the case told the truth and told me no money was going to be sent.They don't pay for motel rooms she stated ,though" they" knew where I lived and what it was called.She was under duress and ignorant of the truth of my situation as a result of gossiping lies.
Community Action did the same thing. They were sending a check for $150 as of 2 weeks ago(I even saw the lady pick up the phone and call downtown to the finance dept and state that I needed $75 but since by the time they would get around to it,I would need $150) and it was supposed to be a done deal.Went there last Fri. to inquire about the status and the lady(Connie C.) who made up the folder and application acted like she didn't even know me.She went even to the extent of saying I never spoke to her and that she did not make me a folder.She was the director.An assistant of hers made her a liar by finding the folder ,in her hand writing.So she then said that my application had been denied because I did not have a job.And besides ,she had talked to St. Vincent de Paul(!!) and that they had already helped me.The check had not arrived when I spoke to Connie C..Hence ,the reason going to her agency. When I told her I can work ,after I recover from my illnesses(bronchitis,the foot surgeries,test. masses and the bleeding I was experiencing due to my diverticulitis[anemic at that]) and that I actually had a job at Labor Ready.She immediately popped off that it was not a real job and that I was still denied. These incidences are all related.
St Vincent de Paul society is were the problems started.The society from my parish(?).Out of avarice,malfeasance, envy and jealousy( greed?),they also played a sick game of delay,but most importantly they played a game of gossiping lies.On march 28, I believe ,which was a Friday,the president of the Society,Kathy V.(keeper of the purse) called my manager(the process was actually instigated with a phone call to the president by the sister at the parish, due to me not having a phone;hence the phone call to my manager from the president) and told her that since it was me and that they knew me ,she would take the check book home with her on sat. and cut a check and that my manager would receive it on monday.Mon., Tues., wed., no check.I called her wed. and told her that the check had still not been received.She made the comment that they were all volunteers and nobody worked on the weekends,unaware that my manager told me her conversation with her on Fri.She then asked me to confirm the address.When the manager received the check the following Mon. I asked her to look at the post mark.April 3rd. I suppose she was hoping that by the time the checked had arrived ,Linda would have evicted me.Linda knows what I do and why.She hasn't evicted me yet...but her boss has bills to pay and it is a burden.
Besides,they have all willingly lied and my manager is under the impression that Catholics are liars( she was right ,from what she was told and promised).My manager is a good Christian,hence the reason of me not being on the streets. Yet.
Mrs. V.,from St V, started the problems.I had to go to the thrift store by the same name to fill out the paperwork and she started interrogating me.Literally.What do you do?Question after question,and the answers were not to her satisfaction.Out of expediency ,I gave her my card and explained it would be easier for her to see what I did if she looked at my website , as she couldn't understand, after almost 30 min. , my explanation of working with the poor and why.And how for the last 3 years I embedded myself at the mission to help, through prayer and example , alleviate the crack problem,especially the problem of the( my ministry Click )crack house(the crack house click) across the street from the mission.I explained to her,that for most of that time embedded, I worked through Labor Ready everyday at Semasys Corp.(getting up at 3:30 and bicycling to 50 & Santa Fe...miles to be there at 5am), but due to a lay off and then my hospitalization and then the theft of my money during my incarceration, I was broke.I was also incredibly sick, despite the facade of my healthy physique. I tried to explain to her that I had wisely invested my money in these people and that I had had a substantial savings, but that it was stolen during my incarceration by someone who was supposed to move my belongings out of the place I lived at the time and put them in storage.(She was not listening. For a reason).This person thought he would not be seeing me for awhile(despite me telling him I was at Gods work[going to challenge the injustice of the marijuana "laws" by subjecting myself to arrest;the actual arrest was not of my doing or plan,and yes it was theHoly Spirits,I was only required to be willing, and though I was well aware of the suffering involved,I submitted.The way it happened caught me by suprise] and would be out soon),so instead he left my belongings.But of course, he got all the electronic stuff(laptop,mp3,stereo ,speakers,gameboy...etc.) and a few choice items he thought he could use(shoes and clothes he thought might fit his woman)...and the money.
When I showed up unexpectedly at his place after being released,the money was long gone.4 weeks.He cost me the equivalent of $3,000 and more, not including the car being lost due to him not getting the title,which was in a notebook in my place with the items left (yes ,I forgave him...as forgiveness is for the receiver and giver[the burden is lifted from the giver] ).
I gave her my card with my website url explaining that it would be easier for her and me if she would look at the blog,detailing what I do and why.But ,I warned her that I had links,on my site to Witchcraft100 and WitchVox,for my own personal education on what the heathens (LOL) were up to and their theologies. Got to know the nature of the disease before an effective stimulus can be applied. She immediately turned to the lady with her and said,"What did I tell you! A witch!"I immediately told her that I was not a Witch(or what they perceived as a witch) as that is a deceivement of the the devil and that all power comes from God.These were sites for my own education.
See,I wear a pendant that my good friend Bill( an expert in greek and the Bible[he would never have gave me something profane as he is adept and loving of me,as a result of his awareness of my ministry and the respect he holds for God and me] ) gave me and they don't understand that the dragon(eastern mysticism;This large, mystical creature may represent large and mystical forces inside of you. In the Far-East it is believed that the dragons are spiritual creatures that navigate through the air and through the sky.the dragon is generally a positive symbol. It may represent a period of time when the dreamer will confront his fears and empower himself to effectively cope with negative emotions, extreme materialism, and be able to obtain greater inner and outer freedom. ) above the cross is not Satan!The circle of protection on that cross symbolizes the protection I receive while under the shadow of my Fathers wing bearing my cross.They've seen me wear it.And only one person has been strong enough to ask about it( Connie ;RCIA).The president called(?) or was called by everyone in the charity game?Hence,their ignorance and hate of me and the sick games they have played.But then again,if they perceive the dragon as satan,then their actions and words are even more meaningful to me for the act of forgiveness.Every time I look in the mirror I see this dragon, and it reminds me not to be(too) angry at these offenders as I understand how easily they are misled by our greatest enemy.I have to forgive my greatest enemy for deceiving these poor children.A commandant of my Lord,Jesus Christ.What merit is it to forgive only those you love. Even evil people do that. I don't make this stuff up.My Father has taught me well.It still pains me,though :( I cried in my sleep last night and woke up with tears on my face this morning.Why won't you at least get to know me?And then you can make an informed decision to feel whatever you like.
I am not offended at the insults and lies directed at my person. Some of you hope that I will just go away.Your own guilt and shame inflict and cause you pain. But I understand the nature of the disease...or would you not be at peace with the decisions and actions that would cause me to live in the street like an unwanted stray...hungry,thirsty,tired and alone?My Father would give me the money for my needs,but obviously he didn't and I was sent to you and the charitable organizations that were set up to help people such as I.Yes,it is an injustice what has been afforded to my person by the lies and dysfunction of those complicit in these actions or inaction's ..or just plain dragging of the feet. Are you not aware that I know of the gossiping lies? You think all these things were done in secret. My Father sees all. I am aware.I am not offended of your condition. I love you.I forgive you. But ,please stop for your sake! Injustices are repaid with injustice.Unexpectedly.To those we love.Even you ,have those you love.What is it about me that offends you so? If you spent some time to know me ,your fear would leave. Your true fear is that you know that you would love me. Loving someone you had dreamed .the dream is real.that scares you. It's OKAY! I Love YOU....no matter what. My pain and tears are for you. You are worthy, for me to shed my precious tears over . That is the beauty you need. It is real.This your medicine.Accordingly due!

More Christian Exclusivity?Sad ,insolent,ending.Oklahoma City First United Methodist Church,downtown,undesirables not part of of plan/recovery.

2008-06-05T08:19:00.002-04:00

One cannot serve God and mammon,both.

To whom it may concern: Mark Mc Adow,Senior Pastor:First United Methodist Church,Oklahoma City,Oklahoma, 131 N.W. 4th.
Kirk Norman,Executive Pastor: First United Methodist Church.
Dear Sir's;
I was told by someone that your church ( First United Methodist Church ,Celebration Ministry?)not only fed a dinner but that a "lord's Group was offered and also, most extraordinary,that a form of group therapy was offered to those caught in the throes of addiction,"after" they were fed.
I decided to investigate, as it is my ministry to seek out the good and the bad in our city and bring it to light.
I felt this was a "good" considering the dysfunction of our world and nation that can be measured by the amount of homeless people in our downtown area of our city as a result of some sort of addiction and or dysfunction.
I had just poured myself a glass of Iced Tea when I was approached by a man that informed us that were congregated at this table that we were not going to be able to eat for free as a result of what had happened the previous week and something or another about "budget". It would cost us $ 3.00.
All of these people were poor.Most were "impressed" that they were to eat first. Most were under the impression that it was "free".
I know first hand that most of these people there were looking to free themselves from the trauma of addiction and were glad that a group therapy was offered.How do I know?They told me!
Feed ,Heal, Teach and then assimilate them back into society and make them worthy.Our brothers and sisters.
The ones our community has abandoned as children and who are now an embarrassment to many.
Yes, an embarrassment.We all should be embarrassed,angry and nauseated that this happens in the land of milk and honey."The Promised Land".
I then immediately followed this man into the kitchen to ask him who was in charge so that I could get the facts as to why this was stated.
He informed me that he was the one in-charge.But he became immediately defensive when I tried to hand him my card and explain that I was a writer and activist.I explained to him what I wrote above,stating that one could not serve God and mammon,both.
He responded quite angrily,that if I had gone to any other "Celebration" around the city I would find that "they" charge the minimum of $5.00!
I tried to explain that these people would now go hungry due to the fact they would not be able to eat anywhere else and that they should have been told the "requirement" last week to save them the wasted time.There were only 8-12 of " these" people.They were "poor" and not in possession of $3.00.They would all have went elsewhere to eat and then maybe had returned for the recovery group . Yes, maybe.50/50 chance.Now , they were embarrassed,spited and scorned.
Your church missed an opportunity to salvage a human being ,worthy in God's eyes,as He was the one who created them ,due to the greed ,prejudice and discrimination they encountered at your church.
Your church is rich,considering the size of the campus and the newness of the building's architecture, financially.
Is your church also rich in spirit, or is it just a facade? Your richness shall be measured in the righteousness of your actions and thoughts that should be in line with the teaching's of our Lord, Jesus Christ,our Savior and salvager of humanity.
Do you really believe this? Was He exclusive?
Are you the Pharisees and Sadducee's of old? Has nothing changed in 2,000 years?
A few went hungry on Friday,needlessly. Most of all , they suffered shame.

P.S.
This letter is being published on http://www.homelessokc.blogspot.com/ and
http://www.newsvine.com/ . Hopefully this man's actions were isolated and not a reflection of your church and congregation.Can this be remedied?The Lord God no longer requires sacrifice,but Mercy. I can help you make these unfortunates presentable, if that was the issue.Write me.I know a lot of them personally.It's my ministry.
Sincerely and respectfully,Teodoro Leon III.

Response from Mark McAdow,Senior Pastor;First United Methodist Church,131 NW4th,Oklahoma City,Oklahoma.
Dear Teodoro,
Thank you for your letter. I do not know who you encountered on Friday evening,
but I'm sorry you felt scorned in any way. Our Celebrate Recovery Program is less
than two years old, so we are still learning. We are blessed with a beautiful Church facility,
but financially we are well behind our budget for the year. Though we began offering meals
for donations only(so all could eat); we unfortunately had to discontinue that policy because of
the lack of finances. We are here to serve people with addictions who sincerely want help.
What we found were several people coming just to eat. There are several other ministries in
OKC that provide daily meals, but that is not the focus of Celebrate Recovery. Since you indicated
your plan to post your letter on a blog -without seeking additional understanding -I must believe
that you are not truly interested in being a part of the solution.
Sincerely yours,
Mark

My response to Pastor McAdow
Dear Sir:
With all due respect, I understood very well the nature of the reason for the rejection.But is really amazing how one is moved to action by one issue being brought to light.
I have spoken with Pastor Dale Tremper of this matter and he will probably tell you I understand the practical and theoretical aspects very well.Not only do the people who are better off feel a justifiable discomfort encountering people on the fringes of society due to their dress and hygiene,but so do those people they encounter feel as such due to their perceived shame as a result of their situation and circumstance.
No need to be defensive.
The ones looking for a free meal were weeded out and shall be weeded out. I could come up with the $25 that was needed but let me tell you something else I know that I did not publish.
A man ,who I know for sure, had been sober for a week as a result of that first encounter told that person in charge that he was not so concerned about the meal as he was about attending the group for recovery. He had food in the green army duffel bag he carried(MRE's).His name is Kenneth.He told him he just wanted to stay for the group as he wanted to stay sober.
He was told by this person claiming to be in charge that he wasn't going to be able to stay for the group,that it wasn't going to happen.Now that is a clear indication to me that the $3 dollars was a smoke screen. It was known that most of these people would not have $3 dollars due to the poverty in their lives that touched all aspects of their humanity,starting first with the poverty of addiction.
The previous week must have been a culture shock due to all the free loaders that you rightfully stated where there for the free meal.
They were not there on Friday.The only ones I saw indicated that they were impressed with the structure of the program which of course included the meal.I counted 8 people.Plus three I met coming up the sidewalk.That was the extent of the population.These people most importantly wanted to feel the presence of God in their lives and the previous week had given them hope and strength,hence the reason Kenneth had been sober for a week living on the streets.Nearly impossible for most living on the streets.
I would pray that you read my letter again.There is an answer.I am glad that you responded to my letter instead of just ignoring the issue.How good it would be for your church if we could find a viable answer.What good publicity for your church if I could write an article about how a plan was formulated that entailed courage and honor.How it is playing a real role in salvaging humanity,especially the poorest of the poor.The outcasts.
I was not scorned. I did not need the meal, I specifically went to see what I had thought would be the "Good" that was being generated by an outreach on the part of your church.
Yes, I was angry ,and rightfully so, to see my brothers shamed.Jesus my Lord got angry enough to fashion a whip and to over turn tables at an injustice He perceived being done to the people.There is no need for that.We both serve the same God.
Separate areas? Separate times? sandwiches? Please read my blog about Believers Church providing an inexpensive meal that was both nutritious and satisfying. http://www.homelessokc.blogspot.com/2008/05/believers-church-sincerely-doing-gods.html the point is it can be done if the will and desire are there.We would have drinks first and then the recovery and then after the meal.Standards would have to met...would have to be sober for that day,not on any drugs.No vulgarity,profanity ...etc.This would weed out alot of free loaders who have no intent in progressing in their lives and being healed.Then when some of these people would show benefit of sobriety they could be assimilated into other areas of your church,most likely than not a sober person becomes productive in time and is better able to interact with civility,honor and dignity.Would you not like to see this miracle and be part of it? I've seen it happen many times before.
It will take courage and the demonstration of our true christian values to accomplish this task,but with God all things are possible.There is also the possibility that I could motivate others to help out in one respect or the other, an interfaith project. Pastor Jim McDowell http://www.believerschurchokc.com/ ,Jennifer Gooden with Homeless Alliance at http://www.homelessalliance.org/ , Mayor Mick Cornetts homelessness action task force ,plan at http://homelessalliance.org/MHATF.pdf ,Kim Woods,homeless coordinator/social worker at Catholic Charities ,Neely Goen at http://www.groministry.com/, Tim Ulrich at http://www.refugeokc.org/ .
Yes , I really do want to help,not only these poor, but the nation that I love and cherish.it won't be as hard as one would think.There are many being moved by the spirit at this most opportune time so we have the help.
If this is not to your liking,well of course let me know.But the mechanism is already in place through your church, what a shame not to see it progress and come to fruition,so that the Lord God Himself may someday say to us,"with you ,I am well pleased!"
Sincerely, Teodoro Leon III

Final response from the Pastor
Teo - Please delete me from your E-mail distribution list. Thank you.
Mark McAdow

My final correspondense
Yes ,I will remove you from my list...but be aware that an injustice is paid with an injustice.Your own apathy will afford your children and those you love the suffering you impose on others by your inablity to do God's will,which you know well. I did not mean to send you that last letter(National Security Presidential Directive )or have any further correspondence with you. I shake the dust off my feet...And I in no way will be the cause for the traumas that will be inflicted on you and the ones you love.It's called Karma and it is strong and immediate as of lately, as the time is near...what time? .Your perceived wisdom should reveal it to you. Teodoro Leon III

an appropriate RESPONSE from the Salvation Army!The healing begins!

2008-06-03T17:59:00.000-04:00

re;Children feeling Hate directed at them,May28,08 click here to read
History below.
To : Chris_Priest@uss.salvationarmy.org" Regional Director,Southern area.
6/02/08
Dear Sir: I have not received a response from the Oklahoma City Area Command concerning what remedy or not was taken to address the issue of the children suffering shame and hunger.In your letter that you sent to me it was indicated that I would receive some response by some one contacting me through my email . I did go to the office at 311 SW 5th and was steered to Ernie the marketing director, as everyone was out for the day or had gone home.I've learned from others that this is a common tactic employed when people come to make a complaint concerning the treatment or not they received from the Salvation Army.He was civil and listened to my observation which included a letter in writing that he made a copy of for his records.I clarified to him ,as he was under a wrong impression, that this woman was a walk in and did not reside in the shelter, as if that should have made a difference. I need to know what action was taken ,if any to insure this behavior displayed by Crystal the cook would not be directed at innocent "children "again, before I proceed to write the next part of my excerpt. I want to write an informed article and hopefully it has a happy ending,for Crystal and the children. If I do not receive a response, I will be forced to write what I assume happened and it will basically say that I did not receive a response but also include all the info and actions taken concerning this issue. All the links to the area website are dead... a fact.No contact info,emails...just a dead site. But the phone numbers are accessible.I can find and publish them. Teodoro Leon III

From Chris Priest in response to above letter.6/02/2008
Thank you for your email. I have contacted the office in Oklahoma City and sent them your further email. God bless you!

From Ernie Potter,Business Administrator,Oklahoma City Salvation Army,311 SW5th.6/03/08
Mr. Leon:
First, let me correct your misconception. I am not the Marketing Director.
I am the Business Administrator. In that capacity, I wear many hats,
including Human Resources Director. It is my practice to receive
complaints, listen to the complaints, and take those complaints to the
proper department heads, insuring that the complaints are investigated.
This is not, as you infer, a scam to get rid of complainers, but an actual
attempt on my part to take care of problems.
Let me repeat--I am not PR, I am part of the solution.

After you left my office, I took your complaint to Toni Sanders, Director
of Social Services. Janet Miller, Residential Services Manager was not in
her office that afternoon, as she was in meetings all afternoon, but Ms.
Sanders passed this complaint on to her as did I on her return to the
office. Rest assured that we take these complaints very seriously and are
attempting to correct the problem. Additionally, the lady who brought her
grandchildren in that afternoon also came in the next day and gave Ms.
Sanders a written incident report. In response to this situation, we have
warned our kitchen staff that rudeness and condescencion will not be
tolerated. Because of the conflicts in our schedules, it will be Thursday
of this week before we can have a full staff meeting with our kitchen staff
to work on their people skills, but we will continue to reinforce the fact
that we will not tolerate such behavior.
As for disciplinary measures, those matters are confidential, so they will
not be discussed with you or with anyone else. I'm certain that you can
respect the fact that we are both legally and morally obligated to use the
utmost discretion and confidentiality in such matters.

Please also understand that people don't completely change overnight. It
is our goal to end bad behavior immediately, then to work with our staff to
improve their attitudes. The ultimate improvement of attitude will more
than likely be gradual, so don't expect overnight transformations. People
will be people--we just want them to be good people.

Please also keep in mind the fact that while we may not be perfect, we feed
a large number of people every night and we neither ask nor expect payment.
Our staff, however, needs to understand why we feed people. It's not a
human obligation on our part (we don't owe these people anything in a
strictly worldly way), but it is a scriptural and spiritual obligation to
our God. We are to love one another and Christ says that when we have
"done this to the least of these, you have done it to me." That's our
motivation and that's what we are trying to teach our staff.

Be patient with us. We're human and frail, but we'll get it done.

Once again, thank you for coming to see me. Things don't get better if we
don't know there's a problem.From A letter sent to me by Ernie Potter ,sent June 3rd,Tuesday,2008

My response!Sent 6/03/2008
Yes,very many thanks Mr. Potter. As I want you to know, I was impressed with your candor and sincerity during our brief meeting and as I told Pastor Dale Tremper I believed your disposition or you were an exceptionally good actor. Pastor Tremper informed me that he knew you and that your heart was in the right place.That was enough for me. As to receiving a response, as informed by Chris Priest, by the person responsible for writing to me, it didn't happen,but your letter makes up for that.I understand fully what you have stated in your letter and am satisfied. I do believe in all the areas you touched on and why.Privacy.In house investigation.
I never intended for Crystal to be fired or punished.I believe in redemption for all.She and her staff are fine cooks.Though, your investigation might find that she has 2-3 freezers in her home possibly filled with items intended for the public,hence the motivation for her behaviors, from the investigation I made into her,though my sources are biased and tainted by anger.Caused by her behaviors.Cause and effect.The things that she thought she did in secret and that she thought would never be revealed have to come to light and that should help correct her actions that are not only hurting the public,your organization's image ,but her dignity and honor,too.
Yes ,this is a positive result that will benefit all,including us.I do apologize for having to use a tactic to get a response and for not realizing your true position . I would have researched it but the website for your Salvation Army is dead.Only the top of the page is visible and all the buttons are inoperable.
Again, I thank you from the bottom of my heart and sincerely consider you my friend and a friend of Christ .It was a pleasure to meet you and work with you through this issue and situation.
The healing begins.Alleluia! Amen. Sincerely ,Teodoro Leon III.

"An attempt at Empathy" by Jim Mcdowell/video by Lisa Wilkerson

2008-06-03T11:54:00.002-04:00

An attempt at Empathy by Pastor Jim McDowell/Believers Church

2008-06-03T08:14:00.003-04:00

March 04, 2008
An attempt at empathy
I wrote this poem in 2005 about the transition to empathy and wanted to post it here.(Jim's Blog http://www.jimmcdowell.typepad.com/ )

PITY
Brazen face spotted close – but far.
I see you, I don’t know you.
I don’t live where you live.
I don’t want to visit you.

Your life is not mine – it’s different.
My Joneses won’t let me give you the time of day.
I would say that it’s your lot in life.
I would lie.

My heart it hurts – for you.
I left your city, your neighborhood, your street, months ago.
I still see you, dirty, hungry, sad.
Like your parents must have told you, I can’t do anything.

I am coming - for you.
The tears in my eyes have been forming since I saw you.
In that place, that terrible place.
You deserve, something, anything, to eat, to be loved.

I am here – for you.
You must be here somewhere,
I search these streets, these alleys.
I can’t find you so I ask.

Where is the little boy with dirty face that looked hungry, lost, and alone, - where are you?
You are gone,
They insist,
I am alone; I am leaving your town, your city, your street, as you did some weeks ago.

I believe, that you are in a better place now,
That God above has a special place for you – now.
I missed a chance, to show you love.
I am sorry, please forgive me

©2005 Jim McDowell

Believers Church sincerely doing God's Will!

2008-05-31T11:37:00.006-04:00

The little children were called "Daisy's".Appropriately named.They were so vibrant ,inspired and a blessing to all. They are the ones who baked the delicious chocolate chip cookies that were served with the meal that was given at 9Th and Blackwelder to those desperate with hunger.
They were fed satisfactorily in all aspects of their humanity.
Emotionally,physically,mentally and most importantly ,spiritually.
Sincerity,kindness and compassion were evident in all that they did.The adults are to be lauded for raising those children in spirit.It was obvious in the tone of voice everyone used and how they interacted with those they were ministering to that they loved their brothers and sisters despite the obvious differences in economic and social status.In the differences of situation and circumstance they "found" each other.
The pastor of the church is Jim Mc Dowell, who is a good Shepherd leading his flock in the right direction...he has a blog at http://www.jimmcdowell.typepad.com/ .Read and watch the video"Pity".It will be bring you to tears, rightfully so.
To view the church's website link here http://believerschurchokc.com/ , or click on above title.
The meal consisted of a Taco Salad,cookies and pink lemonade.
It was feasible,economical and easily prepared and served.
Everyone ate until they were full. I personally had 2 plates ,gladly served by the adults.
I only got one name ,Debbie...but they are all in my hearts and prayers.
Their faces are embedded in my heart and mind.Peace be with Us.

Children feeling hate directed at them

2008-05-28T19:00:00.006-04:00

Oklahoma City. Downtown.
I've been attending the salvation army dinner that they serve at 5:00 p.m. since April and I've noticed a few odd things about one of your employees. I am led to believe that your Army is One of Gods,specifically Jesus the Christ,by your mission statement.So I thought I would let you know how very unchristian this lady is.Odd that she should work for your Army and be empowered so that she is able to yield such undue influence as to who she thinks is worthy to eat.I am writing about small children that she let hear her hate directed at them influence that they leave at 5:05 p.m..
"No, No No,No...there's too many......uhhh..tell her she can take it to go..yeah put it in some "to go" containers."
She saying this as she's putting up chairs.It is 85 degrees outside.
These are small children ranging from 2- 8 in age. Well behaved,clean kids. I'd never have seen them there myself.
I had to speak out on this matter and I was as civil and restrained in what I said to her that she should not have got offended.
First, if it's not clear above, her intent was that she was not going to feed them...that is why she said no,there were too many.
That's when I said something to the effect,"What do you mean there are too many?Your not going to feed them?"
She basically said it was not any of my business and that I needed to stay out of it, as she was the one who called the shots.And that she had worked there for two years.
And then she asked me if I got paid for the work I do and I told her that I actually don't get paid for doing God's work as it is an honor to do God's work by writing about injustices such as she was displaying and that it actually "was" my business to get involved.
She then said something derogatory about me being poor and homeless and needing her help and so how could I be doing God's work. I tried to explain to her that I actually do have a job writing my blog that several people in positions read that could influence her attitude...and of course God.
I try to hand her my card and really explain to her that I do write a blog and that she needed to be aware that I will make her responsible for her hate and prejudice.She said that she was not worried.
That is why I was there, I told her, to observe and keep an eye on people like her and to bring it to light so that she does not hurt anyone again ,as she has done similar things like this before in the past .
I had to impress and reaffirm to her that "I " was the one who "would" be able to make her accountable.That I was the one empowered to make her responsible.I think I saw some recognition in her face.Recognition of the truth.
These children were now on the way out the door when she started changing her tone of voice and not sincerely ,but out of fear."No.no,no ..you don't have to leave...you can eat here."
They all knew that they were not wanted, as they continued to walk out the door.And I followed them.We heard insincerity and maliciousness.
All this time the children had been listening with sad faces as they had put their food in
"to go "containers.The grandmother never objected,challenged or raised a fuss with this woman.She was polite but obviously greatly affected by this humiliation.There were more than 25 people who witnessed this shame.
I told the children and the beautiful, polite woman on the way out the door to give thanks to God for the food for as they would not have to be hurt like that again,in Spanish.
According to the lady who was with the children,she might have been the grandmother,this has happened before.
This woman,I believe her name is Christa or something(it should not be to hard to figure out who she is as she is the only black woman that works there that weighs over 325 lbs.), had told this grandmother that they stop serving dinner at 5:00 p.m. and that she had refused to give them anything . They went hungry .She has made innocent children suffer needlessly.Out of hate.Hatefully! They start feeding at 5:00p.m.!!!
I instructed her to please go to the office tomorrow and speak to the commander and do her part by informing them of what this woman has done to her and the kids.I told her to do it because I was also going to make it known but that I needed her to do her part.
Are you going to do your part? Will a community make this woman responsible,for our good and the good of all the church?This letter/article is being sent to:
MediaRelations@usn.salvationarmy.org
chris_priest@uss.salvationarmy.org
jennifer gooden <jgooden@homelessalliance.org>
support@volunteermatch.org
http://www1.salvationarmy.org/ihq/www_sa.nsf/vw-dynamic-index/4CB5A61C1A28AFCA80256FA40067F221?openDocument

This article is being published on http://www.homelessokc.blogspot.com/ Can I write about a wrong righted in my next article or do I have to keep writing and forwarding this letter until something viable happens for the good.

The otherside of the coin.Why civilians are justified to an extent of how they feel and react to a "Homeless"person.

2008-05-27T20:21:00.007-04:00

Come on!Even though I am the compassionate, insightful person who's mission has been, for the last several years, to help alleviate the diseases of our world , I am still at times baffled and nauseated by the dispositions and actions of these poor .At this time ,I am only speaking of the "homeless" . Poverty encompasses most of humanity in all aspects of their conditions.But so that this blog doesn't go on and on, I will deal only with the poverty of homelessness in this article.And why most of society has no compassion for these people.Why they feel justified in their hardness of heart and the nausea they feel when confronted through encounters, by these "proles".
Everywhere I go ,they are there. I recognize them. I know who they are...I'd better ,after over 4 years familiarizing myself with this environment. I know most of them by name.
They are in every library in the city. They are at every plasma donation facility. They are at every Walmart.Every McDonald's.Every truck stop. Every single mall. Every part of the city. You don't see them but I do, because it's my mission.
Some of them are obvious to the eye and nose.They are the ones that look"homeless".Unkempt.Filthy beyond measure.In the undignified way that they carry themselves, with no shame for their condition, as if it was a badge of honor and freedom.
Then there are those you would have no idea that they have slept in a mission for years on end or out on the street because of the facade they have mastered.They keep clean. Their clothes are clean.But they don't feel clean or dignified.These do feel shame, to an extent.
What do most of them have in common?
Faithlessness and Unbelief.Anger.Despair.Severe limits in their capacities to deal with their own humanity and short comings. Arrogance.Ungratefullness.An attitude that they are owed .But not by God. Alot of them believe there is no God.
Most cringe at the word"GOD". And don't even mention the name "Jesus" to them.
In your face they might pretend to worship a God but in their hearts they believe nothing except the emptiness and dissatisfaction they experience. They pay lip service. They live in a painful lie.
How do I know? They confide in me. I've earned most of their trust's and respect's. Most used to consider me as common as they are but in time recognized that I'm different. Only until recently have they realized that I came willingly to live amongst them and learn of their dysfunction.Only because it was finally necessary to reveal this truth to them. To what extent I went as a result of my love for them.No, I did not say like.Though at times, I do like them and am proud of them and their accomplishments.
They don't know how to" live".Period.
Why?
Because they have never been taught their true nature.
In fact, they have been limited in scope in their understanding of their potential by false doctrines and dictates of men.We have failed and abandoned them and we won't take responsibility as a society for this. We blame it on them.Rightfully so,to a small extent.
We have kept them as slaves, ignorant for the profit a few select who are able to extract from every ounce of sweat and blood that comes out of their being.
Yes, they are an embarrassment.Our embarrassment.Of our design. As a society. Due to our collective apathy. It just seems easier to turn our backs at times because we have also fed into that lie of our own impotence.False doctrines and dictates of men and establishments motivated by agendas.Little children who think that Daddy is not watching or who won't find out.Or who won't be home soon.Just wait until your father gets home.But this Father of ours is omnipotent and omnipresent.Not to mention compassionate and merciful.And unconditionally loving.
These children don't understand that. They've been lied to, so they live accordingly, a lie.
A lie of who they are. So they act piggish and are merciless to themselves because that is what they have been taught...if they been taught anything at all.
I carry myself with dignity and nobility, as that is what my true nature is comprised of due to the direct descendant relation I have to God our father.My brothers and sisters learn by example.Usually the hard way due to their limitations and indoctrinations imposed on them since childhood.But slowly and surely the light begins to emanate forth from their being,from within.Outward. And they start to shine and proceed forward and are amazed at their new found freedom.
Yes, Freedom.
What "Braveheart" died for.What King Leonidas died for.For they knew the worth of their humanity.
A family structure somehow teaches that to a child. A community understands the potential worth of each member of their community and nurtures it. For the greater good of the whole community. It does not enslave or abandon it's own. It does not profit off the suffering of it's own children or people.
If they are dirty and unkempt ,they are washed.
If they are hungry they are fed.
If they are ignorant they are taught.They are assimilated.
If they are an embarrassment they are shown manners and how and why to value them.
They are shown to be Royal and Noble. Our children.
My children.
Noble: 2 .Having or showing qualities of high moral character, such as courage, generosity, or honor: "a noble spirit".
by Teodoro Leon III 2008/may

Mayor Cornett and his cronies plans being implemented.History repeating itself.Nazi's and Jews sound familiar?Loitering.Injust paid with an Injustice

2008-05-24T15:00:00.018-04:00

http://homelessalliance.org/MHATF.pdf Mayors Homelessness Action Task Force
Now there are many good things in this plan but certain individuals are hijacking it and making it a totally different animal due to greed and prejudice.And their hidden agendas and motives.
The benches at the library have been moved away from the building.
Out from under the canopy and in direct sunlight or the rain .
I was told, at first, by one librarian that she had no idea "why" the benches were moved.Then when I prodded her she came up with the reason that smokers must be 25 feet from the building. I pointed out that the library had been open at least two years and only until yesterday the benches had been moved.She responded with the fact the library had been open since 2004.
No one ,until recently ,had made an issue of smoking 25 feet away from the building.The benches did not have to be moved to enforce the "no smoking within 25 feet from the building" rule,that she had pointed out was enforced in all the city.
When I asked her who I could speak to for clarification she referred me to the next librarian who stated that it was Linda the security head who got the director to approve the move as a result of some problems they were having with loitering.

The city bus terminals doors are locked during operational hours.
The buses start running on Saturdays at 6:00 a.m. but the doors to the terminal are locked until whenever the security walking inside it decides to unlock the doors. And according to one of the bus drivers I spoke to and asked what time they unlocked the doors, he said it was 8:00-8:30 a.m..
Another bus driver said it was 9:00 a.m..
According to the guard himself it was 7:00 ,only because I was able to corral him as he tried to stealthily make it to the trash can, at 6:55.He did happen to mention that he was only doing what he was told.But he understood my position and the reason for the questions so he threw in that the Mission was only 4 blocks away and that they have problems with drunks and people loitering.
Now ,during this time from 6:00 to whenever the doors are unlocked by the wandering security guard ,people are off loading from the the buses coming in and going directly to the terminals doors and attempting to get in,but alas, realize that the doors are locked. People who have paid their fare at some other point and who have arrived at the facility, probably thinking this price has afforded them the right to use the indoor area for shelter in case it's raining,restrooms for human relievement ,to maybe use the only payphone for blocks to call their boss,get a drink of water to take there medicine, or even possibly spend more money on the outrages snack machines.Then, they are more likely than not going to take another bus out of there to another destination,as most people who arrive at the terminal don't live in the area or work there on Saturdays.Some have to wait up to an hour and a half for their transfer.
Now they will wait outside.
And pee or poop or both in the alley,if they are so inclined or desperate.
They might be able to take their medicine dryly but choke on the pill as it gets stuck in their throat.
Maybe the guard inside the terminal will call the ambulance for this person as no one else will, considering the phone is inside behind LOCKED doors.
An injustice is paid with an even greater injustice.
Gas is up to $3.80 a gallon.
I have already started to see the direct effect of this at the terminal itself.Irony?

Obvious people who are not of the regular bus riding crowd have started to use the Metro Transit.People with suits.Briefcases.Good suits.
Environmentally conscious people?No, more like economically conscious people.Who work downtown.
Who might some day have to come to work on Saturday to make up for the inflation the gas trauma will inflict on their lives.Who will find the terminal closed until Mayor Cornett and the cronies who dictate to him ,the security guard and the head of security, wake up to the truth of cause and effect.
Injustice.
Are you people not cunning enough to find a solution to the Poverty problem that's viable and of value to all and not just to a select few with an agenda based on prejudice and bias. And greed and exclusivity.Uniqueness.An empty ambition
The resources are there.
3.2 billion dollars are to be invested in the downtown area by the year 2010. (read "Final Report"MHATF by clicking here )
Take some of that money and hire three social workers( a very viable investment) at the mission to directly seek out these people you are trying to corral and ghettoize and expedite section 8 or the any other number of resources available for them. To get them off the street. To get them away from the mission.
Make treatment readily available for those in the desperation of addiction.Crack heads especially.Paintheads.Drunks.
Address the real issues of this dysfunction. Our society.Address the way we devalue these people and abandon them due to our perception of their worthlessness.
Make them worthy.
You people in positions of power have demonstrated the extent of your intellect and cunning by coming up with these implementations that are only beneficial to a few.Now demonstrate your true worth to your constituents by coming up with something a little more productive than a freshman agenda.Elementary dictates.
No ,I am not an advocate for homelessness. It 's an indication of our disease.
You are not inflicted?Demonstrate that with some wisdom that is recognized by actions and programs that will heal our nation.
But let us first start in our own home.
Or we will all suffer the consequences... and it will be very painful.For you and me.
And especially our children.
One direct way is to take out the profit from this dysfunction.
Namely, take out the ones who finance and directly profit off the crack addiction.
It is not hidden or secret amongst the business elitist, "who" finances the cocaine trade with impunity.There is so much profit to made off the addiction trade that it is almost impossible to dissuade these people. To change course.
Prejudice has been a great motivator.Bias.Greed. But it is mainly arrogance of intellect and their inability to see the immediate cause and effect ,due to their self imposed blindness,that they don't recognize the harm they are doing to their own children.It is personal.Whether they see it or not. I will go into detail of the things I know of these organized crimes. Later.
Ask yourselves why there is only one liquor store downtown.Inaccessibility?No!
Control for the sake of monopolization. Now find out who owns this liquor store.Which family.And then follow the trail.Nothing is done in secret,as they seem to think.They take and take but do not give anything good back.

Deal with the corruption at the Mission's themselves. Much is being stolen.Money .Donated goods. Or squandered.
And not by the residents.But by the administration's and it's staff's.
Many organizations and religious groups donate to the Missions expecting that these donations will be utilized to help those effected by the disease of poverty.
Ask why, at one time the City Rescue Mission published their annual budget report on their website, and why it is not there, now. Ask ,before you donate, to get a true accounting and see what type of resistance one encounters.

The City Rescue Mission did not feed lunch on Memorial Day to the general population.Only to those in their"program".
The City Church, after advising they would be open on memorial Day, were closed.
The Church on 4Th and Western served their last meal to the poor on Sunday, as they closed their doors for good.They cited to a few that the roof leaked and the owner would not fix it and they could find no other vacancies.
Numerous buildings are remodeled and vacant with lease signs in their windows in the downtown area. Ask the Banta realty company. They own a large majority now.
St. Josephs has a sign on their door stating there will be no more sack "lunches" or bus tokens given out until July.Ask them why the priest implies that it is up and running by his prayer "request" on Sunday,this last Sunday.
"Let us pray for the hungry ,the poor,the homeless...that our downtown
ministry...",spoken by the Rev.Natsuhara.Bruce.
The cross to your right was provided by groministry.com, who fed as many as they could on Memorial Day.They ran out of food, but they were under the impression that the kitchen in the CRM was going to open up and take up the slack.I was sad to learn that these beautiful little girls,one in particular,had raised $2,000 and had given it to the City Rescue Mission.I tried to thank them for what they did and hesitated to tell them to examine who they donate such large sums of money to considering the corruption that I was aware of on part of the administration and staff. I could see and tell that they were disheartened .I pray that they are not discouraged in their endeavors and continue to raise money, but that they administer and distribute that money themselves.
Many people went hungry on a Holiday. One group that did not abandon these poor was the First Baptist Church of Bethany http://www.fbcbethany.com/regular.aspx .They were at the appointed time (6:15 p.m.)passing out real hot food that was homemade and delicious plus the usual abundant sack lunch in the Fred Jones manufac. parking lot across from Sonic on Sheridan and Fred Jones Ave. There were so many people there that they eventually ran out of sack lunches but their foresight prevailed and within 20 minutes more sack lunches arrived.I let them personally know how grateful I was for them to not have abandoned these people due to a Federal holiday.They love God and these people they have served and ministered to for years.

No breakfast , No lunch. Poor people indeed.
It was designed by some(and SATAN) to give them a taste of what is to come.Willingly and knowingly.
Can you taste the hunger.Can you smell the obscenity and perversity.
Your children will suffer immediate consequences as a result of the sin's of the people complicit in this injustice.

Loneliness and poverty go hand in hand!

2008-05-23T18:33:00.002-04:00

Loneliness
by Teodoro Leon III 2008/may

Inconsistent Faith and Charity?

2008-05-22T10:29:00.015-04:00

Well ,let me first applaud the institutions, first of all for doing God's Will? Motives and Agendas?
Feeding the Poor.Giving them(false) hope.Providing clothing. In spite 0f themselves. NewAmericanBible/readings5/22/08click here
But it is a sin to do it for self edification.And to compete with each other to out do each others Holiness by showing them up, is also a sin.
Vanity. Insincerity. It rubs off on everybody and most sense insincerity and hypocrisy though they are unable to put a name to it. But it smells of deception.
"Let us pray for the homeless,the hungry , the poor. ..that our ministry to the poor will succeed here in downtown Oklahoma City." Over the course of several months I have heard this prayer spoken with just the right inflections to rival a well financed advertising and marketing campaign. It is spoken usually by the priest trained in oration techniques. I hear the insincerity and contempt. I see the the contempt. It's nauseating.Disgusting. From a priest and his staff that are too complacent and who have a false sense of security in their Holiness. They really don't believe that God hears and sees all that they do and don't do.
That he knows their hearts. That He knows that they do the least possible.
That they are luke warm.Disgusting. He will spit them out, for they are neither hot or cold. They lie to the people and to God. And steal from themselves and God.And keep us all poor in all aspects of our lives, as a result of their arrogance ,contempt,unbelief and faithlessness.
A faithless and perverse generation. Who have not only contempt for the people due to their own arrogance, but of God Himself.
Now what am I writing about?
St .Josephs in downtown Oklahoma City decided to , a little while back(a couple of months), start passing out peanut butter sandwiches to those needing something to eat.This was done during a prescribed hour,that was reasonable.10 a.m.-11:30, Tuesday-Thurs.
I did not see any downtown office workers waiting at the door for two peanut butter sandwiches. Only the poor. I waited 45 minutes one day for 2 peanut butter sandwiches and a bottle of water and when I got it I gave thanks to my Lord God. I was hungry.Or I would not have waited for 45 minutes for two peanut butter sandwiches. That day I was poor and felt it!
Sister BJ's Pantry had already been providing sack lunches at the end of the week(Fri-sat,7:00-10:00) for the last couple of years and have progressed and evolved to a great success for those volunteering and to those being ministered.Sincerity was indicative. Compassion. Faith.
I suppose someone at St. Joseph's decided to jump on the bandwagon. It was insincere.Self edification.Competing with the Jones's. For Holiness.False pride.EGO.
It did not last long. God would have provided all that was necessary if the motive and agendas had been in line with God's will. For His Glory. To draw these people to Him.
Tuesday May 20th
So I go to the St Josephs to get my 2 peanut butter sandwiches on Tuesday around 11:30 a.m. .
There is a man and a woman waiting outside in the shade of the courtyard. I would usually call them a couple of scumbags but I will refrain at this moment. It was actually only the lady complaining as I walked up and passed them.
I actually go to the office door and ring the the door bell(the door is locked for "safety" reasons, understandably?). I can see Sister Susan busy writing away on a post- it and she waves at me and I know see she has seen me. I wait a few minutes and then decide to go wait in the shade of the courtyard only because whoever had been in the entry way ( a small security cubicle) before me had stunk it up with cheap perfume. It was gagging.
While outside (about 5 minutes) I had the opportunity to listen to this woman incessantly complain profanely, about a Sister I admire and love, as to how long she was taking."Come on woman I don't have all day to wait on yo ass!" She said something else derogatory about "catholics", as to how easy they were for prey.She said a few other rather profound things that are better left unsaid.For some ,you who are insightful enough to realize what ilk these people are, but for the others it is better that you remain in your ignorance.Live in your rose colored glasses and wonder as to the source of your discomfort.
I usually never stay quiet to these perversity's when I encounter them.I didn't this time ,either.
I told them that Sister was busy writing down some things and would be a few minutes.
"Well she need to hurry up and bring it on!"
I told her that if she was that much in a hurry she probably needed to stop and ask God for the help as she was not to busy to bitch and moan(except I told her in a kinder way) about what He had provided through his people.
"What did you say?"
You heard what I said and obviously you haven't asked God for anything, including humbleness.
"What the hell are you here for, then?"
I was going to tell her that I was there to see the progress of the Downtown Ministry,but it would have been way over head so I told her that I was there for a couple of peanut butter sandwiches.
"Well,then you's in the same boat we in, needing some help! I 'm just trying to get myself ahead like you!"
I told her I heard what she had said to her man friend a few minutes earlier and that I actually attended the church as a parishioner. I told her that I was in need of some sandwiches but that I was not playing the system as she was, considering I have at times waited ,gladly, up to 45 minutes for a sandwich.
Sarcastically , she responded,"Then you ask 'your' God to move this shit along cause I have things I need to take care of besides standing here all day!!"
I told her I would not ask my Father God for anything on her behalf as she was mocking Him and preying and complaining on the people.
That's when Sister came out and this woman changed her disposition instantly.
Sister attempted to hand her the post-it she had been writing on while explaining some things about it that were on it. No, she explained ,St Joseph's was a Catholic Church and the other was an Episcopal Church.She had spent all the time writing down this info to the dissatisfaction of this troll.She tried to explain how most of the charities work and how not to put undue burden on them they implemented protocols and guidelines. As a lot of people take advantage of every agency they can find without due reason, except that they are leeches.
This woman was being subtlely sarcastic and I think Sister was reading this as understandable frustration.So she asked them both what church they attended ,in case they had some resources available to them, that normally would go to their parishioners first, understandably.
No coincidences in this world. NewAmericanBible/readings/05/22/08
The woman didn't have a church, citing that they were not her thing or something to that effect. Sister responded that if you belonged to a church they were usually more than willing and able to help those that belonged to that church first than those that did not belong.
"Well I guess I came here for nothing, but you have a blessed day ... and you to sir!"indicating me.
I bluntly told her that it was sarcasm.Sister tried to intervene on her behalf thinking I had misunderstood her intent. I told her I didn't misunderstand and that there was more to it, than she had heard ,of our conversation, while she was inside .
"Well I'll pray for you," the woman was going to try to make me look like the hater and fool.
I again said to her,"that is sarcasm too."She had no one to pray to and her words were impotent. She left.
So then Sister looking at me ,skeptically asked what I needed .
"Just a couple of your peanut butter sandwiches," I said with a smile.
So this Tuesday, the first day of the week that they pass out the sack lunch with two peanut butter sandwiches,she tells me that there are not going to be anymore. I don't believe she elaborated as to why there would be no more but vaguely told me that they couldn't because of people not... At first ,I was assuming that since it was close to 11:35 a.m. she meant for the day.But in the back of my mind I knew what she meant. I really try to give people the benefit of the doubt as to what they said and what they actually meant and not dwell on my first impression in case "I" am wrong.I'm usually never wrong. Sad to say.
Then she brings out two bags and explains that there were only three sandwiches left and she had to cut one into two so that me and the other guy each only received one and a half sandwiches. I thank her and ask her ,jest fully, if we were going to have Bible study on Wednesday( we still had about 5 weeks left).
"No ,were not having Bible Study on Wednesday or the rest of the year due to the weather..."
I can't at this moment say what word she used but she basically said that the weather was itself an entity that conspired to keep them from revealing the words of Jesus.Well, that is how I took it.The fact is ,every time it rained it gave these old people an excuse to value their "safety and lives" over the duty they had taken upon themselves. Of course I cannot ever get any of these people to give me an interview to clarify their statements due to their "heavy" schedules of life and work . Never enough time!Too busy with busy work.
Faithless,perverse generation. I am especially hard on these people due to the fact that they profess every Sunday to worship an Omnipotent ,Omnipresent God.Of all that is seen and unseen.They have no faith or sense of Duty for and to the one True God they pay lip service to.
UNBELIEF.
Bobby went hungry on Wednesday.
Bobby is a semi-retarded man well over sixty five.Sort of like a Forest Gump.
He lives on a fixed income at the Rockwall . He receives a social security check that covers his rent and that's all. His rent is $300.00/month.He gets a check for around $325.00. His rent is usually paid late (2 weeks) due to the fact that he has what is called a payee that oversees "his"money.He/she sends the check to Linda at the last possible minute,burdening Bobby,Linda and the owner of the Rockwall with the tardiness. I asked Dr. Lepak at Catholic Charities to look into what could be done about these matters. He did as little as possible and his answer was vague. Sound familiar?
Bobby was depending on these two sandwiches. He is the one that told me,"It didn't last long,Ted. They had a big sign on the door saying no lunches!"As is his habit and mannerism due to his mental condition , he repeated this phrase a couple of times. I could tell that he was let down. It bothered him.Hunger has a way of doing that to people.
I had offered several times to assist the Sister with what ever was necessary to have this act of charity proceed with success. I would like to know what the hell happened,according to their views,as to why my friend Bobby had to go hungry.
It would have been better if they had not even ever offered the two measly sandwiches a few worthy ,really hungry,poor people had come to depend on.I really don't care about the users and abusers.God is teaching them something also ,in His own way and time through these people they encounter,especially me, the instrument of Fate.I provide them with Medicine,accordingly due.
A lukewarm Church and her half-ass ,faithless,unbelieving in the might of God ,arrogant congregation trying to buy their way into Heaven by doing the least possible.
And when the going gets tough(not even that it's tough) they just QUIT.
No peanut butter sandwiches,no bible study.I suppose they shall inherit their holiness and wisdom by assmosis(sitting in the pews and absorbing nothing except the air between their cheeks).
Doctrines and dictates of men and establishments.For agendas.
The so -called Shepherd of this flock has a lot of answering to God himself for these sufferings he has imposed by limiting his sheep to their responsibility.
No ,and I am not even writing of the Lord Saviour,Jesus.
I speak of the priest who is pastor of St. Josephs.He has damaged many people through his arrogance and EGO.False pride.
Of course lets blame your limits on the indoctrination you received.You really believe in your institutionalization.
You limit them to meet your agendas and motives of keeping the truth hidden and accessible only to the select.Heresy.
Hunger. A human drive that must be met. In all aspects of the human condition.

Sister BJ's Protocol for who?

2008-05-20T10:58:00.016-04:00

Yes, Sister BJ (Barbara Joseph) has rules and protocols that must be followed by the volunteers that come and give of their time. Excellent idea. Safety.Comfort.Guidelines.
According to Leah C., she was taken to the side by Sister BJ and lectured as to what she can and can not do with the non-volunteers. I would call them homeless people but that is not a true indication of who the people are that attend the Friday and Saturday fellowship.
A lot of the people are homeless.Mission dwellers. Street/Camping individuals that prefer the bushes,fields,doorways and alley's .Then there are those that have a vehicle of some sorts to
" live in".
Then there are those that live at places like the"Rockwall"Apartments.Some snobbish fools might be quick to point out that this place is just a room for rent. They do have a refrigerator,private bathrooms,full size beds,closets and a separate laundry facility on site.Yes, it's not the Hilton or the Embassy Suites Hotel,but it is livable. I got stuck in a very shabby room that had not been remodeled last time I was there,though most of them are being recarpeted and painted as soon as a person vacates them. I didn't want to wait a week for the room to become available,hence the reason the room did not get painted.
The point is , a diverse group of individuals come to Sister BJ's Pantry for several reasons.
Most come for the good food that is passed out.The coffee is great!Scones.Fresh fruit is available at times.
Hygiene kits are also provided (soap,shampoo,various creams and lotions,toothbrushes and pastes and gels).
And the clothing room is a big plus,on Fridays(every other).Fresh clean socks and shoes .Practically "as new" clothes to chose from and a wide assortment.What a blessing!
And to top it off,Katy, the beautiful gardener, keeps the enclosure close to the tranquility of the Garden of Eden.She of course has help...but it is her love and magickal energy that provides the necessary nurturing for the plants to grow with such vibrancy.It is a beautiful place to enjoy. I wish those officials hadn't stolen my camera or there would be several pictures that I took for you to see what I am writing about.Those up above were taken by ...?But they are viewable at the BJ's Pantry site. http://www.srbjpantry.com/photo.htm Flowers (click at left)
And lets not forget about the very well made tables and benches that are practical for the occasion.God has provided a refuge through the people He has prompted.
Thank You GOD and thank you people who have responded appropriately.On both sides of the table.We are all being nurtured to growth.
The common denominator we all possess is poverty.Poverty is an issue that touches all aspects of an individuals being.Spiritual,physical,emotional,psychological,financial and intellectual.None are immune or unaffected.We came not by mistake or coincidence.Many come due to the poverty of loneliness.On both sides of the table.

The guidelines and protocols established are designed to keep the volunteers safe.

No rides.Anywhere.No money.No invites.No meetings other than at BJ's.

This is some of the things I was told by Leah.It was actually about me.

Read An Angel named Leah click here.She was also told that she was mocking the establishment of the church by giving Pete a Reese's Peanut butter Cup and a container of juice as a sacrament of the body and blood of Christ.She was told that she had no authority.She was also told that if she wanted to continue to volunteer at the Pantry she would have to agree to the guidelines.She belittled her and caused her harm due to her indoctrination.

According to what Leah told me concerning her lecture from Sister BJ, I was in survival mode and desperate.I would manipulate the situation and Leah would never be rid of me.

Let us get one thing clear, I asked only God for my needs to be met and kept this to myself without implying in anyway that I expected some young ,naive girl to accommodate my life.She was not so naive.And she is very insightful.

Leah had my whole day planned with her, as we were supposed to attend Mass at St Josephs, go see the truth of the City Rescue Mission,then onto the library to see the population ,which consists of 80 percent "homeless" just playing games and listening and watching videos on the computer.All the time.We were then to go to her apartment and eat,wash my clothes and I was supposed to stay the night.We were to go the next day to Prague for the Kolache Festival.It was all new to me, but it sounded good.I asked her if it was with her husbands approval.She said that it was as he did not want her going that far by herself.He and her roommate had to work and could not go .

Instead, she got very emotional and distressed in that she had to make a decision and tell me about it right there in front of all the eyes and ears.I told her to do what she felt was right.I told her to ask the Holy Spirit(God) for guidance and if she still felt the peace she knew of me then I would be down the alley waiting for her.

She came and picked me up.She was in turmoil.She was not at peace.

I took her to the Mission to understand the disease and dysfunction of homelessness. All the crackheads standing outside of the Mission hailing traffic for sales.Yes , most of the crack dealers were/are black.A fact of life.That life anyway.sad.

She learned alot in the little time that we spent there.She spoke to an Aryan Brotherhood member fresh out of prison.He had alot of tears tattooed down his right eye.

She also spoke to a man in a wheelchair.Actually laid hands on him.

We then went to the library.She was getting antsy. The things that Sister BJ had lectured her on was wearing her down.Before this lecture, she was well at ease with me.She wanted to go home before Christopher her husband went to work. I was also feeling ill at ease.Something was wrong and it was the bad that Sister BJ had impressed on her about my volatile potential.

We made it in time to see her hubbie off.He seemed actually relieved that it was me there.

She made a phone call to her mother stating that she was bringing a homeless man with her to the festival because Christopher and Dustin could not make it.

Her mother wanted her to bring someone else along for safety reasons.Why did she use the title homeless?

Later on that evening Leah asked me if I would remove my black finger nail polish.I hesitated in my answer. I later told her that I was tired of conforming or hiding to suit peoples perceivements.If her family had such qualms about nail polish then it was a good idea that I not go with her to the festival so as not to cause her any more trauma than had been inflicted that day.

We went and picked up Dustin at Radio Shack, were he worked.She had told me that she had given Dustin my pair of steel toed boots as he didn't have black shoes for work.Except he wasn't wearing them when we picked him up.He did have black shoes on ,though.When we arrived at the apartment I somehow asked him what size of shoe he wore and he stated that it was a 10. I wear an 8.He then brought out a pair of black military type boots after I showed him mine.They were not the steel toed boots Leah had said she had given him.

I did not go to Prague.Thank God. What was she trying to imply to her family by taking me out there without her husband. I was not going to put myself in that position. She was playing me.Against her husband and family.Especially her Dad.

What must be taken into consideration is the disposition and motives of some of those that come to lend a hand.Self edification.Vanity.Some of these so called volunteers are predators and they seek out those they perceive they will be able to manipulate to their wills and agendas.Arrogant people believe ,with some justification ,that homeless people are easy targets.I'm not one.Easy .Or homeless due to some psychological ,spiritual or emotional deficiency that a person can wield to their advantage .

This girl professed to a number of people that she was possessed by demons.That she literally saw demons.That her life was disrupted by poltergeist phenomenon.

I 'd seen her at the City Church during their bullshit Deliverance Ministry give in to this drama of possession and I watched her wither and roll on the ground.

Why am I writing about this?Due to the simple fact that I went from being some wise old man that was revered to a homeless bum to be avoided like the plague.

No explanation.

I am an empath. I am an instrument of faith.

I called it for what it was and that broke her perceived control she thought she had over me.I have all the emails that she sent me , including the private ones that her husband had sent to her that she forwarded to my account.Why did she send them to me? Because she thought that I was common.Maybe she thought she could manipulate God?

I had kept a black duffel bag at her apartment with my shoes and boots and some other items in it after she offered to hold it for me.There were several times that I inquired about the shoes as I knew some one that could have used a pair.She was always vague or unresponsive in answering.I always emailed her. I kept the letters.

I finally devised a plan to get to the truth.Ask if I could come and wash my clothes and shower. For some reason she did not want me coming to her apartment again.Sister BJ? Her husband?Her own guilt? Or her loss of the perceived control she thought she had over me?Probably all.

"I'd like to help again but I can't I'm sorry." That is what she emailed me back .What did she think that I was going to let her take my clothes and shoes to Sister BJ's and donate them?Who knows?GOD. And in time he tells me everything.

"Then I need to come and get my bag..." I emailed her back.

This is what she responded with,"Your bag is where you used to sleep in the field where you took me that day."

Yeah, she dumped my expensive personal items in practically plain view for anyone to come and steal from me.I did not get the letter until the next day.I don't sleep in that field anymore.My intuition told me to go to that field . I wasn't expecting to see the bag laying there.In fact I thought it was at first somebody else's .Then I got a little pissed at how her cowardly actions showed what she was up to. By the way, the letters that I sent to her concerning this matter, I also forwarded to her husband,Christopher.He never responded ,either.Strange.

I had wrote her a couple of weeks ago that an intuition had entered my mind about the evil games people play by the memory of the movie,"Cruel Intentions". There is more to this story concerning her behaviours and actions but I will keep them to myself for now,just in case.

Sister BJ's protocol for who? Just be aware.

How People find it so easy to lie!!And steal.

2008-05-19T20:31:00.003-04:00

I have not met one person of lately that does not lie to me.Or steal from me.
Are they so poor that they think it is their right to lie and steal from me?Yes they are! Do most of them profess to know of God?Every single one.
They are liars. And thieves.They lie and steal from God.
Dysfunction?That is a sugar coated term.It goes beyond that.
No consequences? It used to be that way.
Times are changing. You all want to die?!You are already dead.
You do not know life.That facade that you call your life is a waste of humanity.Willingly wasted.Through your vanity. Miserable humans.
Thank you God for making the price of Gasoline(3.49@7eleven) beyond the reach of a new sector that was too complacent(in a matter of months,close to 100percent) .The untouchables?Welcome to true poverty.Now watch everything else go up in proportion;except your ability to keep up.Food?Housing ,medicine...everything!Obscene?You all deserve it. Most of you are OBSCENE.
The only ones I will cry for are the children.The innocent children.You are cursed and so then will also your children be inflicted as a result of your "dysfunction".They will suffer needlessly and grow up to be those you think your so much better than. I am an instrument of Fate.
Receive your bitter medicine.Enjoy the last semblance of your former life...as it is at an end.
Don't believe me . Watch.Listen.
You know God not and refuse to seek him sincerely,you pay Him lip service as though He can't see or hear you and as a result, your penance will be the bronze serpent.numbers21click here."We have sinned in complaining against the LORD and you. Pray the LORD to take the serpents from us." You say you know GOD. You value nothing good that God gave,especially people sent to you by God for your enlightenment.
You are disgusted with what you perceive as a wretched life?Now truly receive one.
I am an instrument of fate.When you assholes get tired of hurting and dying your slow dance of death then you come and find me.Just watch as your worlds fall apart as the result of your direct injustice to a son of God.
None of you can help me in the simplest ways that I asked. You only helped with what your vanity dictated.For self-edification.
I never took advantage. You sure did.
Now suffer.You learn no other way.Silly excuses for humans.The Lord, God, my Father has been merciful to you for so long and you ignored Him. What an Injustice to Him and Us.
Though I could pray for you.Not until you respond to God. And that is by righting a wrong that you've done to me through manipulations and lies and thievery.Yes , I know who I am. I am not only graced by God but also tormented by the accuser and his minions;most of you people that I've encountered during my short stay on this earthly realm.
Yes...find me when you get tired.

No more free( or for $1) eats at the JesusHouse...no ,now they changed it back to the old rules.Still feeding!

2008-05-12T18:00:00.009-04:00

Disregard the info about not feeding...the same guy that said they were no longer doing it now said today that they are feeding.Cant' rely on info from the streets.

Well, here we go.just got it from a pretty reliable source."regular" people can't eat at the Jesus House. Not even with a $1.00. I think the ones that are going to be served are only those who are served by the facility...Homeless mentally ill, drug and alcohol recovering, and elderly and disabled.Must show proof.
If you click on the title above it will take you to the website.Under the history tab it gives a quick overview of how the organization got it's start and why.And how the organization supported itself.It states at the end of the short history the conflict and tribulations the organization encountered from well organized armed men...the Oklahoma City Police Department and the Oklahoma City Fire Department.Of course they were prompted by then Mayor Patience Latting(1971-1983),who wanted to run the transients out of town.
A few(3) men died that night in the freezing cold when the other shelters could not accommodate all the displaced from the Jesus House, as they have done every year, as a result of peoples agendas.
I don't know what happened to the rest of the story...it ends there at the bottom (history click here) of the page.Is there more to it?Yes of course.
We need viable answers.Corralling and herding whole populations does not work. Our jails are full.Vagrancy laws?Short term solution.
Relocation? To where?They will continue to come back as there are many reasons for them to...city bus terminal,downtown area agencies, churches...
The Jesus House is no longer run by the founders... they are run by the dictates of men with an agenda...profit.

They should change the name of the place to a more appropriate title...The Judas Iscariot House.

Well ,the truth comes out.The reason for the rejection

2008-05-06T16:50:00.010-04:00

I waited ample time for Anonymousclick here to respond. Now I will contact Google and ask for the location of the IP and terminal used by Anonymous.Your comment is traceable. Or should I wait for God to reveal it, as Anonymous stated that I'm hiding behind God.
You see ,it's not so much that my truth has come out, but how and why. And what happens when one little half truth is expounded by one certain person to a whole congregation by word of mouth.Well, most of the congregation.
The stares . the games. The lies.The contempt. Who should be ashamed? No one.
You were all played.But what gets me is that no one has come forward.Fear? Fear of what?Of your own guilt and shame.That convicts you.And it can only be removed by a contrite... and no ,not to your priest...actually that would help.But by righting a wrong.
How far did it go?Community Action.Catholic Charities.St. Vincent de Paul.Maybe it goes all the way back to 1992.Our Lady of Perpetual Help. God reveals everything in time.And he will reveal how you were all complicit in this due to your arrogance.I could not figure out where all the trauma that I was inflicted with started all those years ago. A man who has hounded me through his well placed connections all over the country and through his resources,has found me where ever I've been to exact his revenge for the biased perceived wrongs he considers I've done.
Maybe just satan manipulating humans,affording me the opportunity for forgiveness?
One person could have put a stop to it. No one did. You all took pleasure in this malfeasance.I wonder how else you've all been manipulated by the one so easy to forget,the one who is now as subtle but apparent as a silent but deadly one.And who else you have murdered with your thoughts and actions.Without examination.Just read Daniel 13click here ,about the virtue of Susanna.
The one who was appointed to be your shepherd could have at anytime time employed the Holy Spirit to examine both sides...but revenge is a strong motivator.Do you understand Christ's commandment of Forgiveness, now. I hope you do. For it is for all.Offended and Offender.He was the Truth. The Word.Jesus ."Forgive them Father for they know not what they do. "
Now, it is many persons complicit in this affair.The people at St. Vincent de Paul,Community Action,Catholic Charities, the parish,sister BJ's... first names?Bruce,H.B., K.V., S. C., C.C., J.R.,M.F.,Paula Mc.,the girls at Fresh Start... one specifically. T.C. & Susaan. You should have asked me.There are many more names...how do you right a wrong of this magnitude? start from the beginning. I am sick.Really. I am homeless living in a vacant lot. I'm alone.
Yes, God is with me. But the fact is ,that me and God are not the only ones on this planet.Should I abandon you? You are just children. I miss you all.
All.
Including all of my family. Right a wrong. Amen.

An Angel named Leah!

2008-05-05T20:50:00.004-04:00

Leah :click here
Here is a woman, a friend, a true friend to Christ.Here is a person that gives without one having to ask.
I did actually write about her before, but I did not use her name...here it is.. the article.
Answered Prayers.Thank you Father. sat, april,19th
Thank you for noticing the beautiful woman in me .The writer(Maya Angelou) I have heard of before and this is actually the 1st thing of hers I have read."Beautiful Christian Sister".You ,yesterday, were an answer to my prayers.I specifically asked my Father for someone to talk to. I asked for some one to invite me to their home .I asked that someone would invite me to dinner and share. I asked for someone to go to mass with me . I asked for someone to be a witness to the rejection and lies that I suffer at others hands.I asked for someone to help me in anyway they could.I asked for someone to inquire of God.Before ,yesterday, I had been alone for awhile. I was not alone for that day.All Day!It would have been a blessing if 1 or 2 of my petitions had been met and that would have been fulfilling of Gods promise.But, through your courage and willingness to do Gods will, He and you met, all in one Day these blessings.Blessed be God Forever.And blessed are you who heard God and responded , acted and provided a beautiful child such as me with love.I send forth my Holy spirit and the HOLY SPIRIT to you.Receive the breathe of life.And a special thanks to your husband, for you are one.He also receives my gift of love and kindness.I Love you both.FATHER ,SON and HOLY SPIRIT,AMEN.
She paid $50 to my rent.Without me even asking!She then waited for me at Catholic Charities for an hour and was also a witness to Sandra's statements.She then took me to lunch at Carl's Jr's,and afterwords we went to Mass.Church at 12:00 p.m. Then we went to her house to talk for hours...but what really impressed me was that she offered me water as soon as we walked through the door,well... she really just handed it to me.That's even better.What hospitality!!What courage.And she is only 22 years old.She then topped it off by picking El Chico's to eat at.She barely ate anything! A bowl of rice and tortillas.that poor darling.She said she was eating lite.I hadn't told her I had been craving El Chico's for months and I don't believe I had been there but once in my life, and that was in Dallas.She and God answered all my prayers.Her kindness I cherish. And then I met her husband and they are so beautiful together.They are so young readers, so keep them in your loving prayers, that they'll be blessed with over abundant joy,peace and prosperity. and no, she does not take every "homeless" person and squander naively her love and wealth, nor does her husband.Come on give them some credit.They are both extremely intellectual.And spirited. And responsive to God's Will.And I would never manipulate them for profit. I can't.it's against my nature.Do you have no understanding of me through reading my words that I write?They are my "words" and " thoughts".I love you Leah and Christopher.

Yes ,let's reveal the truth.The Truth of violence.And Revenge.

2008-04-29T11:43:00.021-04:00

Anonymous has left a new comment on your post "Rachels Challenge"You Just May Start A Chain React...": they should have killed you! think of how happy all the people from your past would be. your sister, brother and father. you fucked up their lives! 17 stab wounds! not enough! you should receive 17 stab wounds for every time you hit your sister. do all these readers know about your real past? tell the truth! don't hide behind the name of GOD.

Dear Mr. Anonymous ,
You are really in need of some wisdom. read this . something to ponder.Did you take into consideration my dad's interest in having these things of ours put on the web before you made your very public Comment .I am going to print the story if he insists on continuing half truths , innuendos, and not accepting "all" of ours responsibility in this sorrow. I am more than willing to write the story but I don't think he's going to like it.All these things can be verified one way or another through examination. I know who I am.I know alot more of him than he wants to believe,he's good at self deception.Example;ignoring every cry for help that was visible to his naked eye. The fact that Christy was a living skeleton. She was extremely anorexic.When I time AND TIME again TRIED TO TELL HIM he 'd always brush it off as "she's at a perfect weight"."you're all just jealous of her!" She was less than 90 lbs.!!?Come on, nobody can look good with a bone protruding out and hanging from her shoulder socket.Why? In spite of these things ,I loved my sister and brother. I was forced by Lupe and by Christy's , unwillingness .Maybe you should ask Teodoro Leon Jr. if he wants me to continue. You think your comment is not traceable? Now ask him why he never took Christy to a doctor or hospital during this time.I will wait for a reasonable time for your response. At lioner2@yahoo.com

Yes.You're right. But of course you only get half truths.Why not reveal yourself and we can bring the truth of the matter to light together.So much suffering.For them still.And for you.Ask Christy. And then ask Carlos. then you ask Lupe.And then you ask Ted Leon Jr. how he drove ,through a severe beating of Lupe while she was pregnant, this woman crazy enough to torture all of us through extreme manipulations.Yes ,it seems you know just a half truth.Hence the reason this comment won't be deleted. I told that woman, Lupe ,a long time ago ,that she could say whatever she wanted , but that I would not be part of her sickness of violence and revenge.I repented many years ago,only by God's grace, hence the reason I was always leaving and living on the street(she always found me) as a teenager.I left my dad in Georgia for this reason,Because of the game that woman still played.She kept whispering for his death. I left everything then and have many times since, because I have never been deceived since and will no longer be manipulated by no one.So lets bring out the truth,Anonymous, and we shall see the true mercy God has provided for us all. Looks I have much more to write about.Thank you for your candidness.
I fucked up their lives?That sure gives me a lot of power, to this day.You are wrong, that was one aspect of their lives. But I guess you know the truth because you were there? Let us ask .But of course you might not like what is revealed of the "Sanctity" of Ted Leon Jr.Where was I conceived? ask my mother and T. Leon Jr.And why?Let's reveal the truth,shall we.Too Late.Of course feel free to respond. I will tell the truth.Been wanting to for awhile. The lies and manipulations of the truth and half-truths has gone on long enough.
Who's hiding behind the name of God? What kind of ignorant statement is that? I've told the truth from the beginning. I told my wife Ellen. I told the therapist at O.U.. I told many people.Never have I hidden it ,for the simple fact that I wanted people to know what God has done for me.For the simple fact that I wanted people to know the extent of violence and revenge. Because I wanted people to know a true act of Forgiveness. How even the most blessed are manipulated due to the guilt ,shame and arrogance of others' own convictions. How what severity people such as yourself impose by calling for blood and not following Christs commandment of Forgiveness. No ,don't forgive me. It's a grace of and from God. You can not forgive unless you forgive informedly. Yes , there is much to forgive. Your hate has already caused you to act with out wisdom...but maybe this is the only way. It started with a phone call to Ted Leon Jr. by someone that I intentionally gave his location to at dinner.And I knew what would happen.Did T.Leon think he could just slander me with no consequences for his half truths. The sins of the father. Ask Christy to tell the truth and what part she played,willingly.She was no innocent victim. Ask Carlos, tell him to tell you how I would hit that belt on the ground as hard as I could and instruct him to yell as loud as he could as if I had hit him( because Lupe wanted to hear these noises).He did it. He did not get hit,anymore.And we laughed.
Sins of the step mother. Ask Christy how I would instruct her time and time again to do the same. She would not scream.She would stare at me with defiance. She would go immediately into the house and tell Lupe the game I had attempted. I would be trumped with an assault charge by Lupe and go to jail. I would be kicked out of the house by some lie of hers that she told Ted Leon Jr., and he would willingly consent to it. All because I didn't want to hit Christy and Christy would not go along because of her perverse attraction to Lupe.Lupe force fed her and Carlos excessive amounts of food that she piled high on their plates. Ted Leon didn't notice?Lupe induced the anorexia on her.She was wickedly smart.Should I go on?Because this is not how it begun. I shall go back and fill in the blanks for you perverts that get a kick out of suffering . I shall tell of the sins of the father he would pass on to a young 14 year old kid that was manipulated by a woman he turned evil due to his violence. He is the one crying out for help now.
"Is it because,Ted Leon Jr., the next time you tried to wash the wall with her blood I got between you and her at the age of 13 and I told you that I would not allow you to do this to her or yourself ever again. And you being a grown man submitted to my statement with reluctance. You already knew then, that I spoke with power and authority, even then,hence the reason you made no attempt then or ever again to shed her blood."But you did make the statement to her,'See what you've done! You turned my son against me!' No I am not against you, never have been. If it hadn't been for me ,we would have all suffered an extremely painful death. To bad your hate for me and this woman's hate for us divided us...I tried to tell you. You always punished me. You were baffled.She told you so many lies and you believed them all.She manipulated you then and still does to this day. "

A history of violence.
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Rachels Challenge"You Just May Start A Chain Reaction"

2008-04-26T11:59:00.011-04:00

Rachel's Challenge is committed to the message of Rachel Scott to start a chain reaction of kindness and compassion. Rachel's Challenge is a non-religious, non-political, non-profit organization.

"I have this theory that if one person can go out of their way to show compassion then it will start a chain reaction of the same." - Rachel Scott

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Rachel Scott was the first person killed at Columbine High School on April 20, 1999. Her acts of kindness and compassion coupled with the contents of her six diaries have become the foundation for one of the most life-changing school programs in America - Rachel's Challenge.

Darrel Scott(Rachel's father) wrote a poem that perfectly describes the problems we face and provides the answer for those courageous enough to believe:

"Your laws ignore our deepest
needs
Your words are empty air
You've stripped our heritage,
You've outlawed simple prayer
Now gunshots fill our
classrooms,
And precious children die.
You seek for answers
everywhere,
And ask the question, 'Why?'
You regulate restrictive laws,
Through legislative creed,
And you fail to
understand
That God is what we need!"

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How I came to receive 17 stab wounds.Forgiveness.

2008-04-25T14:12:00.033-04:00

This is going to be a lengthy story, as it spans the course of a year ,I believe ,if my memory serves me correctly.But it doesn't end with the incidents of this year. It can be verified through records held in the Cleveland County Courthouse(motions,court minutes..etc.), records(I never received my copies and what they did send was heavily blacked out. Of course , I did get a letter from Janet Reno ) kept at the FBI that I instigated under the Omnibus Crime Law, the Roman Catholic Church( as a result of the assistance I received ) and who knows who else, as these things were not done in secret. It can not be written in one day, so this will be an evolving document, so in time , material will be added to continue the story.
1991.
My wife and kids and I arrived in Oklahoma due to the availability of my wife's family and the fact that Tinker Air force Base was minutes from where her aunt and uncle lived.This was necessary and convenient for the birth of our daughter , Elena Roxanne at Tinker. The military had Bekins Moving and Storage transfer our personal and household goods and place them in storage in Houston, where we thought we were going to move and live .
As a result of difficulties and stresses we encountered in Houston , we both agreed that, until the birth of Elena it would be wise for her to be around family, so we went to OKC.
Let me get to the meat of the title and then weave in and out ...

1992
After the events of the day I was ready for some peace. But it was not to occur. While looking out the window of my apartment I noticed that Carl Todd Russell and David Brown were walking next to my building.My motorcycle was parked at the end of my stairs leading to my upstairs apartment. I understood,due to the inability or unwillingness of the police to protect me from the days earlier assault on my person by Carl Todd Russell( he ,with no instigation on my part, punched me in the forehead,HARD) and the repertoire he had with the police( shaking hands,slapping each other on the back...chummy ,chummy), that they were sent to instigate me. I was aware that they would attempt to cause damage to my "bike" to further instigate me, so that is the reason I had moved the bike from the parking lot to the foot of the stairs. But ,as he had assaulted me out of the blue ,I had put a stick(one of those white ,round wooden things found in newer Apartments closets to hang clothes on) in the net of my bike to fend off another attack. When I went downstairs to check on the bike,David Brown came out from underneath the stairwell and I thought we were fixing to fight. He had a smile on his face and stated that he and Carl Todd were sorry for the incident earlier in the day and to make up for it they wanted to smoke a joint with me as a peace offering. I told him that I was just baffled as to why Carl Todd had hit me in the first place but I was more than willingly to brush it under the rug, considering we were neighbors in the same apartment complex. I let him know I was going to just let my wife know were I was going. I went upstairs and told her were I would be. I noticed on the way down the stick on my bike was no longer there,so I asked David what happened to it. He said they threw it away,just to make sure there were no more problems. Good answer.As we approached the corner of his building to to turn right , he started going left . I asked him were he was going as I got to the corner and I saw the stick that had been on my bike arc and intersect with my nose full force by a swing of Carl Todd's hands. If my face had been a baseball ,it would have been a home run. I was infuriated,realizing I had been duped again. I asked him,as he threw this stick to David,"Why the Hell did you do that?" He responded something to the effect that they were going to fuck me up ." Not so tough without your sword are you?" I said, "what?" as David proceeded to pound me on top of my head with the stick. Well ,amazingly with the trauma already inflicted, I did not pass out, but instead grabbed that stick out of David 's hand and started to give him a dose of his own violence.Well, then this is when things got a little uglier.As I met the stick with David's head,Carl Todd stabbed me in the right bicep.I dropped the stick out of pained surprise. Now I knew for sure they meant to "Fuck me up!" David picked up the stick again and started to hit me. I had had enough of this and grabbed the stick out of his hands and raised it above my head with both hands and it exploded into a million splinters. Really! Like as if by magick. It surprised even me! Now David was hitting me with his fists, so I gave him a front kick right into his stomach and he exhaled "OOMPH!"I knew it really hurt him. But as my foot had connected with his stomach Carl Todd grabbed the opportunity to plunge that knife into my right thigh and pull down. He left an approximate 2-3 inch jagged gash .Son of a bitch ,now that one really hurt and it dawned on me they were not just trying to fuck me up, they were trying to kill me!! I immediately started bleeding profusely and I knew I had only minutes if not seconds to get away before I was not able to as a result of the profuse bleeding. I was pinned between them with a fence on one side and their building on one. Carl Todd continued to stab me as I rolled to the ground attempting to get away from the reach of the knife. I started losing consciousness,but I kept rolling. Now I came to the point that I was not rolling anywhere, I was just lying there. So now , they took their time with no fear . In fact I could see the pleasure they were having. At least they were happy at their work(LOL). I was on my back,when Carl told David to turn me over on my stomach, which he did.Carl then proceeded to stab me up and down my spine.Carl then told David to turn me over again and lift up my arm.He did. Carl then stabbed me in in my right(side) lung, causing a partial pneumothorax.My lung deflated. Now Carl instructed David to tilt my head back and open my mouth.Now I could tell by the look on Davids face that he was baffled. Carl actually got mad at him and threatened him and told him to do just what he told him. He tilted my head back and held my mouth open as Carl proceeded to remove from his back pocket a pint of Jack Daniels, open it, and pour it down my throat.My first thought was to give thanks to GOD for at least letting me have a good drink before I died. I know I then died.
My doberman pinscher(Liebchen) had at this time been trying to breakout of the 2nd floor apartment(this is according to Ellen) by jumping through the living room(she sensed and probably could see what was happening to me from her vantage point,as to where I wound up after rolling.) window.This had freaked Ellen out as she had no idea what was going on outside.We had just earlier got Liebchen from an Airforce member who informed us that she was an Airforce trained security dog ,but that her commands were in German.Ellen put the leash on her and the dobie literally almost yanked her arm out of Ellen's socket as she dragged her over to me. She saw me lying on the ground and covered in blood but had not realized I had been stabbed and beaten so severely. I came to then and saw an angel with anguish on her face and I heard Liebchen whimpering. I heard Ellen yell," I see you motherfuckers hiding under the stairs and don't think I don't know who you are!"With Liebchen's help, she dragged me back to our building and left me at the bottom of the stairs, cause I couldn't go any further!She went to call the police, but the sirens were already in the air.The ambulance was there before she even called the police,within 2-3 minutes according to the time she dragged me to the stairs and she walked up them. She had just got off the phone with 911 when she came down the stairs and saw the paramedics cutting all my clothes off me. She then(being a 91-c ,e-5 in the army)realized the extent of my injuries.And she was pissed that they were letting me be exposed in full nudity( a crowd was gathering ,drawn by the sirens) .
She then witnessed the police arrive and the assailants come out of the shadows and calmly walk over to the police and shake hands and hand over the knife. She said they were even laughing and slapping each other on the back.They obviously knew each other. I believe I died again. Next thing I know is the paramedics putting me in a pressure suit.I remember them trying to comfort me,telling me I was going to be okay. I think they were trying more to comfort themselves,it was horrific. And they could tell by the amount of wounds that this was not ordinary.
They stuck me in the ambulance and I heard them say ,"we're losing him!"And then , "We lost him!!" And immediately I was in the most peace I had ever felt and knew I was going home.Yes, I saw the bright light.And was going toward it, but a voice immediately said to me,"You can come home,but before you make that decision ,be aware that they will kill the children." It was no effort to decide and I found myself back in my body in the ER, coming to, hearing somebody yelling at me ,"What did you do with the stick that you attacked those men with!?" I became coherent enough to realize it was some woman cop yelling at me.

1987 William Beaumont Army Medical Center is located in El Paso , Texas, the place of my birth. I was training there through the Job partnership training act on the Pre-op/post-op ward.Sgt. Nangle was my immediate supervisor. I was attending A.A. And N.A. .Though I was not really an abuser of drugs.Yes I did smoke Pot.But not during my "sobriety. It was on a condition that my grandmother stipulated if I was to stay with her(going to treatment , not giving up pot, didn't need it at the time).No, I am not in denial. I stayed sober and clean for a total of 2 years. I did the steps. The steps showed me how to empower myself. I still believe in them for those needing to know how do what they want and live.

A.A. is where I met Ellen. She started coming to the 12:00 meeting at the arid club in her white military nurses uniform and my first immediate impression was that she was extremely sick ,in every aspect, she was extremely anorexic.Gaunt.Eyes shrunken in the sockets.Very bright bleached blond hair that was damaged due to her condition.Extremely unattractive. But she was really animated.Sgt Ray Goin (my sponsor) introduced us."Ted, I 'd like you to meet Sgt.Ellen Spicer!" After listening to me speak in a couple of meetings and ascertaining that I was not a psycho she asked me out to coffee at the Village Inn, but she was quick to point out she only had a couple of dollars(LOL).We went in her car.She was not used to it. I tried to be a friend and I was.

I was allowed to do many things on the floor at WBMAC ( Ellen also worked here on the OB/GYN/Post Partum Ward)than other CNA's were allowed . I was basically training in the capacity of a 91b. The other civilian CNA's training there( and I think I saw only 2) only filled the water jugs,emptied urinals, changed linen ... etc. I suctioned tracheotomies, cleansed halo's,inserted and D/C'd catheters, under supervision of a nurse dispensed meds,enemas(B/O), including vitals and other things(assisted in a lumbar puncture and would perform depactions, De brie wounds, repack wounds).
I ran everyday and even participated with some of the enlisted and officers in a couple of marathons by their invitation.
Ellen became a friend and I started showing her Juarez and the surrounding areas.White Sands, Ruiodoso,Las Cruces ,Carlsbad Caverns.And she enjoyed it and my company.I did not push myself on her and that attracted her. I was a gentleman. Still Am.
Ellen had flunked her Pt test again and was desperate. I started by conditioning her appetite to increase her strength. She was more at peace than when I had first met her. Rock climbing at Hueco Tanks increased her stamina. Her muscles were turning athletic. I would get her Mc Donald's on the way to work . I made sure she ate. I introduced her to the foods of El Paso and Juarez. Chico's Tacos. Abuelitas Tamales. Ciro's Flautas.Villa de Mar.She started filling out. She loved the food and the company.I was her friend. Then when she actually did PT with the Army I was there with her,side by side ,running...encouraging her. No not yelling.Being a friend.
I had promised God that if she did not kill herself, in Oklahoma during a trip up there, that I would take care of her until she was able to take care of herself and live.She had recently bought a gun and had taken it up to Oklahoma with her on the trip( I was not aware of this at the time). I was at my Grandmothers house when she called after 10 p.m. and riled my Grandmother.She wanted to know what I was doing and I told her it was late and my Grandmother was irritated that she had called so late. She apologized and said that she would never do it again and I told her it was okay ...just watch the time.We said goodbye and hung up. I went back to bed and then got the horriblest feeling.Thoughts.The gun."Ill never do it again." The extreme sadness. Death. I knew what she was going to do , so I asked God immediately with tears in my eyes, if that he would allow her to live, I would take care of her and make her well.When she came back from Oklahoma a few days later, she was so happy to see me.I was happy to see her! She confessed to me on her own that she was going to have killed herself while in Oklahoma. I asked her how? She said she was fixing to pull the trigger with the gun in her mouth but that at the last second she had not the desire to die. I asked her when this act occurred. She said a little while after she had gotten off the phone with me.She explained, that was the reason she had called, to say goodbye one last time. I told her I was glad she called and was aware that she was in mortal danger. And how I knew. And what I promised and to Who.She was so beautiful now.She glowed
That is why I was with her, running PT on base with her.
I eventually moved in with her at her request to help her with the rent and she said it would get me out of my grandmothers house. I agreed. My dad had been calling everyone in the family to pressure my grandmother to throw me out.I thanked her and accepted her offer.
Now the military took notice of these abilities and the actions. They saw Ellen's transformation within a matter of months.They saw to what extent I was willingly to go for a human being . And what change I effected.Nothing is done in secret. Especially on a military base.
Sgt. Nangle wanted to have a word in the report room with me.That's where he told me that he and Sgt. O'reilly(Reilly?), his immediate , and a few others had noticed my abilities and what I did on base and were very impressed. He asked me if I knew what CID was? Not really ,I told him. He explained that It stood for Criminal Investigation Division of the Army. I was sort of baffled.So he said flatly "we can always use someone with your proven abilities in CID." He was trying to recruit me into CID based on what they had observed at the A.A. meetings(many military attended including SSgt. Ray Goins,counselor at the ADAPC[Army alcohol drug abuse prevention and control programmpdadapc ], my interaction with Ellen(Sgt.), My interaction with the people of the hospital,my interaction in general and my ability to effect a change for the better. I told him I was not really interested. He said for me to think about it. I told him I really didn't feel like going to Basic training .I would not have to go to basic training, as I Had already proved myself, he told me. He again told me to think about it. He emphasized that they wanted me just as I was.Desperately.
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Yes, now I'm homeless!

2008-04-24T18:55:00.003-04:00

Sister Susan called to catholic charities for me and spoke to Tim Connor the director,and had me go there to see a woman named Susan...she came to the lobby and started talking to me about my case there in the lobby ,which was a good indication she was not taking me to her office ,which was a good indication the outcome was going to be in the negative,for me. Bulls eye. At least I'm not as naive or willing to give the benefit of the doubt as I used to be , I saw it for what it was."Well the reason we can't assist you is because it's a motel and you don't have a lease agreement". I told her I was under the impression from Sister Susan that the lease would not be an issue,as they were well aware of the status of the place as incorporated as a motel, but that it was actually an apartment. I already knew that was the reason ,I told her. So, I told her that I came all this way for nothing, again, and now you have also lied to Sister Susan, by allowing her to believe that they were going to assist me.Why then, would Sister Susan had sent me there, again to be told the same thing? I told her that they were all willingly complicit in their lies, time and time , again. I told her those times that I sat in that lobby waiting for hours allowed to me to see to what extent they would lie."No we don't assist in rent," Sandra Carrillo would tell walk-ins that I supposed she had no intention of helping. So , then I asked her if it was a federal guideline they were following, because then it would be apparent why they were so willing to lie, because they no longer were"Catholic Charities" but a corrupt federal agency.She said that these were "their" guidelines. I told her that made it even more corrupt, it being Catholic Charities. I asked her if I then called my manager and if she would fax a lease agreement, would that do?I could tell by the look in her eyes that she wasn't going to approve the monies one way or another, but what could she say in the lobby with witnesses? Of course she said yes. I called Linda and asked her if she had an actual lease she could fax and of course Linda said no ,for legal and money reasons(they'd have to take me to court if I failed to pay rent and that it would cost them "money"). Well , that was the end of that. I told Susan it was obvious that they were all complicit in the gossiping and lies( I told her I was aware that it was Kathy Vance at ST. Vincent DE Paul who started the problems and that they were complicit according to their actions and behaviours) . I told her that it was God who had put them in these positions of power at Catholic Charities and as they were unwilling to do Gods work they would first be removed from their positions and "lo and behold " they would all find themselves homeless.I told her an injustice is paid with an injustice.And when it happened ,remember why.The disease runs deep.
I then told her that if they had just been willing to do Gods will they would have been aware of the manipulation and deceivements, but now that they went along willingly ignorant they were just as much as fault. I then passed out my card and explained to her that I had reluctantly wrote up an article on my site listed on the card detailing the eventsClick here to read , along with the names of those willingly involved in my suffering. I told her about the stigmata imposed on me by a man( Dr. Gary Anderson,there are 3 @Baptist Integris, so exclude the other Garys) and how I have walked from downtown with extreme pain in my foot to be lied to again and again.She said she could give me a bus token.I told her I would rather suffer their lies and the pain to give more merit to the act of forgiveness. During this time , people are in the lobby area listening( employees).Nobody challenged me .Nobody said what I was saying was untrue.They all knew it was the truth.I said other profound things,but it would take all day to write it...you get the gest of it.So ,yes ,as of 5 pm I am homeless due to the avarice ,malfeasance and lies of men(mainly women, the men were to much of cowards and worked behind the scenes).A corrupt and faithless generation.I can't tell any difference from the Gospel people and these people.It's like it's happening all over again.What a nightmare!! I'm too sick to be walking here and there to eat( I've got $5) so I've inclined myself to walk out of town and find a little wooded area and just sit.I'm tired. I was given false hope.I fell for it ,again.I'm sick and tired.Don't want to sit in some alley...just want some peace.Hence the reason of the wooded area.Peace.To top it off,even if I wanted to go to a shelter my card expired and I can not subject myself to anymore adulterants,the TB shot.It's an active virus.They give it for a reason other than protecting the public.Same thing with the card.To keep track and control.A corrupt and evil generation.No more my Father.Please empower me with my rightful inheritance .And send me the money that was stolen from me by family(50,000 my grand father had left me,but my dad having the same name... I've never seen it.)A nd certain people.So much has been stolen from me!But no food and water in a wooded area after walking all day to get there...I'll be so tired(exhausted), pray that I'm not alone for too long before the angels come for me...After 5pm I'll go finsh up my blog at the downtown library until 9pm,closing time.then I'll start walking. Starvation,thirst and the worst for a human; loneliness.
Yes , I don't know where I'll sleep...sure I have "friends" with roofs over their heads but like I said they are all crack heads(Hence my mission and the blog homelessokc.blogspot.com).One lives with his mother @" the courts"( crackville) at the age of 45 for the last 3 years. I won't impose on them.He's enough of a burden on her anyway.Robert,the man who stole from me, has a house with some older woman he's shacking up with and leeching off . And their home is excessively infested with roaches(so bad that the time I slept on their sofa there were literally 6 on me at a time while I slept, then even though they stole that huge amount ,when they couldn't make a profit off me ,they had no problem kicking me to the curb( they thought I was going to have a law suit against the jail for the non- medical treatment and be rolling in dough soon and when they realized that is not the way I work,out...but they never did recompense me for the theft) 3 weeks later.I usually left their house at 6:30 am( to make to mass at Our Lady's @ 7:30) and wouldn't return til 9:30 pm, as not to impose on their dysfunctional life.I'm an empath, and could barely stand being around them.I literally just slept there.My "friend " Jay has no woman, but does have his own place and I did stay a couple of nights on his sofa when I got really sick and couldn't literally move, but I got to see in that short time that he was a crack head also( he had kept it hidden from me) and that he had "people" there til 6:00 am smoking in his room.That shit wafes through the air and the negativity(evil) combined with that crack smoke in the air made me deathly ill .I would have left , but I was too sick.My friend Frank has a little efficiency at the Classen senior citizen Tower..but he is also a crack head and a drunk with the same scum leeching off him(He is a really nice guy).But I can't "hang" with these people, it makes me too sick,literally.
Even if I could go to the mission ,it's the same story...they smoke crack in the bathrooms with impunity.There is even an OKC police officer stationed there that does nothing. I just want peace.The trees don't smoke crack ,yet. But to get to a secluded spot means walking miles out of town from where I am at.Past I -240 to make sure I'm not on private property trespassing. So tired...couldn't realistically do it even if I was healthy as a goat. And then walk all the way back to 10th and robinson to get a free breakfast at 6:30 am.Listen people, I'm fucking sick(bronchitis,the foot surgeries,testicular masses and the bleeding I experience due to my diverticulitis[anemic at that], not to mention the 17 stab wound scars "all"[ yes ,these persons who did this intended me to suffer and they took great pleasure ]over my body including up and down my spine and in my lung.The people I know that don't smoke crack or have an extreme dysfunction in their lives are morally apathetic.They state that I could go do all the things listed above ignorantly. they just don't care.they have no understanding. So they lie and allow me to suffer. I really do feel like Job. I really, honestly, can't recall sinning against my Father.Yes I do smoke Marijuana, but it's a gift from GOD.It's a natural plant!Unadulterated.It s the only medicine that provides peace and relief. How can you smart people believe the lies about it killing brain cells.Would I be able to write as eloquently as I do if there was even an ounce of truth to this propaganda.I do not do man made "DRUGS". I am a naturalist.No aspirin.unless I'm in the hospital with a couple of holes in my footadulterants-and-my-body( click here) Those are the enslavers.The problem with pot and our youth?You assholes have never shown them to give thanks to GOD for it, less tell them the truth because you are deceived yourselves. You don't even give thanks to GOD for the wine and beers ,and spirits you consume.Hence , the reasons for mass consumption and obliteration.Learn to give thanks to GOD for all good things that he gave you and teach your children such. You people are mindless sheep !Wake up. Remember! Be aware and don't fall victim to the dictates of men.Moses only came down with 10 commandments. And why do you think those other" laws were added and by who. Remember Moses Father in law? And how it was not God who partitioned the duties but by a suggestion of his father-in law and maybe you can guess why and to who those duties they fell.Power,control,greed.Can't you see the perfection of the ten commandments? Are you going to say that God said later," Woops ,forgot a few things!" The five books (the Torah) contain both the complete system of biblical law, called commandments (Hebrew: mitzvah, pl mitzvot) of which 613 have been enumerated. Now I got this figure from wikipedia,so I'm not sure how accurate it is ,but as I recall from memory it is pretty close to , if not a liberal ,figure.http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Torah

God is with us!!! Pray to Him!! Now!

2008-04-23T21:17:00.004-04:00

I've got an appt. with Sister Susan @ 9:30 tomorrow morning.I should be still able to make it on time to see you.
Bible study was canceled, again.But I still went upstairs to the meeting room.The door was locked to the room. Sister Susan should have been gone by then (all making the miracles profounder) , in fact the doors to the building should have been locked. She met me at the elevator on my way down. She told me that Bible study had been canceled and was surprised no one had called me to tell me.I told her I didn't have a phone. I then started to remove the bible study books and hand them to her,explaining that I would not have room in my backpack.She looked at me like "what?" I explained , that as of tomorrow , I would be homeless and would not have room for them in the back pack.But that I thought she should know why and how I was going to be homeless, in case she was not aware . I first told her about the promised money from catholic charities.The phone calls to my manager.The promises.The requirement of faxing something stating I lived there.The 3 weeks of waiting.How my manager thought that some catholics were liars. And then how we went there on Friday and how I just happened to intersect Sandra Carrillo, the social services assistant,in the lobby.How other times I've waited 1 1/2 hrs in the lobby being held at bay by the receptionist.And then having to leave.I told her about Sandra Carrillo and how she had immediately became defensive and how she said first ,that they didn't do rental assistance and when I asked her why she had called my manager,how she then said how they don't pay rent on motels and when I reminded her that the place was incorporated as a motel from its' inception and that it was actually an apartment and that they had been aware of it , how she then said she was not sending any money,her decision . I told her that I believe she was under duress and that I had told her this.That I had told her I was just happy that she had finally just told me the truth. 3 weeks later.This was all news to her and I could see the genuine concern in her eyes. She asked me if I had spoken to Tim Connor,the director.I told her that I could not get past the receptionist!
She then anxiously asked me how was she going to get a hold of me if I'm homeless.I at first thought she meant for bible study.I told her I wasn't going to be coming back.Then I could tell in her eyes that she wanted me to come back.But what she really meant was that she was going to call Tim Connor herself and make me an appointment. I told her that if she thought it would do any good I could come back and see what happened. I told her someone was trying to run me away for some reason and that I believe that Sandra Carrillo was under duress and orders despite Sandra stating that it was her decision.Well,they have a funeral at the church tomorrow at 10am.I told her that my manager was very lenient in giving me time ,until 5pm,but that she leaves at 1:00 pm,though her asst. lived on the premises and would be able to call her from her phone if an answer could be found that could keep me there. Thank you for your prayer.It gives me hope.Unexpected,again.thank you Father. Hope!
And then get this.No coincidences.Keep in mind, she should have been gone, long ago.A lady came up to the door.Sister did not recognize her.My first impression was that she was a homeless woman in need of something.Sister unlocked the door and asked her if she could help her...and then she started beaming and immediately embraced this woman with such love that I have not seen except for what I would imagine the father with the prodigal son...overwhelming joy! It felt so good.And then she told her that," I was just thinking and praying about you!" No really.At first the lady didn't grasp it.I told her it was no coincidence,Sister should have been gone long ago, but that I had delayed her.Then she grasped.She told us that she wasn't supposed to be there either except for the fact that she was downtown at the arts festival and it got rained out and her friend was giving her a tour of downtown and she just happened to turn and see Sister Susan in the doorway talking to me .This woman was a cherished relative of one of the Sisters at her convent at Villa Theresa. She hadn't seen her in a long time and really did think about her and pray she would see her.Immediate answer to prayer.And she was happy to introduce me and I blessed her and took her hand then and when she left and said,"Peace be with you." It was overwhelming joy for each of us ,this encounter.Blessed be God forever. This I write to you to impress the immediate answer to prayers.So, pray that the Holy Spirit is with me and those we encounter tomorrow so that Gods peace and will be done expeditiously, God is with us and wants us to know it and do his work. I think it was your prayers and my willingness to bring it out inthe open(reluctantly) that effected this. This letter is also directed to you ,Bill. Friends, that love me enough ,to pray for me.What a blessing!Amen.

Oh, Bruce !The man behind the scenes,with an agenda?

2008-04-23T11:57:00.010-04:00

This is only for you,Bruce.Hence the reason I only use your first name.No title.No last name. I know you read this blog. I was finally, after years of trying to reach you,able to look directly into your eyes( I'm practically blind) , through a closed door.How appropriate. Do you remember me, over the course of years coming to church?Attempting to reach you .Never had the time for me, did you?Not even the last time I tried to to make a personal appointment with you.You were standing directly across the counter with your back to me.How appropriate.You were so busy(?). So busy,you couldn't even turn around and tell me yourself that you were busy? 4 feet away!The P.A had to speak for you , realizing how busy you were , so busy. She seemed a little embarrassed, but not really.They all allow you this freedom. For a reason.Respect? Concern?
I was not aware of you? You heard me speak. I heard you when you spoke at the "podium".The homeless....the time at BJ's...the face of ...but no....a light?
Oh, how much I wanted to sit at table with you and eat. How much I wanted to cook you something delicious and healthy. I cry now as I write these words.Why?
If I didn't care for you, would I care or trouble myself with the insults and rejections that you are well aware of ,through those that follow you and your own words and actions.Time and time ,again.Why?How long?Until I die?
You will get your desire and those that desire what you desire ,will also. But at a price.Not my price. I wanted health and over abundant joy for you.Prosperity. For your community.Ours.
The insurance premium can't even be met.I look at the report weekly...barely even inching towards the debt being in the black.Why? Maybe one of your rich constituents will bail the church out of this dysfunction?The ones you do have time for. Or did I not notice?
You faithless,corrupt,evil generation? You rob from yourselves.Willingly.Why?

The price? The loss of a gift.from God.Like a Lion! Teodoro Leon III = Gods gift like a Lion III.
Nothing was done in secret. The church has known from the beginning, as it is a scholarly establishment with meticulous note taking and history, my nature. Is it not possible that some of the things others(including my own family) have said of me are slanders, said to cover up their own perceived "SINS"? If somebody had just asked me, they could have discerned the Truth for themselves about me. They would have made an informed decision." ...for what I have done and what I have failed to do..."
I'm gone soon.May peace be with you...but I don't see how. Injustice is repaid with injustice. Ask those down in Cleveland County.
Vengeance is mine, sayeth the Lord
14Bless them which persecute you: bless, and curse not.
15Rejoice with them that do rejoice, and weep with them that weep.
16Be of the same mind one toward another. Mind not high things, but condescend to men of low estate. Be not wise in your own conceits.
17Recompense to no man evil for evil. Provide things honest in the sight of all men.
18If it be possible, as much as lieth in you, live peaceably with all men.
19Dearly beloved, avenge not yourselves, but rather give place unto wrath: for it is written," Vengeance is mine; I will repay "saith the Lord.
20Therefore if thine enemy hunger, feed him; if he thirst, give him drink: for in so doing thou shalt heap coals of fire on his head.
21Be not overcome of evil, but overcome evil with good.
Romans 12:14-21 KJV
Maybe ,I'll find myself in Palestine somehow or another getting beheaded by some Muslims. If it would provide peace... I submit.
...but if we don't confront our evils here ,these men who would confront me and hate me here will progress in their disease to the point of the evil we see prevailing in Islam.Edmund Burke said," all that is necessary for the triumph of evil is that good men do nothing." Do not allow evil to triumph. Do not do sit by and do and say nothing, as the Muslim general population does.You through your gift of prayer, send me where I need to go... the Middle east.They will attempt to kill me ...but, so be it.How horrific. I pray that it doesn't come to that.I saw the video of the beheading of Berg and the controversy surrounding it that it was staged.No matter , one way or the other, his body was found and he was dead(without a head attached)!It is a horrific act to behead a dead or live human body with a "KNIFE". They killed him!He did not die of "natural " causes. Why are men willingly complicit to belittle violence, in what ever form it comes. Does it justify them and they have peace within themselves? I don't see it.

Another form of ignorant exclusivity.

2008-04-21T15:23:00.004-04:00

Well, let me ask your opinion on this question.Did Jesus have a brother named Thomas?According to the canonized gospels,he did.Or was it ,again a mistranslation?Cousin?What does the Greek translate to.I need a site that gives the Greek/English,side by side.The reason is that I have from a catholic reference to Thomas[ Thomas was referred to as Didymus(the twin) only in John(11:16,20:24,21:2) ]the twin(dydimus), stating he was his brother.Now this is a calendar with the imprimatur,official stamp of the Vatican,and this years edition to boot.Now I have a reference going a bit further stating that he was called a twin because he was literally his twin.Now him being Jesus's twin is hard to fathom(considering I've never heard of Marys double birthing)...but if he was his brother it is possible that he had a strong resemblance to Jesus,hence being called his twin and brother.Now , I just got into it with some street "preacher" standing on the other side of the street of the library, who first stated that only the elect will enter the kingdom of heaven(which is ,according to Jesus,within us) and out of his ignorance stated with malice that he" loved" me, despite my person not getting into the "kingdom" as a result of my questions and challenges to him.He can't "love" me , he does not know me to love me.Sugar coated sarcasm.He stated that Mary had no other children, hence his statement that Jesus was the only "Son of God"(that wasn't the question).That is why he got mad.When I asked "was it not possible that Mary had other children other than Jesus after His birth?"(The Lord's brothers were James, Joses, Simon, and Judas. James the Apostle was killed by Herod early on(Acts12:2), and James the Lords brother became a believer and wrote the epistle.), he got mad.I asked him to show me were in his bible it stated or implied that Mary was celibate( contraceptives not allowed in Judaic society) or never had children after Jesus.He got even madder!
Lets look at the the humanity of Mary and Joseph realistically.Sure, Joseph was possibly so traumatized by the appearance of the angel , the immaculate conception and the virgin birth that he never attempted to consummate his marriage to Mary and produce other children.Unlikely. It was Gods command to procreate.
Mary ,herself might have been unwillingly to consummate her marriage to Joseph after the birth of Jesus,claiming Holiness,"keep your filthy paws off my draws Syndrome".Unlikely.
They were both devout Jews. A devout Jewish couple would have done Gods will through the sacrament of marriage and that meant consummating the marriage if not out of love then duty."Go forth and multiply." What would the neighbors had said if Mary had not produced others besides Jesus?.That she was not holy?That she would have been barren( considered in Judaic society as a curse from God) would of have been abnormal.
This street preacher named James the Apostle(that is how he introduced himself) claimed the bible in his hands was perfect. I to an extant agreed.But , I told him a book did not limit God or Jesus in their history.Just because it's not in the bible , an issue is false?Dinosaurs? The other side of the world?Countless items.
Just because it doesn't say in the bible that Jesus ever took a wiz or pooped,we should understand that he never did?That's just an example. Just because it doesn't say in the bible that in his life ,Jesus was ever married, does that mean in his humanity that he did not see the beauty in certain women or find them attractive?I know that He, being aware of His nature, Son of God, did not defile their image with perversion or lust.But that is not the same as recognizing their beauty and appreciating that gift.
This man James, through his inability to be open and through his ignorance, claims exclusivity of Jesus.He crucifies my Lord on a daily basis with his hate and lies, over and over again.Because he "believes" he "knows" God.Jesus.He knows neither.
And as a result, he doesn't know me( or even makes an attempt to know me) and he can't truly love me or forgive me.Sugar-coated Jesus?
He stands on the corner causing more harm to those seeking my Father by propagating lies and half truths through arrogance, ignorance, bias, prejudice and exclusivity than he would if he just kept to himself and made an attempt to understand his disease and then from there to go on his search to find himself and God.Peace and wisdom,through the gift of the Holy Spirit, be with you all,including you my brother, James the Apostle.Amen(so be it).

The declining Clergy in the catholic Church?

2008-04-20T16:46:00.008-04:00

A deacon at one of the church's I attend justified the only recourse available for the issue of the declining priesthood was to make more deacons, stating , that according to scripture and custom, that only men were chosen to go out and take up the slack caused by the neglect .This is the actual reading for the day and he was referring to it. Make more deacons!the process takes the minimum of 4 years,as I understood.He failed to notice that the sentence right before the names of the men who were chosen ,through prayer and the guidance of the Holy spirit. "The proposal was acceptable to the whole community." Now , I know that this is not acceptable to all of the community,as it is impractical and that we also have an available pool of well qualified people that is ready to serve in the capacity of priest. It is impractical due to the fact that the deacon is limited in what sacraments he may perform,important ones. He cannot absolve sin,celebrate mass or annoint the sick(http://www.nbc4.com/pope-benedict/15822324/detail.html).These things stated by the deacon during his sermon.
ActsChapter 6 http://www.usccb.org/nab/bible/acts/acts6.htm
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1 At that time, as the number of disciples continued to grow, the Hellenists complained against the Hebrews because their widows were being neglected in the daily distribution.
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2 So the Twelve called together the community of the disciples and said, "It is not right for us to neglect the word of God to serve at table. 3
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Brothers, select from among you seven reputable men, filled with the Spirit and wisdom, whom we shall appoint to this task,
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whereas we shall devote ourselves to prayer and to the ministry of the word."
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The proposal was acceptable to the whole community, so they chose Stephen, a man filled with faith and the holy Spirit, also Philip, Prochorus, Nicanor, Timon, Parmenas, and Nicholas of Antioch, a convert to Judaism.
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They presented these men to the apostles who prayed and laid hands on them. 4
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The word of God continued to spread, and the number of the disciples in Jerusalem increased greatly; even a large group of priests were becoming obedient to the faith.

Now,as a result of the Judaic norms of the society, it seems ,according to Acts, that women were excluded in the selection.But this is only according to the canonized works.Agendas.

2000 years later this injustice of exclusion is still prevalent in the Roman Catholic Church.
We have a worthy group of sincere people who would love to serve God in the capacity of priest.Married men.Women.Capable of serving NOW!
Of course, the church would have to reverse several hundred years of dictations of men and possibly acknowledge the agendas that have kept people of faith ,at bay.Control,Power and Greed.Lets not forget arrogance. It was not done out of ignorance.That is why it is not included,as much as I would want this to be the case.
Many other sects and factions of Christianity are looking at this issue and some are even doing Gods will by inclusion.
The Roman Catholic Church is being left behind. It is complacent.It is stagnant. The priesthood is declining. I love this Church and the beauties it is afforded through the sacraments and its tremulous and turmoiled history.We are evolving as a Church!
The Prodigal Son? Received inheritance?Squandered wealth?
"And I tell you, you are Peter, and on this rock I will build my church, and the powers of death(hell) shall not prevail against it"......True. But , how much more shame and hate shall be inflicted on the people of God as a result of the stiff neckedness,hardness of heart of a few
who , refuse to see ,that if they only did the right thing....no one would lose.Including them.

1 PeterChapter 2
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1 Rid yourselves of all malice and all deceit, insincerity, envy, and all slander;
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like newborn infants, long for pure spiritual milk so that through it you may grow into salvation,
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for you have tasted that the Lord is good. 2
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Come to him, a living stone, 3 rejected by human beings but chosen and precious in the sight of God,
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and, like living stones, let yourselves be built 4 into a spiritual house to be a holy priesthood to offer spiritual sacrifices acceptable to God through Jesus Christ.
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For it says in scripture: "Behold, I am laying a stone in Zion, a cornerstone, chosen and precious, and whoever believes in it shall not be put to shame."
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Therefore, its value is for you who have faith, but for those without faith: "The stone which the builders rejected has become the cornerstone,"
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and "A stone that will make people stumble, and a rock that will make them fall." They stumble by disobeying the word, as is their destiny.
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5 But you are "a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people of his own, so that you may announce the praises" of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light.
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Once you were "no people" but now you are God's people; you "had not received mercy" but now you have received mercy.
I am not offended at the insults and lies directed at my person. Some of you hope that I will just go away.
Your own guilt and shame inflict and cause you pain. But I understand the nature of the disease...or would you not be at peace with the decisions and actions that would cause me to live in the street like an unwanted stray...hungry,thirsty,tired and alone?My Father would give me the money for my needs,but obviously he didn't and I was sent to you and the charitable organizations that were set up to help people such as I.
Yes,it is an injustice what has been afforded to my person by the lies and dysfunction of those complicit in these actions or inaction's ..or just plain dragging of the feet. Are you not aware that I know of the gossiping lies? You think all these things were done in secret. My Father sees all. I am aware.I am not offended of your condition. I love you.I forgive you. But ,please stop for your sake! Injustices are repaid with injustice.Unexpectedly.To those we love.Even you ,have those you love.What is it about me that offends you so? If you spent some time to know me ,your fear would leave. Your true fear is that you know that you would love me. Loving someone you had dreamed .the dream is real.that scares you. It's OKAY! I Love YOU....no matter what. My pain and tears are for you. You are worthy, for me to shed my precious tears over . That is the beauty you need. It is real.This your medicine.Accordingly due!

Sex abuse scandal.injustice paid w/injustice.hypocrisy/agenda

2008-04-19T15:33:00.009-04:00

1 Corinthians Chapter 6 From NAB(catholic)http://www.nccbuscc.org/nab/bible/1corinthians/1corinthians6.htm

Instead, you inflict injustice and cheat, and this to brothers.
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2 3 Do you not know that the unjust will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived; neither fornicators nor idolaters nor adulterers nor boy prostitutes nor sodomites

[9] The Greek word translated as boy prostitutes may refer to catamites, i.e., boys or young men who were kept for purposes of prostitution, a practice not uncommon in the Greco-Roman world. In Greek mythology this was the function of Ganymede, the "cupbearer of the gods," whose Latin name was Catamitus. The term translated Sodomites refers to adult males who indulged in homosexual practices with such boys. See similar condemnations of such practices in Romans 1:26-27; 1 Tim 1:10.

See the relation.little boys(usually... altar boys) and priests.

Homosexuality:In discussing such attitudes, it is fundamental to recall that the term "homosexuality" is entirely problematic for the ancient world since there is no single word in either Latin or ancient Greek with the same meaning as the modern concept of homosexuality.
In my hard copy of the New American Bible, the above verse 1 cor6;9, sodomite =practicing homosexuals.In the NAB St. Joseph, sodomite=sexual perverts. See the discrepancies?Intentional!
First of all, lets get this clear.I am a follower of the teacher Jesus Christ(son of God)...his words and actions.Not of the good Jew,Saul, aka Paul,who went through a long and tedious evolvement from a murderer of the Way to a follower of Christ.And it did not happen over night or instantly,when the scales fell from his eyes.If you read his works in this context you will understand his true conversion(ex; women must not speak.Judaic societal norms of those times).

The administration of the Roman catholic church has always known the truth.They are learnt pharisees and scribes. Their agenda dictated that these truths be hidden through knowingly mistranslating the Greek to suit their agenda and at the least of the their actions, was keeping mum when other ignorants, through bias and prejudice,also distorted words and meanings to suit their biases ,prejudices and agendas.Time and time again.In the name of Jesus Christ.What an injustice to His name and to the world and humanity.

As a result of the hypocrisy,apathy and malfeasance, an injustice was paid with an injustice.
I know that my Christ never in the words and teachings attributed to him condemned what we now know as homosexuality.Two consenting adults of the same sex sharing a loving and respectful relation with each other.
As a result of the lie, many of these people are burdened and impressed with their "sinfulness".
They are shunned by most communities and churches.Their families.Themselves.They are inflicted with violence in the name of Jesus.They inflict violence on themselves.They hate themselves.They want to die. They are not afforded the peace that Christ has granted for all creation.They are told they are pigs , so allot of them live piggish lives. The dysfunction of their lives is a dysfunction of the world.

To remedy this sex abuse scandal is to start at the begining. Tell the truth. Be Christians and not Paulitians.Understand the gift of sexuality.Understand the gift of Love.Separate them. Then unite them.
The sex act is but a small part of our daily lives(if at all),don't continue to pervert Gods gifts through lies and distortions to meet your agendas .Peace be with you.

Answered Prayers.Thank you Father.

2008-04-19T15:26:00.003-04:00

Thank you for noticing the beautiful woman in me .The writer(Maya Angelou) I have heard of before and this is actually the 1st thing of hers I have read."Beautiful Christian Sister".You ,yesterday, were an answer to my prayers.I specifically asked my Father for someone to talk to. I asked for some one to invite me to their home .I asked that someone would invite me to dinner and share. I asked for someone to go to mass with me . I asked for someone to be a witness to the rejection and lies that I suffer at others hands.I asked for someone to help me in anyway they could.I asked for someone to inquire of God.Before ,yesterday, I had been alone for awhile. I was not alone for that day.All Day!It would have been a blessing if 1 or 2 of my petitions had been met and that would have been fulfilling of Gods promise.But, through your courage and willingness to do Gods will, He and you met, all in one Day these blessings.Blessed be God Forever.And blessed are you who heard God and responded , acted and provided a beautiful child such as me with love.I send forth my Holy spirit and the HOLY SPIRIT to you.Receive the breathe of life.And a special thanks to your husband, for you are one.He also receives my gift of love and kindness.I Love you both.FATHER ,SON and HOLY SPIRIT,AMEN.Gospel of Thomas http://www.gnosis.org/naghamm/gosthom.html, Gospel of Mary http://www.gnosis.org/library/marygosp.htm and Gospel of Philip http://www.gnosis.org/naghamm/gop.html are required reading.After, the Secret Book of John http://www.gnosis.org/naghamm/apocjn-long.html Teodoro Leon

Signing for time under Duress!continuation of1/30/08(moved,click here to read)

2008-04-16T12:29:00.006-04:00

Article moved to violencerevengeforgive.blogspot.com ( click here to read)

A people blessed by God and tormented by the Accuser

2008-04-16T11:57:00.002-04:00

People of color, you have been deceived and hated for long enough. Your anger and pain is not offensive to me. I love you .But it is your responsibility and duty to accept the grace that has been afforded you, or you will continue to live in oppression. And through a deceivement, you will continue to supress, oppress and enslave yourselves if the Truth is not realised. You are free! You are healed. Your deep rooted pain has no hold on your true identity.

the prodigal son

2008-04-16T11:23:00.007-04:00

Hello ,just read your letter . I can't help you if I do not know you.I'm writing to let you know that I may not be living at the address I gave you much longer,as I am behind on the rent and the agencies that promised me funds(community action,catholic charities...)have reneged on the promises or have just dragged their feet sending the check to my Apt.manager.Catholic Charities has taken over 2 weeks,after a promise to my manager for funds,in even acknowledging that they sent the check!CommunityAction said they would send a check for $150 and then when I followed up on it yesterday,I was told my app had been denied.So after 3 weeks of promises, my manager is in a position that I understand.I have no money, so the phone # on my card will not be active,as it has no minutes.On the subject of your demons:It is lauded that those at City church are trying to heal you by exorcising,but, and this is a big but,they are treading on dangerous paths.I saw no power or authority on their part that indicates they really know the nature of the disease( or the names).Self edification is not power or authority.Reading bits of scripture from here and there does not give you the education and tools to combat the sickness.I see they have no understanding .The reality of the matter must be exposed.You are healed! They would have no"mission"if you were healed ,so they impress on you your sinfulness. A lie! It is arrogance on their part.It is causing you more burden and confrontations."Forgiveness". This is the key.Our greatest enemy must be Forgiven .His sickness is what enables him to seek you out.And if you don't understand his nature, you can't forgive. And he continues to harass you , as a lonely pained child always does looking for some attention and acknowledgement,one who is hated by most of humanity for all the wrong reasons.He is separated from the presence of God.He is filthy, disheveled , alone and in extreme pain as a result of his arrogance that has separated him from his Father.He is the "Prodigal Son". An angel, created by and of God,who through the love of his Father, received his inheritance and squandered it.He could not understand that.He became a ruler.But he had no wisdom.And he was jealous of his brother and humanity.Now he is really scared and angry,for he had been released for but a short time.But the Father is merciful and kind and waits for his return.For all creation (seen and unseen)must acknowledge the Truth,that God is the Creator and must return to Him for wholeness and health.Lucifer was the most beautifulest of His angels and out of love allowed him the gift of his inheritance(the world).But the separation from Him was an education and preordained so that he could fully attain what he was jealous of ,the gift afforded to humanity, Flesh and Spirit.And in such,as the the antagonist of humanity,he does Gods will,to afford humanity,through the son Jesus the rightful inheritance of humanity, of all of Gods creation,"GOD".We,in our humanity and arrogance believe we can question Gods will,that He some how or another made a mistake ,here and there.Gods will is to draw all of His creations to Himself,rightfully. In Gods wisdom. All things that God made must eventually return to Him. Amen.

Perverse poverty induced by Crack on 1st/month.

2008-02-02T11:15:00.001-05:00

(this gif. is powder Coke.the zinc in the choreboy and baking powder make crack smoking epedemically adddictive)

It is the 1st of February and the sickness is in full swing with all the overwhelming evil that permeates this period of time . I am suffocated by this activity. I cry and vomit . Every crack dealer is out looking for their prey. And they don't have to look too far.
I was at Franks picking up my computer and he was expecting me. Still , it was taking him a minute to open the door. They(being the friends that smoke crack and who usually swear they don't) catch me off guard each month on the 1st! I think they are doing better refraining from smoking that shit. Well that is according to Franks own testimony. He swears up and down that he doesn't touch the shit( for the last 2 yrs). And the whole month that leads up to the first ,while he is broke, he does just fine! I don't see any black crack dealers and smokers sitting up in his senior citizen public housing apartment all day long. Not one person. He has food to eat,cigarettes to smoke and toilet paper.But he is broke. And the money he is able to come by is only used for necessities. Knowing this , I visit with him every other day and smoke a joint with him. It keeps him healthy and he is able to resist the temptations, easier.
Well, he finally opens the door and invites me in , he is a little apprehensive. It is around 7:00 pm. The way his apartment is layed out, I could not tell there was somebody already in the place, as it was also sort of dark.Coming around the corner of the hall I see some black scumbag(Frank is white) sitting on his bed trying ( not to hard) to hide something. I say hello to him and take a look at hs face. No doubt what this scum is doing here. There are "rocks" lying on the bed. Crack.Frank gives me a sheepish grin. But he is also embarrassed, red faced,trying to look apologetic!
Earlier in the day , around 1:00 pm., Frank had told me that he was feeling depressed as a result of a child support garnishment that took 300.00 dollars out of his 800.00 dollar check.Now he had only 500.00 dollars for rent and bills.Rent was $285.00.There looked to be more than 60.00 dollars worth of crack next to the scumbag on the bed.And that was just the appetizer.Frank would wind up spending far more than $60 by the end of the night. He would eventually be broke in a matter of days. The vicious cycle of drug induced poverty is repeated, over and over in many places across the city.
Take for example, Franks building , which is located at 13th and Classen.After about the 5th or 6th of the month, people have spent themselves into poverty and the " party " simmers down.
Not that their appetite for this evil poison has been satiated has this "party " diminished But it is over, because the crack dealers have sucked every last dime out of them. Including all possesions they were able to pawn off on the crack dealer.Stereos,microwaves,mp3's, cellphones,bikes...etc. Now during the rest of the month after the party, you will not see black males with blue head coverings(the kind associated with the "crips" gang and the only ones I'm aware of that cell crack) entering in and out of the building(only one entrance) in droves.Come the 1st of the month the building is taken over by these crackheads and dealers.The population of the building increases 50%.Literally! These people don't live there ! They just prey on every person that does. Their presence is so pervasive it looks like they do live there.

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This happens in almost every public housing facility across the city. In every cheap motel. In "every" neighborhood. To, believe it or not, most possibly somebody you know.Like William Fleming's son. Billy Jr.! Once a prominent car dealer here in the OKC. Now a family held hostage and terrorized by little Billy's disease and the people that go along with it.

The City Rescue Mission clears out on the 1st. That means that about 1/2 - 3/4 of the population goes and cashes their disabilty checks and head right for the crack house(smoke/crash place, as long as you have the money to continue buying and smoking) to spend the $800.00 to 1800.00 dollars on the party(literally). Others rent a room ,from the numerous motels that cater to this crowd ,and who ,as a result, profit excessively by turning a blind eye to this obvious activity.Then of course their are those that hop from friends house to friends house ,who share in the disease and will be more than happy to give them a place to "party " as long as the crack is shared.
All these people will be back at the mission in a matter of days, when the money is literally burnt and smoked up.The average stay away is 3- 8 days.
And when these people return, they are ragged , spent in many ways that have impoverished them.They have no recourse but to spend the rest of the month"living" at the mission,recovering, waiting for the 1st to come again, so that the disease is let out to run rampant again.And again.They are Poor in all aspects of their "LIVES"!I can count more than 30 people that I know who do this and have for 2- 3 years.They will never get out of the mission and have a" normal life".
Everyday, I pray specifically fot the healing and restoration that theses people need to combat this debilitating disease of poverty.May God reveal to you the true nature and consequences of this cancer.It is important that direct intententional prayer based on the truth of this epedemic be made on behalf of all that suffer ,directly or indirectly, from this manifestation of evil. It is not the benign, comical poor mans recreational drug that it is portrayed on "Mad TV" or the "SNL" skits.Many of these people are my brothers and sisters.Your brothers and sisters.Aunts and Uncles.People that I love. And that you do to.
Pray.Be aware.

burdens related 2 my Bright Nature.Pot.jail4me

2008-01-30T13:39:00.001-05:00

An Essay on the events that occurred during 11/26/07-12/20/07 at the Oklahoma County Jail,Oklahoma County Courthouse; booking,detention,conviction,release?,release.

Cold.The whole experience resonates within you from the beginning with the physical,emotional,spiritual and
psyche coldness not achievable in too many places.And don't mistake coldness with (antiseptic)clean.
No part of this process remains kosher, it is tainted one way or another (ethically,morally,legally,physically,
medically...etc.) .
For some reason ,the handcuffs are the first hint of the cold to come,they seem to me to be just a little too
cold , to be natural.
You enter the jail through a bay that has metal roll up doors for the vehicle, you were transported in , to get in /secured.You're are then removed from said vehicle and then walked through two sets of sliding metal/glass doors , into the booking area. Immediately to your right are two holding cells for "inmates"(detainees) , that through my own personal experience/knowledge, have held up to 30 + people, at one time. The word "sardines" literally comes to mind when I think of the period of times I spent in them. There is literally standing room only.There are three benches that line the wall.The" lucky" ones have a seat. Though, one can only sit for so long.We "sat" ( I actually stood for the complete time, as did many others, about 80%) in this holding cell from 6:00 a.m. to about... 8:20 a.m. the 20th of January( the day they unexpectedly took me to court)
!Standing.Elbow to elbow.The whole time. The air must have been turned off during this time . We were all very hot( beads of sweat on my brow) and the oxygen was minimal( I was in a stupor).And though we were all crammed in like cattle, 75% of these "cattle" were talking as loud as Pavarotti sings at the Opera.Or wherever he sings.
To the left is the frisk down area. And a little further down there are windows you get seen at for a medical screening, by a "nurse?".Vitals, weight.....the scary questions...are you feeling suicidal? Do you have a mental illness? Have you ever been in a mental institution? Answer incorrectly and you might find yourself "restrained" for your own safety, in an extremely cold single man holding cell. Have I mentioned that everything is filthy? And of course their people skills are usually lacking...I know ,I know...take into consideration where they work and who they usually have to deal with(people not to happy to be there?).So I guess , their coping mechanism is to employ the tactic ofbeing the "cold" authoritative COUNTY(sorry).... , I mean OKLAHOMA COUNTY SHERIFF employee, pardon moi ! And don't you even dare make the mistake (like I did) and act like you know anything...like how to answer a question they asked! You might be labeled "uncooperative" and your screening is abruptly ended.For saving man hours, expect a little something extra in your check at the end of the week?
Now, after being frisked and property, hopefully all, logged in (and don't you forget the orange slippers,if nobody offers you any , get some) you are less your watch, jewelry, money, everything, basically, except your pants, shirt...uhhh, yeah, that’s about it, so don't forget those plastic orange slippers or you will be, walking in your socks (or not), for the rest of the booking process. At the least. Not rich? That’s at least 3 hours in custody for the booking process to transpire and those holding cells/pods down to the left, of frisking, are really cold. This is not at all by coincidence, either. A motivator, keeping the temperature at an intolerable level, has been employed by captors for applying certain stressors to achieve a calculated result/action from subjects in their control, for ages.

Space. You are acutely aware of how precious that area of space that your physical body occupies, becomes to you and where it happens to be, during your detention , at any given time.
To begin with, after frisking and property confiscation you are usually handcuffed to a rail on the wall, next to somebody you probably don't want to be "chained" right next to, on a cold ,metal bench, for at least 20- 30 minute(maybe hours) intervals. And believe me; they are in a mood such as yourself or worse! They take you in front of a Lt. of some sort, at another counter and they read you the charges that they are booking you under. Your bond. Sign here.
Then, you'll be probably right back to that same bench and the handcuffs(your hands are always elevated if you opt to sit on the frozen bench, at about shoulder/head level).And probably a new Buddy to meet/greet, and being so intimately close together, it would be impolite/improper(down right impossible) not to meet!
Then after a time, you will be moved from that bench and put in a "cold" holding cell with a lot more people you hadn't realized were there, a few feet from you. The whole time. Separated by a wall. A lot of people are going through the booking process. Cramped, hungry, cold, pissed off, scared and tired people, people who have been waiting in that cell "hours" before you. And then after about two hours (3-4?) they give you a ray of hope by taking everybody out of this holding cell (8-12) making you think you are going upstairs to "change out" into Detainee Orange Ok. Co. Jail attire. But....no !They are moving the group twenty feet away into another holding cell with even more people already there, who have been waiting longer than any of us "newer" arrivals(consolidation? psychological tactic? All and more).Now tempers are even more on edge, because of simple physiology ; people under greater stress than they are used to, eventually have to deal with the extra toxins in their systems, by excretion of all sorts: excessive sweating( rancid body odor), urination, and then sooner or later they are going to have to defecate. Or else be very uncomfortable. And very cranky! Most choose the later, thinking that at any minute, the guards are coming to take them to "change out" . Or else they are bonding out. Nyet . Nein . Wrongo ! Change out ,for the experienced, means your one step closer to the cell itself. One with two other people already in there, but the lesser number seems to make it more manageable for the person in dire need of evacuation, for lack of a better word. I’m trying to be delicate about the matter. But never worry, that won't be happening for a few hours, at the least. I believe I was held in these intake holding cells for 10-12 hrs total.
Loud.Either your hearing becomes acute or everybody is loud , everything is loud! Sound just loves to bounce off the concrete , glass and steel. People banging on the glass for some reason or another."What time is it?" "#$^^%$!@@*!" "We need food." All sorts of crap."Show me your titties!"And just wait until you get upstairs into your "own" cell. Hope you have some mutes for cellmates because for some reason the macho comes out and men compete(subconsciously?)for the title of loudest big mouth, and to top it off they also love to kick the steel door.BOOM, BOOM, BOOM. Concrete.steel.glass.(echo)(reverb).Grown men barking and howling like dogs and apes(literally).All night long.I don't know if they "regress", but the behaviors and mannerisms they display are primitive, if not just downright crass,uncouthed.Unbelievable! prolonged confinement in cells makes grown men forget their humanity, and they "cope" with the stress by displaying behaviors unbecoming to their dignity.They do not know how to cope.

Next step. After freezing for 12 hrs. in these meat lockers you are now read a list by the jailer, names are rattled off. "Here!" is what you start hearing and you hope for some reason your name is on that list to say," Here!" Now if your name is called, you are asked to stand outside with all the other 30 or so "Here"'s called out of that holding cell. Then the list is read off again and you start forming some sort of line against the wall. Now, if we are lucky, we start moving towards the other glass/metal sliding doors and down to the elevators, and not to another holding cell.
At the elevators, you are told that, when the doors open, you are to move in to them, face to the back and scoot in close...30 people plus the guard(s) . I think we went to the eighth floor. We all got off and were herded through a door that contained single plastic "mattresses" , just sort of thrown about. The" experienced" start claiming from the pile.(Lo and behold! If your not too shy and if there is toilet paper( or not), you can use the toilet that is here ; better not wait !) Then, in about 20 minutes, they start calling names again, and you start exchanging the remainder of your clothes for the jail issued Orange top/bottom and if you happened to have had no slippers up to now, it is really important you get them NOW! Most everyone is sprawled out in the mattress room(There are actually two separate rooms , one room has another counter, except this one has a metal screen and is manned by a few "inmates" ""monitored" by a jailer or two). They also demand your underwear and socks and exchange them for a pair of theirs....(jail issue)except these undies, they've only been used by at least 30 / 40?? different people .The number of individuals who have used these items is probably hard to establish, considering the various degrees of decay of said items. None of them even come close to "new". I don't know who monitors the condition of the items and how he / she determines the appropriate depreciation of item for it to warrant it be discarded and replaced with a "new?" item, but they need to re-evaluate the degree of wear describing the word "tattered" means, and see if it is a standard to be proud of or a word of scorn and shame.)If you are caught trying to sneak your undies in and FOUND OUT, your own undiesARE CONFISCATED AND THROWN AWAY ,right then and there(and so on the day you are released, you have no socks or underwear). Your jail issued socks and underwear are actually in your blanket roll (sheet, hygiene kit, and towel).
Now your name is called again and you are separated according to what floor you are going to be placed on (with your "new " mattress under your arms). You are led to the elevator, and again, same procedure, going in and going out. And now it is the sixth floor , my stop, and we ,who are lucky enough to get to the sixth floor (?),are led to a special holding area( an actual basketball court intended for recreation that is used for holding) that contains no restroom facility or access to drinking water. And the detainees are now unfolding their mats and lying on top of them they are so tired(some of course put theirs down and start pacing ) and getting comfortable. Not to comfortable, for they're sure they will be going to their cells , real soon. It is around 12:30 am -1:00am,at this time.I don't make it to my cell till 3:30am-4:00am (6c45).
Somebody was pulling chain and the cellmate who was looking out 45, was trying to convince me to go in 46(except 46 already had 3 people in it and I was not going to fit). Besides, that was the cell I was assigned to, according to the list they read off. Leon c45. 6th floor, pod C, cell 45.
And that is the cell that I entered, much to the disappointment of the two that were in there, one Frederick Lewis Brown and Jack Calvert ( black and white ). Freddie was waiting to "pull chain". That means he was going to prison. He was just waiting for the Department of Corrections to come and get him, which could mean a wait of about 45 days from the day of conviction. He’d been there since May 07.And was anxious to be out in some fresh air and feel some sunlight on his skin.
I made the third one in the cell and the steel bunks (designed for a two man cell ), were already taken, so I got to sleep on the floor with my head underneath a steel desk/table with two slots that acted for drawers , acting as a freezer(the desk ,not me ,silly). Did I mention how cold it is in the cell, bloody ass cold, and now my head is between three pieces of metal ,on a concrete floor, surrounded by concrete walls. Damn cold! I slept on this floor for at least two weeks, before old Freddie "pulled chain"!
Dust balls, bacteria, everything a person defoliates naturally, dirt and everything else that is tracked in on the bottom of those plastic orange slippers, is now going into my lungs and I immediately got sick and turned in a "medical request" slip. I believe the date was 11/28.

I was taken out of my cell on the morning of 11/30 and taken to the 8th floor with several other inmates(detainees) for what I thought was my physical ($8.00) and waited my turn sitting on the cold aluminum bench,handcuffed to the rail made out of metal piping used for plumbing. When it was my turn, and asked my symptoms.I told her I had angina, shortness of breath, testicular pain, the scars from the surgeries on my right foot were oozing a little "pus", as was the wound on my back. My diverticulitis was flaring and I was bleeding rectally. I had been diagnosed with anemia,asthma,masses in my testes(confirmed by Ultrasound),Staph infection( MRSA), and had two subsequent foot surgeries during my stay at Baptist Integris, for three weeks , from june-july07. She asked me what medications I was taking and what treatment I was receiving for the testicular masses and I told her I did not take most manmade drugs(allergic to most manmade substances), and besides that I had no insurance, so they only did an ultrasound for confirmation , but no biopsy. How do I manage my pain? Well, they did have me on morhpine,loritabs,fenegrine,ultram,and other drugs, but like I said, I am allergic to these substances and I started having adverse reactions, not to mention the fact that I could not afford the drugs prescription.I said the only thing that works for all the symptoms (IBS, seizures,testicular pain,...etc.) and that I could tolerate , was marijuana, though I did not like being stoned all the time I'm awake.
"We are not going to provide you with marijuana while you are here!"she PIPED,incredulously! I did not ask or expect her to give me "pot", I was just answering her inquiry, how I managed my symptoms and why. Then said that she could not treat me for unconfirmed diagnosises, that is, until my medical records are faxed by my Doctor, to the jail. I told her the name of the Doctor, the hospital I had been admitted ,and she had me sign a medical records release and sent me back to the "cell".The guard was in a hurry. "Hurry up man ,I got to go" he growled.I had been the last "patient".
One whole week later, on 12/7/07 , I was again taken out of my cell and taken to a RA/PA on the same floor I was on(the 6th), and weighed (120 lbs). I had lost 10 lbs since the 26th of November.This woman now started to ask what I was there for and I asked her if my medical records had come in , as I thought that is why I was there, explaining I had signed medical releases on11/30.She said she had no "idea" if they had come in. I told her I had angina, shortness of breath, testicular pain, the scars from the surgeries on my right foot were oozing a little "pus", as was the wound on my back. I tried to show her the the "cyst"(abcess) on my back by lifting the the orange shirt and she said,"Eeeeeewwwwwww!" .But not in an amazed way . Rather, I thought she might start puking(she actually seemed that offended ), and the "eewwing" sound she made , started , before I even had started lifting the back of the shirt to show her.She told me to put my shirt down , while she was cringing away from me.
Then she listened to my lungs and said that she heard no wheezing and declared my lungs clear.Then she asked me what I wanted her to do for me ...and I replied that I would like her to treat me.She said that she could not treat any unconfirmed illnesses and I reminded her that my records had been sent off for on 11/30/07. After saying she could not treat undiagnosed illnesses before confirmation and declaring my lungs clear, she gave me a yellow piece of paper, that when given to the roving medic(some women pushing a cart full of pills,from pod to pod.) would allow me to keep an inhaler on my person , considering I kept the yellow piece of paper with me, too. She then told me ,that as soon as I get back to the floor/pod I was put on, to ask the jailer or the roving medic(right! getting anything from anybody who "works" at the jail is near impossible once your in that "CELL") for another medical request slip and that I should only write"wound care" on it and sign it(this would cost another $8).She did not treat the wound there at this time or give me any medicine for the infections. She said that she could not treat undiagnosed symptoms and I told her that all she had to do was examine me. She still did nothing.She had me sign a paper stating I had seen her.The yellow piece of paper had the signatures of a "Dr. Marcelo" and "N ? Plumblee?" I did not see any doctor. She then told me to get back in line.The guard then took us back to the "cells". He was in hurry.

Freddie and Jack were anxious to hear what type of treatment the doctor had prescribed me! I told them I had not seen a doctor and the only treatment they had given me was an inhaler. I told them of the things the nurse had said and the things she hadn't done. They were astounded ,indeed!They had a plan to get me some help!Well ,Freddie did any way.

The next day. Freddie has a simple plan . Simple , but effective, according to Fred! He was more concerned in having things his way and showing everyone how smart he was , than me getting treatment .His big plan, was to get the guard, next time he opened the door , to take me up to medical(13th floor) by screaming and shouting that he was tired of me throwing up all over the place and him having to clean it up, me being so sick and such. Now , I was sick, but I wasn't throwing up, yet, though I was nauseated. Well, around 5:30 p.m. , when the guard opened the door to pick up the "trays", Freddie started pushing me out the door and he basically started screaming.
I was taken out of the cell and presumably, on the way to the 13th floor to see a medical professional for the angina, groin and lung pain at the insistence and persistence of my cellmates to the guards ,by impressing to them ,the seriousness of my condition. To pacify the cellies, the
Jailer who signed me out on the log/in out register on the wall, took me to the ball court ,instead ,and left me in there for about 25 minutes. This is the place without available drinking water and no toilet facilities (see Section A-4) .After 25 minutes they "promptly" took me up to the 13th floor, which I heard was the medical floor. I was immediately handcuffed to the metal tubing running the length of the wall. Just then ,they had a guy brought in with a "real" injury.....he had been in a fight but it only looked like a couple lacerations and he was lucid, on his two feet and was not in a life or death situation ,but clearly in need if a couple of stitches.The guard said, that since they had to stitch him up it, was going to be a few minutes before I /we were seen .About ten minutes later he came to unlock us, but instead of taking us in to see someone, he instead said that we were going back to the 6th floor ball court. And that is where he put me and I stayed until 11:00 p.m , when they finally took me back up to 13th floor andI was asked what I wanted. I told the female guard, Cpl. King, that I was there because of testicular pain and chest pain and that I had a MRSA infection on my back, confirmed with my medical records, that should be on file. She asked me to choose which one was more dire and told me I couldn't have both, and I told her "I guess my testicular pain?", but that they were both related.
Then she said ,that if that was the complaint,there was not a thing she could do for me as it was not a life or death situation .Then one of the other female guards went around the corner from me and asked somebody else," What do balls have to do with chest pain?"
I answered," Having masses in the testicles, even though they might be benign, can still travel to other parts of the body, affecting other organs or that the pain that I feel in my testicle could be putting stress on my heart; plus any other numerous possibilities could be affecting these symptoms. A male guard sitting in an enclosed glass area ,that seemed to be where they congregated, then yells for me to shut my mouth...."not another word!" I tell him that I'm just explaining and answering what’s wrong with me to the guard! Again ,he says if I don't shut up he is immediately taking me back to my cell. " I still hear something? Didn't think so! Uh-uh,
Don’t want to hear a sound coming from you". While he is telling me this the four others present, including a person dressed in a maroon smock (black male) were joining in harmony berating me. They left me handcuffed for about another 15 minutes, before the guard that originally removed me from the cell, at 5:30 p.m., returned and told me to hurry up, as he had to go soon(now it is 11:15). I told him it was not up to me how fast they saw me, and in fact I hadn't even been seen. The guard walked in to the area where the man in the purple smock was, who had told me ,"I can only treat life and death situations", and asked him if he could sign off on me, as he was getting off shift soon. This medical person said there was nothing he could do for me except put in my chart a note stating I was to see Dr. Marcellos 1st thing Monday morning. He didn't listen to my heart, lungs....etc. He just said he couldn't do anything. Then the tall black guard who took me out of the cell at 5:30 p.m. ,earlier that evening, returned me to it at 11:30 p.m.He was in a hurry.
Never did I see a" Dr.Marcellos", another nurse, or get a response from the many medical slips I had turned in,from the time of 12/8 until they let me out the front door(and of course, it started snowing and sleeting , with the wind howling, the minute I stepped out of the jail!) on saturday, 12/22/07 !
Now Freddie and Jack were sure that I had received some treatment and were beaming with the fact that 'they had done it!' "You see what I can do , with the power I command here ,don't you now?"Freddie piped! Yeah , I sure do see what your power can get me. About 6 hours of being held in the ball court cold,thirsty,sick and having to use the restroom!Then get up to the 13th floor around 11:00 p.m. and told that they can't do anything for me unless it's a life and death situation.
" Didn't you tell them like I told you to tell them??!!"(freddie is more upset than I am, not for concern of my health, but because freddie is not RIGHT this time. Must have been something I did or didn't do!) Yes ,Freddie, Don't you think I told them "something" after freezing my ass off for the last 6 hours.They just don't care!They are complicit in their actions(Freddie and Jack barely understood the meaning of some words but they liked it when I used words they were not used to ,it made them feel like I was talking to them on a common level.)They do these things that are not right and profitable to them because they think all the these things are done in secret, that nobody knows and that they will never be held accountable.They forget about WHO is able to see and comprehend all.God put these men and women in positions of power and authority.If they insist on knowingly not doing right and profiting off the suffering of humans as the direct result of unjust laws of their design,...they will be given the chance to correct their behaviors and the measures they take on their" own" citizens who are under their care and ward, to their credit.Then they can say,"We were ignorant of our offenses to God and His people, but now that God has made me aware of these grievances, I repent and correct the wrongs. By Gods grace, I am able to redeem my self, through my own volition I repent" , without being questioned on the merit of the acts, as God Himself has allowed for redemption through His Truth and Mercy , Rightousness and Compassion.And If they refuse and continue in their filthy ways, God will remove them from their prestigous positions and correct their abuses ,with no credit due them. As He has always removed those from positions of power and authority, when they've become too drunk on the profit of the suffering.
Just do the right thing. We all acknowledge that we are aware of the difference between right and wrong.It's not black and white, but we inherently are able to distinguish( even those that love evil) the basis between Good and evil...do not steal...murder...covet..and have no other idols as gods before the ONE GOD and to love Him with all your mind ,heart and soul and to love His creation, as such.This I told to these men ...and they listened .Then they got mad! Most people are not aware, that the things that run through their minds; thoughts...temptations that feel contrary to how they feel and and what they desire to do, are usually actual external stimuli(Satan and his minions evil motives ) designed to make the person"feel" it is part of their makeup . And if these stimuli are applied for long, without the individual being aware of their origin and nature, he mistakenly makes them his own ,through default.He then becomes ashamed, convinced that these thoughts and the feelings he experiences are part of him. And he, assuming that these "thoughts" are his, wonders after awhile," what is wrong with me?And why?". And when he can't stop these "thoughts", he makes them (mistakenly,ignorantly) a part of him. And all he had to do, was to realize, what nobody had told him or given him: the tools to confront these lies; the Truth.That the Liar,the deceiver, the accuser of humantiy,SATAN ... that his greatest lie is to make you believe that he is part of you, unconditionally , by fooling you in to believing his 'Hates and Motives' are your own.If you' re having trouble with these "alien" thoughts and feelings in your mind and the"dirty, shameful"( especially for minor transgressions) way you feel , it's probably because it goes against your nature. The truly evil person has no qualms with his thoughts and actions, he relishes in the pain, suffering and perversions he can inflict on a person.The solution , is to first realize the TRUTH , that we are and always have been at spiritual(real) war with the adversary.That, being made in the image of God , we inherently are persecuted by the adversary, due to this relation and that we being the offspring of our "Father", have the right to refuse and rebuff these confrontations/accusations and to accept our true potential worth. And that is , not to be ashamed of our human condition and believe the lie : that we are impotent by design . That we are not worthy to be in Gods presence. By Design. God designed us, and there is no logic or reason to this accusation. That is Satans tool....to disempower and disenfranchise a person,to make him believe that he is powerless in the capacity of his human nature , by what the person unmistakenly believes is his "unmanipulated" will.
And that is why , eventually ,everybody gets mad, for Satan and his minions are hard at work to convince one that his filth is yours and that you could never be loved because of it.Shame.then anger.But these are all lies and temptations.It's not even a part of you or how you really feel.It's hard to convince a person of his true goodness, when for so many years,the lie has been reinforced,time and time again by the evil one , that humanity is unworthy of God. Who alone , can make this judgement, but God. God Designed us in His image. It'll take awhile for most to unravel the lies and start believing in the beauty afforded them by the simple grace of the human experience.But for some,Christ's Peace
and presence is so profound , that there is no doubt that they have been healed of this sickness of separation.The separation from Gods presence( the ultimate pain and lie) .

Now , Jack Calvert , is a self professed agnostic ( I think he actually said he was an atheist when I first entered the cell on Nov. 26) and these things I was saying was leaving some impression on him. Freddie was also interested in what I was saying. Of course, as result of his ego , his motive and interest was slightly different than Jacks'. Jack was agnostic as a result ( or lack of results) of, "God hasn't given me a whole lot of anything to believe in.....".
Now Freddie was a professed believer and follower of the Lord Jesus Christ.And he was a know it all. His arrogance blinded him to the fact that he was actually quite ignorant in many matters. I am not saying he was stupid . He just did not quite have the grasp to comprehend that his limited and selective knowledge actually made him sound pompous when he allowed his arrogance to override his brain. And as much as I want to believe his genuine desire for the peace of Christ in life, he was not even aware that was what he was missing, Peace. And that was a direct result of his lifestyle, actions ,mannerisms and behaviors. Simply put, he was a self described " Gangsta". He was really impressed with the " thug mentality". He was a really bad singer and rapper but that didn't stop him from imposing his racket on our ears, always self promoting how great he was , in all things. But there was no way that Freddie could convince anyone knowledgeable ,that while he was enslaving people and profiting off their suffering by selling them "Crack", he was also promoting Christs Peace . Murder,theft, violence, hunger,desperation,extortion by fear,rape and many more grievances against humanity ...these are evils that are essential for the "Gang " to flourish. Their agenda is to enslave,control,profit,kill,manipulate...as their evil , greed and arrogance dictates these violences against themselves! Freddie was not aware of the scope or extent his actions took on his own actual brother . He wasn't even aware that he had a brother. Imagine , wanting to make a profit off a pained Son of God by enslaving him with the addiction of crack. Now the Devil might like that scenario. "Blasphemie!",you say?Well read this...

“Then the King will say to those on His right, ‘Come, you who are blessed of My Father, inherit the kingdom prepared for you from the foundation of the world. 35 ‘For I was hungry, and you gave Me something to eat; I was thirsty, and you gave Me something to drink; I was a stranger, and you invited Me in; 36 naked, and you clothed Me; I was sick, and you visited Me; I was in prison, and you came to Me.’ 37 “Then the righteous will answer Him, ‘Lord, when did we see You hungry, and feed You, or thirsty, and give You something to drink? 38 ‘And when did we see You a stranger, and invite You in, or naked, and clothe You? 39 ‘When did we see You sick, or in prison, and come to You?’ 40 “The King will answer and say to them, ‘Truly I say to you, to the extent that you did it to one of these brothers of Mine, even the least of them, you did it to Me.’ 41
“Then He will also say to those on His left, ‘Depart from Me, accursed ones, into the eternal fire which has been prepared for the devil and his angels; 42 for I was hungry, and you gave Me nothing to eat; I was thirsty, and you gave Me nothing to drink; 43 I was a stranger, and you did not invite Me in; naked, and you did not clothe Me; sick, and in prison, and you did not visit Me.’ 44 “Then they themselves also will answer, ‘Lord, when did we see You hungry, or thirsty, or a stranger, or naked, or sick, or in prison, and did not take care of You?’ 45 “Then He will answer them, ‘Truly I say to you, to the extent that you did not do it to one of the least of these, you did not do it to Me.’ 46 “These will go away into eternal punishment, but the righteous into eternal life.”

And when you encounter your brother ailing, in need of some comfort , you might wonder, maybe this person is Christ disguised , allowing you the opprotunity and honor to give Him something good from the "Father" !And instead you offer Him "CRACK".
Now, Jack was the brother that Freddie sold the "Crack" to and who profited from his suffering.Of course they did not know each other , before their introduction in jail.
But ,nonetheless Jack was vulnerable and in need of some relief when he met a guy like Freddie, some where, who asked him,"You party man? Want to party ,man?" . It used to be a sort of benign question meaning you were invited to a party,but what it means now...you smoke crack, I'll take you to get some! (and help you smoke it and spend all your money).

Jack ,not feeling the presence of God, asked ,through blind faith , for forgiveness from God for abusing himself.He was not sure if God listened to people such as himself ,but if he did ,he knew he needed the grace that Gods forgiveness gave ,the abilty to breathe deeply and richly.A sense of peace. The feeling that the hole inside us is slowly being filled with comfort.
Freddie resisted.Freddie did not repent.He went to prison with the feeling that he would be killed there by a rival gang.Or by his own.Or consider this, the little girl he got hooked on crack and who he pimped out and who then got pregnant and he kept on feeding her crack and pimping..., well he's bragging about it on the yard and he happens to be in the company of one guy ,he doesn't know ,who has a concern for this girl...maybe an uncle...brother..or a boyfriend who lost her to this "Crack" and now It has a face. He said he knew of God and that Jesus ,he believed in ,so that meant he was saved.He was not asking forgiveness for the abuses he inflicted on his self or others. He enjoyed being a "Gangsta" ,a Blood.He
was ready to go to DOC when the prison van finally came to get him and he
" Pulled Chain" . It's hard being in a cell ,mostly for 24 hours a day, for
6 months ,as in Freddies case.The "Yard " meant sunlight that he had not seen for the last sick months ,more open space.
But he left in Fear. And most importantly, he did not enjoy the hope or the presence of God ,that Jack felt, through blind faith. And repentance.

Well 12/10/07 , monday comes and goes. The promise of a doctor visit is not realized.Freddie and Jack rationalize the doctor didn't call me in for treatment because he hadn't even come in to work ,the ice storm and everything .Well, sure . Good excuse for them not to give me some form of treatment ,basic treatment! My heart was really hurting , palpatating and the abcess on my back had just spread to about a 3 in. diameter and protruded 1/4 in to 1/2 in. ,filled with pus.The front right side of my body, especially my chest muscle was painful to the touch.Sore.
With stabbing pains.My breathing was labored. My right foot , the two surgeries done in june, were very painful and a small amount of pus was oozing out of one. I feared the infection would spread, as it had on my back. And to top it off, the testicular masses that were confirmed in june /07 at Baptist were emanating a dull,burning ache along with a sweetly, sick , odor....faint ,but I noticed it. And I definitely felt the pain. I believe that I had become anemic again,considering I had been bleeding abdominally due to the Motrin I had taken for the pain.
To tell you the truth, to their credit, neither Jack or Freddie relished in my pain, but what most people do when confronted with another persons pain ,a pain that they can't help alleviate, is they, out of frustration and hopelessness, protect themselves from this pain the only way most people know how, by turning their backs ,walking away and/or victimizing and ostracizing the inflicted
human.They need to justify in their hearts and minds their impotence and apathy by faulting the sick. It was subtle. They think that it is easier. Maybe.

Control
12/11/07 , tuesday.Freddie is very depressed! He did not "pull chain" . Again ,the weather ,is blamed.He hasn't ordered much commisssary in the last few weeks, thinking that he was leaving any Tuesday, the usual day DOC comes to transport
waiting DOC inmates. And he was hungry and irritable, having got used to the extra food he was able to provide himself through commissary(as much as $100.00 a week).The food that the jail provides is minimal, the reason;profit and control.
And most of the guys can consume three or four of these trays, easily. Most Americans are conditioned to eat until their stomachs are extended. Full. Were it hurts. Unnatural.
I would estimate that about 55 % of the jails population spend more than $25 a week. 20% spend over $ 50 a week. And then there are those that spend over a
$ 100.00.
Where do they get all that money and who are they burdening by having this money put on their books? Somebody on the outside must put money on their books. I explained to the men that the reason that so many people in America
overeat is a result of the food Corporations agendas.
1) profiting by extending the shelf life of their products by adding adulterants ;especially preservatives.
2) Then comes the additives(phenalalanine,salt,bleaches,...etc.)that have a desired affect on the consumer.Control.
Basically , I told them why they were eating so much.They were actually starved.The foods they consume in mass quantities have little or no actual nutritional value. And the nourishment that these products do have is blocked from absorbtion by the additives/adulterants , bonding /encasing the molecules so that they can not be processed or utilized by the body.The more you eat, the more you buy, the more the Food corporations make.
And the listless American deprived of the proper diet has not the energy to properly function.He "feels" like he is "eating sufficiently" but he's actually consuming empty calories.Tasty, but mostly empty.
The fat is readily absorbed.
As is the sugar.Salt.caffeine.pesticides.antibiotics.
I was really amazed how much these fellas ate in commissary a day. That is the week they both got a load of munchies, the 1st week I was there. 4 cases of cup of soup.4 packages of coffee(ea. /3 gal.).Numerous candy bars(20?>).Beans and rice.tortillas.Pastries.Kool-aid. I can go on and on ,but the point is ,they ate this in one weeks time.Constantly!
And they were not even doing anything physical to justify the calorie intake . Addicted to food, for the reasons stated above .They can never satiate their appetite . And when the food ran out, it's not like they could walk to the store and get something to bring "home".

No.They suffered.They were huuuungrrry!
Self- induced? Crazy. Done out of ignorance through someones deceivement to promote an agenda. I told Jack and Freddie these things .And many other things.
They had never questioned the charges they were in jail under . Excuse me, let me clarify that statement.Frederick Lewis Brown was charged and convicted by plea . Jack Calvert was never charged( according to him).The judge or somebody asked him if he had the money to pay the back child support he owed and when he responded in the negative, the Judge gave him 6 months in the Oklahoma County Jail. He started questioning after sobering up and talking or listening to me for awhile.
Debtors prison had been done away with for awhile until just the last 20-30 years, that I am aware of anyway. And logically,wouldn't it be better 1st to garnish his wages,allowing him to work and pay towards the" debt" ,the debt the government has found necessary to impose on him. Sure ,it's morally and ethically wrong for this man not to" support" his child.Against the law? Sure ,now that somebody passed a law.Constitutional? The government overstepping its' authority and powers?
If the grown man has not learned how to manage his finances and provide some benefit to his child( and surely not just legal tender), then shame on the world that raised him.garnishment.
Then if that doesn't work, weekends in some working capacity to go to the" debt". There are various other alternatives that are beneficial to both child and parent.
Surely something that doesn't require some state agency getting involved just to make a profit and justify their existence.
Jail.Probation.Court.public defender.Prison.Sure, they are there for a reason.
Criminals.Real offenders of the peace and dignity of the people.Violence,Theft, murder,rape...etc.Serial Killers.Men intent in doing real"evil",whether it be the corporate executive who stole millions, if not billions,in their employees pensions,leaving them to destitution. Or the bank robber who kills during his crime,or the violent extortionist...etc., these are the men the judicial and law enforcement officials must protect us from, unless they want to go back to the days when every (alot) man was armed and revenge or justice was just seconds in the coming . Even though people have been as simplistic as ever ,from the begining of time, a cleary visible weapon on a person and the risk that a person might just use it ,made many hesitate and chose their words and actions carefuly,back in the days. Lest,they receive the immediate wrath of the offended.Now ,our government has disenfranchised and disempowered the "citizen" by making a lot Americans "FELONS".For things such as hot checks,non payment of child support,marijuana possesion(now just called CDS,controlled DANGEROUS substance),tax evasion...the list goes on.
And when examined for motive, prohibiting a non violent citizen from possessing a weapon and voting due to his classification as a felon,... logic dictates that it is not justified,considering the Constitutions guarantee that it is the right of all citizens to bear arms, and to exercise their right to vote. Factors required for a "government of the people" to run efficiently,with all the balances and checks in place ,to guarantee, that if/when that government becomes hostile
and cancerous to its people it shall be abolished through peaceful( an actual vote of the people,not an electoral vote) means and if those peaceful means are not attainable ,then it's the duty of its people to remove the offending group/faction by armed conflict,if necessary.The very "reasons " we went to war with Mother England.No taxation without representation(a vote ,representive of the peoples wishes and desires).The Kings military cannot confiscate private colonial weapons.See the connection? No weapons. No way to enforce an unblemished vote.No way to resist.No worries for King George.And mucho moola to boot for the King and his cronies! Freddie is depressed and Hungry. It is apparent on his face.

Again, another day, wed.12. Freddie is still with us. Of course the Doctor has not called for me to be treated.Weather is still bad.real bad. We can't really tell from the inside of a cell what is going on in the world.Except that it was really cold.In the cell.More than usual.The vent is already blowing air at full force, and we estimated the temperature to be in the 50-60 degrees farenheit range.Plus the cold permeating through the exterior walls added to the freezer effect. I ,literally ,had to put a towel around my face so that I could have warm air to breathe and then wrap myself with the threadbare sheet they provide.The air was that cold, it hurt to breathe.Then I tried as best as I could to cocoon myself with the thin,itchy wool blanket.To top it off ,the lint that liberally shed off this blanket not only wound up in my hair...but in my lungs also. I was really having a hard time breathing.And it hurt. I really hurt all over ,by now.The abcess is now starting to feel like some one is stabbing me in the back.LOL.
I really have been stabbed in the back several times in the past(1992) ,so I know how it actually feels.That's a totally other tribulation that I' ve had to endure.!Maybe I'll write about it soon.It's taken over 16 years to overcome the traumas associated with that story.It was very intense. But that story,later.

4:30 a.m. ,thursday."Frederick Lewis Brown ,your pulling chain!Grab your bedroll!" The guard hadn't even finished saying this and Freddie was already out of the cell.He was so very anxious to go to A and R(admitting and receiving,in Lexington ,Oklahoma).The tension had been thick between us the last couple of weeks. It was time for him to go meet his destiny.He did not bother to say "bye".

I got the top bunk. Jack, having seniority,got the bottom. I was really getting sicker.
Later,that day ,around 12:00 pm, Jack went to the GED class he had enrolled in to better himself. And to take up some time. H ewent to class about two hours each day.One of the best decisions he had made for himself, in my own opinion.It wasn't so much about acquiring the knowledge ,he thought he was required to memorize, that mattered. It was more about teaching him how to use his noggin! Solving problems analytically.Using every aspect of his human nature.

Somebody had sent to Jack in the mail , a dictionary , to assist him in his schooling. He was writing a letter one night when I noticed that he was becoming frustrated .He had been occupied with this search for awhile when he finally ,a little embarrassed,asked me , " I know this sounds stupid, but how do you spell "Goyl"?I"ve been looking and looking and I'm sure it's not here.The way I have it spelled here in my letter just doesn't look right."

I asked him to let me look at his letter . He had spelled it the way he heard himself pronounce it."Goyl". The trouble he was having in mastering the language was what most people who were learning english had, phonetic problems .The different dialects,inflections,accents and word usage distinctive to certain regions complicate the way we interpret the sounds we hear when one speaks and that such fluctuations can render an incorrect spelling. I explained this to him and he understood . Jack was not stupid, he had just limited himself in his elementary knowledge by not appyling himself at the time he was supposed to learn it. I am not faulting him ,shit happens .Wouldn't want to walk in any other mans shoes. Reading more, I explained, will allow him to familiarize himself with words and their correct spelling. Looking up these words will allow him to sound out the "proper" common pronounciation.And in English, the spelling and the pronounciation usually do not match ,hence the " problem". He asked me how I knew so much and I explained that most of it was a "grace from God" but that it didn't hurt that I had a couple brain cells and had somewhat mastered their function. And besides, I had attended OU from the year 1996-1998 and had mastered in Linguistics. My proffessor,Mr. Gui, was exceptionally gifted in his teaching and was able to demonstrate how simple human charateristics and mannerisms, enviroment and nurturing effect language and the way it is written , read,spoken and interpreted. Jack was beneficient of this teaching.

On Friday morning 12/14, we receive a new cellmate, a transfer from the 2nd floor. He was waiting to get extradited to Logan County and somplace else I can't remember.He was hoping to be able to make it out by Christmas. His name was Tim Cousins,from the Spencer area. Former Army cook from 1988-1996?Another poor soul with a self deprecation problem. He had been through alot of physical trauma.And it wasn't even combat or service related.Car accidents,attempted suicides and basic self abuse. He had spirit and drive though.He had accidentally left in the 2nd floor cell he had been transfered from, a sentimental picture of his wife and himself ,taped to the bottom of the top bunk . For two or three days ,he yelled ,screamed,hollered and banged the door at every guard and person he could see out of the little cell door window, to ask them if they could assist him in getting his picture back! Getting these guards and trustees just to bring us our scheduled meals required an act of God and Tim thought they were going to first remember his request and then go all the way down to the 2nd floor from the 6th.He even wrote request of staffs and notes on pieces of papers and gave those to whoever happened to be there when the cell door was open.But even as annoying as it was ,his persistence paid off. A miracle . The 1st guard he had asked days before,he was the one that brought him the picture.Tim was so grateful! He kept thanking him over and over.

The day before Tims arrival, Jack had shown me a sore on his leg that he thought was staph. It was raised,red and filled with pus. He filled out a medical slip. He wanted me to spell out MRSA for him. I told him that it was not a good idea to put Methicillin resistant staphylococcus aureus down as his diagnosis . First , they don't like it when you know medical terminology and do a self- diagnosis . This is a direct threat to their job stability. Your knowledge might make them accountable and responsible for some treatment they might have to give you. Second ,due to the wording they probably might think that I'm juicing the inmates up with the hysteria of a possible MRSA epidemic. He put it down anyway. Of course he spelled MRSA right . And, also, Methicillin resistant staphylococcus aureus. The rest of the medical slip was obviously grammatically incorrect and whoever would read it would notice a difference in the structure and syntax. After filling out several more similiar medical request slips, as a result of no response to his first inquiries, he realized it was probably better if he had left out the word , MRSA . From the time that he wrote that 1st medical request slip , until the time that I left the jail the 22nd of december, he like me , was never taken out of the cell for a medical screening or treatment.

I advised him to wash the wound and bandage it with toilet paper. Keep it clean. When he flushes the toilet , touch it with a barrier of toilet paper between his skin and the metal. The cell had never been cleaned. We shit and drank out of a single device that served several purposes. It was designed as a sink, a toilet and a water fountain. The sink and fountain are located where the water tank would usually go on a standard toilet. Above and behind the "throne". Like I wrote earlier ,the cell had never been cleaned with broom or mop.Disinfectants?sanitizers?detergents? They never had been used in the cell. We kept it as clean as we possibly could with three people eating, sleeping ,and shitting everyday in such a small space.Not to mention the hair,dead skin, boogers and who knows what else falls off or is"flicked" off by someone. We swept the floor with cardboard and cleaned the sink by wiping it down with toilet paper(unused,clean toilet paper,silly!). Other than that, I'm sure the cell enviroment was an ideal growing medium for every known microscopic organism and his mother. And these people were walking on the floor barefooted! And if not that,they walked on the mattresses(yeah, Jack and Freddie thought I didn't know, that when they thought I was not looking ,out of laziness,instead of walking over my mattress that was laying on the floor ,when they had to walk from their bunk to the door,toilet, they both instead stepped on my plastic mattress.Hence the infection on my back. The sheet and blanket were not sufficient to cover the mattress and your person at the same time. So the part of your body that did not get covered was exposed to the plastic, laden with bacteria from the bottom of their filthy flipflops! ) we(I) slept on ,with those orange flipflops, the bottom an ideal transport carrier for all the other known organisms lurking outside the cell.

Tim had brought with him, from the 2nd floor cell, all the things he had accumalated(except the photo of him and the wifey) during his stay.And one of the items was a fungal ointment he had received to treat his athletes foot fungus. He wanted to be helpful, so he offered it to Jack as a treatment for his infection. I tried to explain to them both, that if what Jack did have was a Staph infection ,the fungal creme was not going to do much good except prevent a fungal infection and that it might even complicate the healing, Staph being a bacteria and fungal ointments intended for "Fungi" . "It can't hurt!", was both their response. Jack started having severe pain! His skin was hot to the touch. He described the pain at times as throbbing and stabbing. Tim,to comfort us, offered me and Jack a cup of coffee .We accepted! Keefee Coffee is the bomb! I don't like cocaine(abhor its effects on humanity) ,but I liken the Keefee coffee effect on the mind as euphoric as the coca alkaloids. With out the crash. I, for a couple of hours at least , had a reprieve from the lingering fog of despair after drinking just one cup.And that is all I needed. I was satisfied. I felt a noticable increase in my sense of well being. We all drank our cups and got to know each other better. Jack tended to his infection , applying the fungal ointment and with Tims assistance, bandaged the wound with toilet paper.Then , Jack remembered that he had a gauze left by a previous cellie of his ,that he could apply. I told him ,that for some reason, cotton gauze helps bring abcesses to a head and draws out the pus.

Saturday the 15th of December arrives with Jack panting in pain.Tim has some Motrin that he gives Jack.
The gauze is soaked through with blood and pus. Jack can barely touch the surrounding affected area of the infection with out wincing and grimacing. Now Jack can really sympathize and emphasize with my infection on my back. And his is the size of a quarter at best and it still caused him significant pain.Mine was now about three inches in diameter and protruded from my back about two inches, filled with pus. It was so taut. And I could barely use my right arm. I couldn't lift it above my shoulder.My heart hurt with stabbing knife pains. I was really having trouble breathing, even with my inhaler.(I found out later that I had bronchitis @ OU Health 12/25). The testicular masses were also causing me low grade pain with extreme nausea.

The night before,concerned with my life, I told Jack, that if I happened to die while in custody,that he had the right to sue the county on the behalf of my estate for wrongful death ,malfeasance and negligence. Fearing that I had a good chance of dying in jail without any medical treatment, I prayed and asked God for some wisdom and comfort from the Holy Spirit. I was motivated to write to the arraigning judge,Judge Hall. I didn't include in the letter any mention of the non medical treatment or my declining medical condition to the Judge. I did write that I had not received any responses to my OR bond applications,or answers to most of my "request of staffs". I did mention that it was my birthday on 12/24 and that it would be a wonderful present if the judge could find compassion and mercy for my person by assisting me in my inquiries.I sent this letter off on friday, before the letters stopped going out for the weekend. I really was concerned enough about the way I felt to think that I had a good possibility of dying that weekend.

Saturday night I barely slept. My body was wracked with pain. I could not sleep on my back or right side. And I barely could stay on my left side but for short intervals before I would have to sit up . I knew that at any time my heart could go out as a result of the infection. I had been only eating once a day due to my diet restricting sugars. The beans that I loved to eat were off limits due to the diverticulitis and the extreme pain they cause. As was the milk.Lactose intolerant. The preservatives (nitrates) that were in the delicous boloney made me ill . Besides that, it smelled when excreted through my pores. Like I told Jack," I'm damned if I do and damned if I don't!"

The next morning(12/16) Jack wakes me up at 5:30 and tells me that the oatmeal barely has any sugar! I thank God and eat it.
It is delicous!Of course "barely any sugar " to Jack means that the oatmeal has at least 3 tsp. of sugar. It was plenty sweet, but I needed it. I immediately started itching . A few hours later , the bottom of my feet were throbbing and sore . These were just some of the adverse reactions I had to sugar. Imagine if I had drank a soft drink with the equivalent of 10 -12 teaspoons of sugar in it, six times a day! Thats roughly 60 teaspoons of sugar in sodas alone, not to mention the other foods consumed in a day, all laden with sugar , whether they need it or not. By the next morning ,my skin will be red ,tender and beginning to flake and peel. Basically it looks like dandruff on my face. Hence, one of the reasons that I control my diet . It also makes my nerves more sensitive,heightening my pain awareness. Years of suffering and acquiring the discipline to limit my diet, has proven successful in , all areas of my health becoming better. But I was already craving "sweets" after eating the oatmeal! I couldn't believe that I was feigning for sugar like a " hard drug"! Let me explain. After purging my body of all these toxins , by limiting my diet(as best I can) , for the last several years , it has become extra sensitive to these substances and when I do consume them I feel them for the adulterants they are(bleached processed sugars are just a basic drug) . Acting as a stimulant with empty calories and no nutritional value.Thats why the food corporations add "criminally "excessive amounts to all foods.Read the label. A lot of Americans do, but for some reason ,they can't comprehend the amounts as being excessive.Come on,12 teaspoons per serv? I could barely wait for tomorrows "cream of wheat". I was actually eating these allergants as the result of needing the calories to help combat the infections and to give me some badly needed energy. Another thing, my intuition dictated that I eat. Something was telling me that I was going to be needing the energy soon, so I was to start reserving a supply.Other than being allergic to most of the food they served , the jail actually served some decent food. Not always warm. Actually pretty damned cold, at times. And of course, the portions were made for kindergartners.

Jack now can't lay on the side of his infected leg without it continously throbbing with pain.Nobody has come to take him to see the doctor. He has even shown a guard or two the wound with its oozing blood and pus."Better send in a medical slip....looks like an emergency!" they say. Tim is still with us, he has not been extradited. We didn't think a different county would transport a prisoner during the weekend for extradition. He was sure Logan or Garfield County would be there for him tomorrow, on monday.

I heard the guards outside the cells going from door to door ,asking the detainees through the glass window, if they would like to go "chapel". They had a man dressed in a a suit accompaning them. I think he was the preacher. I was looking out the window and it seemed that a lot of the "boys" opted to get out of the cells for at least awhile. I prayed were I was at, always."Church Service" was a sacrament extended to humanity to bring them together to share in the eucharist."Pray anytime.Anywhere."

I asked Tim if I could read one of the books he had.The only one he "had" was the Lafaye novel of the series "Left Behind". I really didn't feel like reading what I thought was a fundamentalist based fiction, but I was willing to read anything, so starved for reading was I. I read it in one day. I think it was the book before the " the Indwelling".The book was actually palatable. I wanted to read the next book now.No. I just don't(can't) really believe in the "Hollywood" version of the "apocalypse", if "it" even refers to these times we live in and if the interpretation is true to intent. So many people are intent in causing destruction and exacting revenge to self justify and negate what they "think" to be are their shortcomings, instead of promoting the mercy,healing and restoration the Lord desires for His Creation. They equate their human desires with Gods will. But if that is what the whole of humanity wants, maybe God will let them have their " Fire and Brimstone" scenario ! I sure hope and pray not. We have all suffered enough, in my humble opinion.image info

12/17 monday.Tim is still with us. I again eat the delicious oatmeal. I can't believe how good it tastes. I pray that the food is sanctified and that we all are nourished by this food despite the mens groanings and grumblings.Well ,actually, I've been saying this prayer for awhile and it is Jack that has stopped complaining.So now I pray it for all the others in the Pod that might not enjoy their fare.

12/20 Thursday. I awake early ,anticipating that I may need to comb my hair for some reason. Immediately , a guard opens the door to the cell and asks me , "Leon?" Yes. "Lets go ,your going to court." I grabbed my inhaler, my papers, glasses and was out of the cell. I had not known I was going to court.My court date was not until 1/22 or so. But then I remembered the letter I had written to the arrainging Judge Hall. I felt the miracle. I was still not to let my guard down. I ate some oatmeal while waiting to get out of the Pod.For some reason,the guards and the trustees were taking their time leaving the Pod after serving breakfast.The guards then took all of us that ,were going to court , to the 6th floor "Ball court". It should have been about 5:30a.m.. Of course, they left us in this area for the minimum 30-45 minutes required for holding.Plus ,they also brought another 20 or so monkeys to keep us company.No body should have felt lonely. Around 6:00 am -6:15 am the guards called out the magickal numered 30 or so names . I guess that 30 is about the amount of people that the guards can fit into the elevator without causing to much fornication while crammed in so tight( there are perverts and sadist! And those idiots that decided to start jumping up and down while on the elevator until the guard said we would all be taken back to the "Ball Court " if it did not stop).Guess where our next stop is going to be after we get off the elevator? Right! You're learning grasshopper. Another "holding cell". These are the ones you immediately saw to your right when you first entered the jail. through the sliding metal/ glass doors.continued at ,sort of , ... violencerevengeforgive.blogspot.com/2008/05/Under duress,another pretextual stop (click here) How and why I was arrested illegally.

the Troubles with my incarceration!

2007-12-31T17:25:00.001-05:00

Read above article/essay^
Events of Nov.26- Dec.22, 2007 the incarceration of
Mr. Teodoro Leon III ,
treatment,events,non treatment,issues and tactics used by the judicial and law enforcement system to get a conviction and profit excessively from my/your person.

A.
Jail activities that are allegedly either fraudulent, theft related, an endangerment to inmates (health, safety, security issues...etc), or methods that could be construed as torturous (psychological and physical) and/or inhumane .

1. Convicted D.O.C inmates housed with general population inmates, usually persons being detained with other agency holds or non convicted inmates.(security issue: an inmate that has been sentenced to a considerable amount of time, for an offense that also might have been violent ,might not have "anything to lose" and be more prone to causing himself and others harm." What they going to do ,put me in jail?" is their "motto")
2. Known gang members of different affiliations (crips/bloods) and sets (factions within affiliations)
housed in the same "pods"(A, B, C,D) with each other and amongst general population. (Security issue: they like to beat each other senseless and others they imagine might be associated with their "enemy". They also like to take violent measures for profit;commisary, hair cuts, cigarettes....dope.)
3. Commissary items ordered and money deducted from inmate trust account though items are not received.
(Theft/fraud). Exhibit A. actual commissary order sheet (order date11/29/07)
4.Inmates are put in "ball court"(actual basketball court intended for inmate recreation; no backboard/basketballs) on each floor, that is used for a holding cell, with no drinking water or restroom facility, for hours on end.(personally held on two different dates more than 6 hours in this "ball court"; ex:12/8/07
5:30 p.m.-11:30pm medical incident (see Sec. B).Inmates held so long that they are forced to urinate in the corner,under the camera. The result: a river of urine pooling toward the middle of the ball court. 6th floor "ball court" has the remnants of feces smeared in the left back corner wall. (inhumane/torturous, health /safety issue) (security issue: stressed out men, when confronted with having to watch another man shit in a corner, become rather aggressive and hostile, especially to the guy lowering his orange traffic cone colored OKLA CO. Jail pants to squat and crap in the corner of the "ball court"."Good" chance somebody is going to take offense at this man and the ensuing stench. Fight! Or at the least, a lot of yelling, from a lot of men.
5. Methicillin Resistant Staphylococcus Aureous (super bug; bacteria) running rampant through the inmate population, and is not being treated with the drug Vancomyacin, that can be only be administered by I.V.
because it comes only in a solution and seems to be the only antibiotic effecting a benefit towards eradication. (1.Shoebel? German surname: cell 6c35/12-08-07, treated with topical antibiotic. Wound purplish/blue on hand around thumb/palm/forefinger, including area between.2.Jack Calvert: cell 6c45/11/26/07-12/22/07(at this writing, not released) had not been treated /seen by a doctor as of this date:12/23/07.several medical slips submitted since approx. 12/14? 12/19/07 verified.)

B. Summary of medical (non treatment) events pertaining to Teodoro Leon from 11/26/07-12/22/07 during incarceration at the Oklahoma County Jail
1. After submitting a medical request slip (11/28) I was taken to the 8 th floor on 11/30 pertaining to the medically documented pain due to :the masses in my groin area, angina, intestinal bleeding, shortness of breath, pus oozing from a wound in my back, scars from the surgeries on my foot being extremely painful (pus draining out of 1st surgery) and was told by some woman,whom I assume was a nurse,that she could not treat me until she confirmed my medical history.We both agreed that they could be confirmed by having my records faxed by the attending doctor.So I told her the name of the doctor, the hospital, the dates that I was there and then corrected her on the order of my name, my last name is Leon, first is Teodoro. Am I sure?
Well ,how long do you think it will take for me to get called back in and get some treatment after the records come in?
"Well, your records should be faxed in a day or two and you should see the doctor that same day we receive them! " She had the guard return us to the cells. He was in a hurry, for some reason.They are always in a hurry.In a hurry to do as little as possible.
I was taken to the 6th floor for a "physical" and evaluation on 12/7.The nurse was aware of the complaints due to the request slip but still asked what I was there for. I told her and also showed her the wound on the back. She listened to my lungs and said that I had no wheezing in my lungs , that she could hear. She asked me what I wanted her to do about my symptoms and I replied, "treat them." She replied that she was not going to be able to treat me until she verified my medical conditions. I told her about my stay at Baptist Integris and that I had an ultrasound to confirm the masses and that I had already signed a medical release form the week before. She gave me Motrin for my" pain", even after I had informed her that it causes me to bleed rectally and that one of my conditions that I was being treated during my stay at Baptist was anemia, June-July (three weeks).Then she wrote me a prescription for an inhaler (albuterol). After declaring my lungs clear just minutes before? And it hadn't been yet verified by my medical records.Huh? She than said for me to fill out another medical slip request and put "wound care " on it ,after she just saw my wound and could have wrote it her self and treated the wound while I was sitting there in front of her .It would have been a good ,efficient ,beneficial action on her part. On intake I weighed in at 130, I now weighed 120.11 days, 10 lbs lost.
2. On 12/8 @ 5:30p.m. I was taken out of my cell and presumably was on the way to the 13th floor to see a medical professional for the angina, groin and lung pain at the insistence and persistence of my cellmates to the guards by impressing to them the seriousness of my condition. To pacify the cellies, the
Jailer who signed me out on the log/in out register on the wall took me to the ball court instead and left me in there for about 25 minutes. This is the place without available drinking water and no toilet facilities (see
Section A-4) After 25 minutes then they "promptly" took me up to the 13th floor, which I heard was the medical floor. I was immediately handcuffed to the metal tubing running the length of the wall. Just then they had a guy brought in with a "real" injury.....he had been in a fight but only looked like couple lacerations and we lucid, on his two feet and was not in a life or death situation ,but clearly in need if a couple of stitches. guard said that since they had to stitch him up it was going to be a few minutes before I /we were seen .About ten minutes later he came to unlock us, but instead of taking us in to see someone he instead said that we were going back to the 6th floor ball court and that is where he put me until and I stayed until
11:00 p.m...when they finally took me back up to 13th floor and asked what I wanted and I told the female guard Cpl King that I was there because of testicular pain and chest pain and that I had a MRSA infection on my back confirmed with my medical records that should be on file. She asked me to choose which one was dire and told me I couldn't have both, I told her I guess my testicular pain but that they were both related. Then she said that if that was the complaint,there was not a thing she could do for me if it was not life or death .Then one of the other female guards went around the corner from me and asked somebody else," What do balls have to do with chest pain?" I answered," Having masses in the testicles, even though they might be benign, can still travel to other parts of the body, affecting other organs or that the pain that I felt in my testicle could be putting stress on my heart; plus any other numerous possibilities could be affecting symptoms. A male guard sitting in an enclosed glass area ,that seemed to be where they congregated, then yells for me to shut my mouth...."not another word!" I tell him that I'm just explaining and answering what’s wrong with me to the guard! Again ,he says if I don't shut up he is immediately taking me back to my cell. " I still hear something? Didn't think so! Uh-uh, don’t want to hear a sound coming from you". While he is telling me this the four others present, including a person dressed in a maroon smock (black male) were joining in harmony berating me.I could not understand them, they were so static! They left me handcuffed for about another 15 minutes ,before the guard that originally removed me from the cell ,at 5:30 p.m., returned and told me to hurry up, as he had to go soon(now it is 11:15). I told him it was obviously not up to me how fast they saw me, and in fact ,I hadn't even been seen,yet. He walked in to the area where the man was in the purple smock, who had said he ,"can only treat life and death situations", and asked him if he could sign off on me, as he was getting off shift soon. This medical person said there was nothing he could do for me except put in my chart a note stating a I was to immediately to see Dr. Marcellos 1st thing Monday morning. He didn't listen to my heart, lungs....etc. He just said he couldn't do anything. Then the tall black guard who had taken me out of the cell at 5:30 p.m. earlier that evening, returned me to it at 11:30 p.m. I never did see Dr.Marcellos , another nurse or get a response from the subsequent medical slips I had turned in,from that time until the time they let me out the door of the jail.
3. Sent out "request of staff" form on 12/7 inquiring if I had another hold from the ocpd, or other agency that was preventing me from being OR/ bonded out and if negative , why was I still there ,with no response from the OR application I had submitted on 12/4.The arraignment on 12/3 left me with only Poss. of CDS(marijuana) and lowered my bond to 6,000 dollars ,which made me eligible for a "Own Recognizance Bond ".
The "request of staff" form was returned unsigned and unanswered on 12/11.
4. All other "request of staff" or medical slips submitted, except, for those mentioned and Item 7 & 8, were never answered or returned. As of 12/22, Jack Calvert (6c35) had not been seen by any medical staff even after numerous medical slips submitted.
5. Sent a letter of inquiry pleading to Judge Hall to look into the status of my case, considering I had not been able to get a timely response from the jail staff as to any information concerning my case. (Unexpectedly went to court on 12/20/07 .And under duress, signed for time.)
6. A "Request of staff" form asking to use the law library submitted on 12/4/07 to assist in my case was returned 11/28 12/4 answered, signed and dated 12/12/07 by a Elsa Carrion."Mr. Leon, at this time you should have a legal rep to assist you in you (*sic) legal research. You should submit your reqesu>NT>6t (*sic)
for legal material to him/her. If you need items to be notarized let your floor clerical know and she should be able to pull you to have your paperwork notarized. If you need copies keep in mind that copies will cost.25 cents each, attached you will find the form you will need for the copies."(Exhibit B)

my car and cat!

2007-10-16T22:43:00.000-04:00

this is the car

dodge stratus

Sorry ,you haven't heard from me!!VACATION!

2007-09-05T21:21:00.000-04:00

Yeah ,well ,thats the way things go!!I was actually doing nothing except nothing!Just sitting and thinking for hours on end.reflecting on the last few years and remininscing...about this and that...when and where...what and why!
Update on Adam Tate... he is dead and at the hands of violence did his life end...with a bar-b -que fork in the side of his gut.
The sansa player is also dead.The bike is not dead nor is the the car!My laptop seems to be doing fine as a basic home comp for playing games and music and writing.I suppose you want to see a pic of the car now?Huh?Well hold on a sec...it just dawned on me to photo my little girl for all the world to see(look up above this entry)!She just needed a little love an prodding to get her to respond, if you know what I mean! A little more work and she will be cruising the autobahns!!If by chance ,Krista is reading ,I say hello to you!As for everyone else..hears what I think the kids call a "Shout out" to all my "homies"! Just kidding ! I really don'tusually speak in the ghetto venacular except when my car broke down on MLK on the way to the Zoo Amp!!Then I'm all down with it niggaz!Heeehee hee !LOL.Me really funny.What a riot.I peed myself...see you guys/gals later!!

What A Stinking Day!!yucky La Luna!

2007-07-18T21:04:00.000-04:00

Well, I was going to write about my horrible day yesterday but my time is up at the computer.But here it goes real fast!
La Luna Mexican Restaurant....take a chain saw if you order the fajitas and don't forget to bring the extra large can of BUG spray, as the staff might sit you at a table you'll be sharing with roaches .They were as busy as the waitstaff....continued tomorrow.Sorry..I've been so sick and exhausted the last 2 weeks and have not been able to be on my feet for long with out passing out after 2 hours.

Okay ,I'm back and able to add a little more to what I was writing about !!First thing in the morning, things turn ugly...see the article below this one that I wrote about the Sandisk?Well, just after writing that, the sansa player started acting up...then it was freezing...then finally in the morning it quit working all together. And I had just bought those AltecLansing speakers!!
So I'm walking down the hall to go see my manager of the Apts. and the old lady that lives next to me comes out to tell me to lower the music.I go and speak to the manager.And on my way back I notice that the wind had shut the door and locked me out of my apartment. So I go back to the manager and ask her if I may use her key to get in and she asks me, "What Number?"
115.
"Oh,your the one that lives in 115,....the landlord/owner said he was by yesterday and smelled marijuana coming from your place...you either quit immediately or you can move!And if I smell any my self your out"Yes ,sorry,my friends were over and one was smoking...I'll let them know we can't have that any more!

And then who happens to be standing beside me but the old Hag and she says to the manager,"Can you make him turn down his music...He plays it real loud and it bothers me...And he watches Tv all hours of the Day and night !!"
"Could you please lower the volume as not to disturb the neighbors?"
OKAY, I will lower it some more( but then it would be off), but I do go out of my way to be considerate of her by keeping the volume way down knowing that she is an elderly lady and probably not to "hip"to my type of music.
"Classical?"Who doesn't like classical!?

My Review of SanDisk, Sansa e250 2GB MP3 Player

2007-07-08T15:00:00.001-04:00

Originally submitted at Radio Shack

This sleek Sansa™ e250 MP3 player stores up to 500 songs* so you can take your favorite tunes on the go.

SANSA GREAT Overall!

By lioner2 from Oklahoma City on 7/8/2007

Pros: Great Sound, Unbreakable Screen, Sleek/Compact, Easy To Set Up, Tough, Simple Controls, Reliable Performance, Lots of Storage

Best Uses: Sports, Travel, Gym / Working Out, At Work, Commuting

Describe Yourself: Casual Listener, Audiophile, Avid Listener

Primary use of this product: Personal

Once I got the update online, the Sansa performed superbly(before it would freeze ocassionally,..to remedy ...remove cover and reset by removing the battery and then putting it back in).Takes a charge better if you use the msc mode in the USB under settings.When charging off computer, before removing, click on "safely remove hardware" icon when in msc usb mode.
I dropped the player into the toilet the other day and I quickly removed it ,but come on it fell in!Amazingly,...after removing the cover and battery, blotting everything dry ,and then blowing and sucking thru the portals to remove any more"water" ,I let it sit for 2-3 hrs...and "voila!" It worked and continues to work.Bought some Lansing Altec Ext Speakers w/ sub woofer for 24.88 and it is the perfect dorm stereo.I love my Player!!

EASY to Charge!!

Tags: Picture of Product, Using Product

(legalese)

The cleaning supplies,moving out and the crack problem.

2007-07-06T16:20:00.000-04:00

I have based my self for the time being at the historic ******,located at * th and *.If you have my card ,call my cell #(also listed here under"about me") and I will give you the apt No..I told some people before I left the hospital, why I was not taking any more chances at the Mission by continuing to embed myself there.The spider infestation, lice infestation and the Staph in the shower areas due to the CRM 's lack of proper protocol and treatments to resolve these issues,puts me at great risk of getting bitten again,a reoccurring Staph infection or a head full of lice.I'll still frequent the place as I have many friends there and there are some loose ends that need to be tied up or cut. But in reality,it is time to go ,as all the things that I had set as goals ,have been accomplished.
For example;read(those crazies drove me to the missionclick here to read).The main goal was to help alleviate the crack problem in the CRM area ,as that was the place were I had heard people go if they want a "rock".My addicted friend told me this.
Now I am a proponent against homelessness, as I have personal experience in this matter, due to the fact that shit does happen( ex: like the time our families whole household goods and furniture was moved from Ft. Polk,Louisiana to Houston ,Texas by the military in 1992 via Bekins Moving and Storage, and how BEKINS wound up holding it hostage for three years.All the people and friends that met us during these years thought me and my wife(ex ?) were lying about having furniture and possessions ,as they had never seen it( we had our places furnished minimally) and probably assumed we were liars, idiots or druggies.This was a "whole house full " of goods ,furniture and personal items. And during these years we lived with the minimum comforts until it was returned with the help of Sen.Nickles.)
But nonetheless, alot of the situations at the Mission are not due to this "shit happens" clause but as a result of peoples deliberate actions that they know will result in dire consequences.The sad thing is ,there are many resources available to remedy many of these problems(section 8,public housing,food stamps..) And then there are areas of support that could use some improvement(like more readily available treatment for addictions,counselors are needed at the missions actively seeking out those people and determining their individual needs and actually walking them through the process. )
Well ,the main distribution point was across the street from the mission, in the two story Apt. complex(here is a photo of the "APTS."after the closing) and "they" had run their operation with near impunity for the last 1 1/2 years ,that I know of personally.I wanted to give the people(my friends) a better chance of getting out of their suffering and getting back on their feet by making "crack " not so readily available and this would be accomplished by seeing this place closed down.
Alot of people(80%), but not all, come to the mission as a result of an addiction that has run rampant in their lives and they find themselves desperate and broke with no place to go. They either have no family to assist them and /or have burned their bridges.

(See the last window to the left,,imagine a black guy hanging out of this window,rain or shine, hot or cold, 24 hrs a day yelling at every single person that walks by"What you looking for...we got the bomb rocks...no ,come back, we hook you up cuz!"even if , like in my situation,they know you don't do it.And he knows. I have told him many times to shove his crap up his ass, as I have been on my way to the MC Donald's .And if I didn't want to walk a block out of my way to avoid these people, I had to put up with this shit. Everyday.Everyone did. And are they persistent!Hoping this is the day you are vulnerable for some reason or another and need a little something to ease your troubles!)
I don't have a problem with people wanting to inebriate themselves at the appropriate time or self medicating due to mental or physical pain, but certain drugs are intentionally formulated to cause severe dependency and debilitation. And that is were the problem lies.There is documented history available on the net and the other media outlets on how potent derivatives of certain plant alkaloids have financed wars and enslaved/subdued populations by introducing these substances into the culture.
Another 2% of the mission population are actual people that are down on their luck, by some misfortune. And these are the ones who wind up getting out of the mission real fast!
Now the remainder are the displaced mentally ill(and alot of these people are also severely addicted) and the elderly who for some reason have no advocate to insure their welfare and well being. Many in this population have lived at the CRM for years, making it their defacto home).
I am an instrument of fate, like I've said before , and I personally don't have to do any thing directly(read "Why I hesitate to call myself a witch.by Sandra.Crafters and Natural Witches "on reservedmind.blogspot.com under commentaries and articles Click here to view!),by some action ,to bring about a change. I just have to be aware of the problem and focus(prayer) my intent(energy)and the problem starts to take care of itself in viable ,tangible ways. But I do have to be physically present in the vicinity for extended periods of times for these changes to come about,....why? I do not know. Unless it is a form of merit only rewarded with actual sacrifice. See, I would stay 3-4 days during the week at the mission, living and getting to personally know the people(embedded ) , making my self aware of the many areas that needed assistance and meditating(focus) on it for the solution to manifest itself. And then when the negative environment(energy)would start overloading my system, I would retire/ go to rest at an undisclosed location ,usually for 3-4 days . This "crack problem" had a lot of Resistance (evil) behind it and it proved a powerful disease to combat spiritually,not to mention the physical danger that was involved , and so it took almost a year and a half for the goal of eradication to come to fruition.
The Apt's were raided ,the crack dealers arrested,and the place shut down last month.I had nothing to do with it being shutdown(except for the prayer mentioned above) ,but it has been my experience, all of my life,that through prayer and breathing, miracles of healing have occurred .
It is both my gift and burden, as it is very rewarding but very taxing on all aspects of my person.
Don't get me wrong .There is still crack sold on the streets surrounding the CRM but at least these people have to sort of go out of their way to find it now. And the extra time that they spend looking for it might give them a chance to rethink their desire and the consequences that come about as a result of their addiction and actions.
Now be AWARE! I also am enabled with an automatic safety/security force that protects/avenges me ,when a person has hurt or has attempted to hurt me. Ask those that know of my life and know of the people that have tried or who have caused me harm,what happens to them.Now really...don't take this lightly , as I am not joking or arrogant. Nor do I write anything here as a deceivement ,as I know and respect the power of the spoken and written word and its' influence.
Most of these people have died .Yes, "died", as in finite,adios, they are no longer here .These people all died with me putting no effort or thought into their deaths.The catalyst was the harm that they did to my person.
For example:there is Judge Couch(immoral,unethical,corrupt judge who illegally forced me to represent my self in court and then had me convicted per his instruction to the jury),
Kevin Hanshue(demon drunk who made mine and everybody lives hell through his extreme sadistic perverted behavior at 815 NW 22),
Charlene the Big Indian(This girl was around 6'3" and weighed around 300 lbs.She was sent as an informant under duress by Officials in Cleveland County,to keep an eye on me and when I would not play their game,to set me up to be arrested ).
And then of course the poor girl that was hooked on crack that took me for 10.00 dollars(money I had lent her and her husband).She was arrogant in her disease and flaunted the fact that she and her husband were not going to pay me because it was not convenient due to her "crack" habit. Well truly,I didn't want her to die, that was a little extreme, but like I said, I am an instrument of Fate. Your Fate and destiny, not mine . And that which befalls these people is a condition of their actions. I should have focused more on the last girl to be healed, but I didn't...and she died.
But at the same time , things go really well for those that bless me with their civility and kindness.They usually receive some form of peace that was missing from their lives (and at the least, many have told me how they slept so well, when they wake up ,if I had stayed around them during sleepy time) that they profoundly acknowledge. And they prosper .
Not just people, but animals and plants.And then of course, inanimate things such as programs , events or projects, are also affected by my intent and focus. A lucky charm , of sorts? I am grateful and accept my destiny with humility and graciousness through the Wisdom and Comfort of the Holy Spirit.

Well, I just talked to Ernest and I've got some good news. Everything has come to fruition around the same time.Including the problem of the volunteer staff in the shower area not having adequate cleaning supplies for disinfecting and cleaning the shower area, resulting in the area being contaminated with the bacteria"MRSA"(methicillin resistant staph aureus) were I acquired the staph that aggravated my spider bite.
Now Ernest,he works as a volunteer in the box/shower room,(as many of the jobs at the mission are done by a volunteer staff,who comprise mainly of mission residents)and he told me that they are finally using disinfectants , detergents and other chemicals necessary for the health and well being of the 600 people that stay there a night.
No telling how many people wound up with complications related to the staph infection before the mission started buying/using these supplies,which must have been very recent (like this week).Before this, it was common for them to clean up the showers as good as humanly possible with only water and if they were lucky, they'd have some bleach.Well,the use of the recently acquired supplies should help minimize the risk of Staph infection,spider bites or a lice infestation.To be continued......