Read above article/essay^
Events of Nov.26- Dec.22, 2007 the incarceration of
Mr. Teodoro Leon III ,
treatment,events,non treatment,issues and tactics used by the judicial and law enforcement system to get a conviction and profit excessively from my/your person.
A.
Jail activities that are allegedly either fraudulent, theft related, an endangerment to inmates (health, safety, security issues...etc), or methods that could be construed as torturous (psychological and physical) and/or inhumane .
1. Convicted D.O.C inmates housed with general population inmates, usually persons being detained with other agency holds or non convicted inmates.(security issue: an inmate that has been sentenced to a considerable amount of time, for an offense that also might have been violent ,might not have "anything to lose" and be more prone to causing himself and others harm." What they going to do ,put me in jail?" is their "motto")
2. Known gang members of different affiliations (crips/bloods) and sets (factions within affiliations)
housed in the same "pods"(A, B, C,D) with each other and amongst general population. (Security issue: they like to beat each other senseless and others they imagine might be associated with their "enemy". They also like to take violent measures for profit;commisary, hair cuts, cigarettes....dope.)
3. Commissary items ordered and money deducted from inmate trust account though items are not received.
(Theft/fraud). Exhibit A. actual commissary order sheet (order date11/29/07)
4.Inmates are put in "ball court"(actual basketball court intended for inmate recreation; no backboard/basketballs) on each floor, that is used for a holding cell, with no drinking water or restroom facility, for hours on end.(personally held on two different dates more than 6 hours in this "ball court"; ex:12/8/07
5:30 p.m.-11:30pm medical incident (see Sec. B).Inmates held so long that they are forced to urinate in the corner,under the camera. The result: a river of urine pooling toward the middle of the ball court. 6th floor "ball court" has the remnants of feces smeared in the left back corner wall. (inhumane/torturous, health /safety issue) (security issue: stressed out men, when confronted with having to watch another man shit in a corner, become rather aggressive and hostile, especially to the guy lowering his orange traffic cone colored OKLA CO. Jail pants to squat and crap in the corner of the "ball court"."Good" chance somebody is going to take offense at this man and the ensuing stench. Fight! Or at the least, a lot of yelling, from a lot of men.
5. Methicillin Resistant Staphylococcus Aureous (super bug; bacteria) running rampant through the inmate population, and is not being treated with the drug Vancomyacin, that can be only be administered by I.V.
because it comes only in a solution and seems to be the only antibiotic effecting a benefit towards eradication. (1.Shoebel? German surname: cell 6c35/12-08-07, treated with topical antibiotic. Wound purplish/blue on hand around thumb/palm/forefinger, including area between.2.Jack Calvert: cell 6c45/11/26/07-12/22/07(at this writing, not released) had not been treated /seen by a doctor as of this date:12/23/07.several medical slips submitted since approx. 12/14? 12/19/07 verified.)
B. Summary of medical (non treatment) events pertaining to Teodoro Leon from 11/26/07-12/22/07 during incarceration at the Oklahoma County Jail
1. After submitting a medical request slip (11/28) I was taken to the 8 th floor on 11/30 pertaining to the medically documented pain due to :the masses in my groin area, angina, intestinal bleeding, shortness of breath, pus oozing from a wound in my back, scars from the surgeries on my foot being extremely painful (pus draining out of 1st surgery) and was told by some woman,whom I assume was a nurse,that she could not treat me until she confirmed my medical history.We both agreed that they could be confirmed by having my records faxed by the attending doctor.So I told her the name of the doctor, the hospital, the dates that I was there and then corrected her on the order of my name, my last name is Leon, first is Teodoro. Am I sure?
Well ,how long do you think it will take for me to get called back in and get some treatment after the records come in?
"Well, your records should be faxed in a day or two and you should see the doctor that same day we receive them! " She had the guard return us to the cells. He was in a hurry, for some reason.They are always in a hurry.In a hurry to do as little as possible.
I was taken to the 6th floor for a "physical" and evaluation on 12/7.The nurse was aware of the complaints due to the request slip but still asked what I was there for. I told her and also showed her the wound on the back. She listened to my lungs and said that I had no wheezing in my lungs , that she could hear. She asked me what I wanted her to do about my symptoms and I replied, "treat them." She replied that she was not going to be able to treat me until she verified my medical conditions. I told her about my stay at Baptist Integris and that I had an ultrasound to confirm the masses and that I had already signed a medical release form the week before. She gave me Motrin for my" pain", even after I had informed her that it causes me to bleed rectally and that one of my conditions that I was being treated during my stay at Baptist was anemia, June-July (three weeks).Then she wrote me a prescription for an inhaler (albuterol). After declaring my lungs clear just minutes before? And it hadn't been yet verified by my medical records.Huh? She than said for me to fill out another medical slip request and put "wound care " on it ,after she just saw my wound and could have wrote it her self and treated the wound while I was sitting there in front of her .It would have been a good ,efficient ,beneficial action on her part. On intake I weighed in at 130, I now weighed 120.11 days, 10 lbs lost.
2. On 12/8 @ 5:30p.m. I was taken out of my cell and presumably was on the way to the 13th floor to see a medical professional for the angina, groin and lung pain at the insistence and persistence of my cellmates to the guards by impressing to them the seriousness of my condition. To pacify the cellies, the
Jailer who signed me out on the log/in out register on the wall took me to the ball court instead and left me in there for about 25 minutes. This is the place without available drinking water and no toilet facilities (see
Section A-4) After 25 minutes then they "promptly" took me up to the 13th floor, which I heard was the medical floor. I was immediately handcuffed to the metal tubing running the length of the wall. Just then they had a guy brought in with a "real" injury.....he had been in a fight but only looked like couple lacerations and we lucid, on his two feet and was not in a life or death situation ,but clearly in need if a couple of stitches. guard said that since they had to stitch him up it was going to be a few minutes before I /we were seen .About ten minutes later he came to unlock us, but instead of taking us in to see someone he instead said that we were going back to the 6th floor ball court and that is where he put me until and I stayed until
11:00 p.m...when they finally took me back up to 13th floor and asked what I wanted and I told the female guard Cpl King that I was there because of testicular pain and chest pain and that I had a MRSA infection on my back confirmed with my medical records that should be on file. She asked me to choose which one was dire and told me I couldn't have both, I told her I guess my testicular pain but that they were both related. Then she said that if that was the complaint,there was not a thing she could do for me if it was not life or death .Then one of the other female guards went around the corner from me and asked somebody else," What do balls have to do with chest pain?" I answered," Having masses in the testicles, even though they might be benign, can still travel to other parts of the body, affecting other organs or that the pain that I felt in my testicle could be putting stress on my heart; plus any other numerous possibilities could be affecting symptoms. A male guard sitting in an enclosed glass area ,that seemed to be where they congregated, then yells for me to shut my mouth...."not another word!" I tell him that I'm just explaining and answering what’s wrong with me to the guard! Again ,he says if I don't shut up he is immediately taking me back to my cell. " I still hear something? Didn't think so! Uh-uh, don’t want to hear a sound coming from you". While he is telling me this the four others present, including a person dressed in a maroon smock (black male) were joining in harmony berating me.I could not understand them, they were so static! They left me handcuffed for about another 15 minutes ,before the guard that originally removed me from the cell ,at 5:30 p.m., returned and told me to hurry up, as he had to go soon(now it is 11:15). I told him it was obviously not up to me how fast they saw me, and in fact ,I hadn't even been seen,yet. He walked in to the area where the man was in the purple smock, who had said he ,"can only treat life and death situations", and asked him if he could sign off on me, as he was getting off shift soon. This medical person said there was nothing he could do for me except put in my chart a note stating a I was to immediately to see Dr. Marcellos 1st thing Monday morning. He didn't listen to my heart, lungs....etc. He just said he couldn't do anything. Then the tall black guard who had taken me out of the cell at 5:30 p.m. earlier that evening, returned me to it at 11:30 p.m. I never did see Dr.Marcellos , another nurse or get a response from the subsequent medical slips I had turned in,from that time until the time they let me out the door of the jail.
3. Sent out "request of staff" form on 12/7 inquiring if I had another hold from the ocpd, or other agency that was preventing me from being OR/ bonded out and if negative , why was I still there ,with no response from the OR application I had submitted on 12/4.The arraignment on 12/3 left me with only Poss. of CDS(marijuana) and lowered my bond to 6,000 dollars ,which made me eligible for a "Own Recognizance Bond ".
The "request of staff" form was returned unsigned and unanswered on 12/11.
4. All other "request of staff" or medical slips submitted, except, for those mentioned and Item 7 & 8, were never answered or returned. As of 12/22, Jack Calvert (6c35) had not been seen by any medical staff even after numerous medical slips submitted.
5. Sent a letter of inquiry pleading to Judge Hall to look into the status of my case, considering I had not been able to get a timely response from the jail staff as to any information concerning my case. (Unexpectedly went to court on 12/20/07 .And under duress, signed for time.)
6. A "Request of staff" form asking to use the law library submitted on 12/4/07 to assist in my case was returned 11/28 12/4 answered, signed and dated 12/12/07 by a Elsa Carrion."Mr. Leon, at this time you should have a legal rep to assist you in you (*sic) legal research. You should submit your reqesu>NT>6t (*sic)
for legal material to him/her. If you need items to be notarized let your floor clerical know and she should be able to pull you to have your paperwork notarized. If you need copies keep in mind that copies will cost.25 cents each, attached you will find the form you will need for the copies."(Exhibit B)
Monday, December 31, 2007
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
Wednesday, September 5, 2007
Sorry ,you haven't heard from me!!VACATION!
Yeah ,well ,thats the way things go!!I was actually doing nothing except nothing!Just sitting and thinking for hours on end.reflecting on the last few years and remininscing...about this and that...when and where...what and why!
Update on Adam Tate... he is dead and at the hands of violence did his life end...with a bar-b -que fork in the side of his gut.
The sansa player is also dead.The bike is not dead nor is the the car!My laptop seems to be doing fine as a basic home comp for playing games and music and writing.I suppose you want to see a pic of the car now?Huh?Well hold on a sec...it just dawned on me to photo my little girl for all the world to see(look up above this entry)!She just needed a little love an prodding to get her to respond, if you know what I mean! A little more work and she will be cruising the autobahns!!If by chance ,Krista is reading ,I say hello to you!As for everyone else..hears what I think the kids call a "Shout out" to all my "homies"! Just kidding ! I really don'tusually speak in the ghetto venacular except when my car broke down on MLK on the way to the Zoo Amp!!Then I'm all down with it niggaz!Heeehee hee !LOL.Me really funny.What a riot.I peed myself...see you guys/gals later!!
Update on Adam Tate... he is dead and at the hands of violence did his life end...with a bar-b -que fork in the side of his gut.
The sansa player is also dead.The bike is not dead nor is the the car!My laptop seems to be doing fine as a basic home comp for playing games and music and writing.I suppose you want to see a pic of the car now?Huh?Well hold on a sec...it just dawned on me to photo my little girl for all the world to see(look up above this entry)!She just needed a little love an prodding to get her to respond, if you know what I mean! A little more work and she will be cruising the autobahns!!If by chance ,Krista is reading ,I say hello to you!As for everyone else..hears what I think the kids call a "Shout out" to all my "homies"! Just kidding ! I really don'tusually speak in the ghetto venacular except when my car broke down on MLK on the way to the Zoo Amp!!Then I'm all down with it niggaz!Heeehee hee !LOL.Me really funny.What a riot.I peed myself...see you guys/gals later!!
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
What A Stinking Day!!yucky La Luna!
Well, I was going to write about my horrible day yesterday but my time is up at the computer.But here it goes real fast!
La Luna Mexican Restaurant....take a chain saw if you order the fajitas and don't forget to bring the extra large can of BUG spray, as the staff might sit you at a table you'll be sharing with roaches .They were as busy as the waitstaff....continued tomorrow.Sorry..I've been so sick and exhausted the last 2 weeks and have not been able to be on my feet for long with out passing out after 2 hours.
Okay ,I'm back and able to add a little more to what I was writing about !!First thing in the morning, things turn ugly...see the article below this one that I wrote about the Sandisk?Well, just after writing that, the sansa player started acting up...then it was freezing...then finally in the morning it quit working all together. And I had just bought those AltecLansing speakers!!
So I'm walking down the hall to go see my manager of the Apts. and the old lady that lives next to me comes out to tell me to lower the music.I go and speak to the manager.And on my way back I notice that the wind had shut the door and locked me out of my apartment. So I go back to the manager and ask her if I may use her key to get in and she asks me, "What Number?"
115.
"Oh,your the one that lives in 115,....the landlord/owner said he was by yesterday and smelled marijuana coming from your place...you either quit immediately or you can move!And if I smell any my self your out"Yes ,sorry,my friends were over and one was smoking...I'll let them know we can't have that any more!
And then who happens to be standing beside me but the old Hag and she says to the manager,"Can you make him turn down his music...He plays it real loud and it bothers me...And he watches Tv all hours of the Day and night !!"
"Could you please lower the volume as not to disturb the neighbors?"
OKAY, I will lower it some more( but then it would be off), but I do go out of my way to be considerate of her by keeping the volume way down knowing that she is an elderly lady and probably not to "hip"to my type of music.
"Classical?"Who doesn't like classical!?
La Luna Mexican Restaurant....take a chain saw if you order the fajitas and don't forget to bring the extra large can of BUG spray, as the staff might sit you at a table you'll be sharing with roaches .They were as busy as the waitstaff....continued tomorrow.Sorry..I've been so sick and exhausted the last 2 weeks and have not been able to be on my feet for long with out passing out after 2 hours.
Okay ,I'm back and able to add a little more to what I was writing about !!First thing in the morning, things turn ugly...see the article below this one that I wrote about the Sandisk?Well, just after writing that, the sansa player started acting up...then it was freezing...then finally in the morning it quit working all together. And I had just bought those AltecLansing speakers!!
So I'm walking down the hall to go see my manager of the Apts. and the old lady that lives next to me comes out to tell me to lower the music.I go and speak to the manager.And on my way back I notice that the wind had shut the door and locked me out of my apartment. So I go back to the manager and ask her if I may use her key to get in and she asks me, "What Number?"
115.
"Oh,your the one that lives in 115,....the landlord/owner said he was by yesterday and smelled marijuana coming from your place...you either quit immediately or you can move!And if I smell any my self your out"Yes ,sorry,my friends were over and one was smoking...I'll let them know we can't have that any more!
And then who happens to be standing beside me but the old Hag and she says to the manager,"Can you make him turn down his music...He plays it real loud and it bothers me...And he watches Tv all hours of the Day and night !!"
"Could you please lower the volume as not to disturb the neighbors?"
OKAY, I will lower it some more( but then it would be off), but I do go out of my way to be considerate of her by keeping the volume way down knowing that she is an elderly lady and probably not to "hip"to my type of music.
"Classical?"Who doesn't like classical!?
Sunday, July 8, 2007
My Review of SanDisk, Sansa e250 2GB MP3 Player
Originally submitted at Radio Shack
This sleek Sansa™ e250 MP3 player stores up to 500 songs* so you can take your favorite tunes on the go.
SANSA GREAT Overall!
By lioner2 from Oklahoma City on 7/8/2007out of 5
Pros: Great Sound, Unbreakable Screen, Sleek/Compact, Easy To Set Up, Tough, Simple Controls, Reliable Performance, Lots of Storage
Best Uses: Sports, Travel, Gym / Working Out, At Work, Commuting
Describe Yourself: Casual Listener, Audiophile, Avid Listener
Primary use of this product: Personal
Once I got the update online, the Sansa performed superbly(before it would freeze ocassionally,..to remedy ...remove cover and reset by removing the battery and then putting it back in).Takes a charge better if you use the msc mode in the USB under settings.When charging off computer, before removing, click on "safely remove hardware" icon when in msc usb mode.
I dropped the player into the toilet the other day and I quickly removed it ,but come on it fell in!Amazingly,...after removing the cover and battery, blotting everything dry ,and then blowing and sucking thru the portals to remove any more"water" ,I let it sit for 2-3 hrs...and "voila!" It worked and continues to work.Bought some Lansing Altec Ext Speakers w/ sub woofer for 24.88 and it is the perfect dorm stereo.I love my Player!!
EASY to Charge!!
Tags: Picture of Product, Using Product
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Friday, July 6, 2007
The cleaning supplies,moving out and the crack problem.
I have based my self for the time being at the historic ******,located at * th and *.If you have my card ,call my cell #(also listed here under"about me") and I will give you the apt No..I told some people before I left the hospital, why I was not taking any more chances at the Mission by continuing to embed myself there.The spider infestation, lice infestation and the Staph in the shower areas due to the CRM 's lack of proper protocol and treatments to resolve these issues,puts me at great risk of getting bitten again,a reoccurring Staph infection or a head full of lice.I'll still frequent the place as I have many friends there and there are some loose ends that need to be tied up or cut. But in reality,it is time to go ,as all the things that I had set as goals ,have been accomplished.
For example;read(those crazies drove me to the missionclick here to read).The main goal was to help alleviate the crack problem in the CRM area ,as that was the place were I had heard people go if they want a "rock".My addicted friend told me this.
Now I am a proponent against homelessness, as I have personal experience in this matter, due to the fact that shit does happen( ex: like the time our families whole household goods and furniture was moved from Ft. Polk,Louisiana to Houston ,Texas by the military in 1992 via Bekins Moving and Storage, and how BEKINS wound up holding it hostage for three years.All the people and friends that met us during these years thought me and my wife(ex ?) were lying about having furniture and possessions ,as they had never seen it( we had our places furnished minimally) and probably assumed we were liars, idiots or druggies.This was a "whole house full " of goods ,furniture and personal items. And during these years we lived with the minimum comforts until it was returned with the help of Sen.Nickles.)
But nonetheless, alot of the situations at the Mission are not due to this "shit happens" clause but as a result of peoples deliberate actions that they know will result in dire consequences.The sad thing is ,there are many resources available to remedy many of these problems(section 8,public housing,food stamps..) And then there are areas of support that could use some improvement(like more readily available treatment for addictions,counselors are needed at the missions actively seeking out those people and determining their individual needs and actually walking them through the process. )
Well ,the main distribution point was across the street from the mission
, in the two story Apt. complex(here is a photo of the "APTS."after the closing) and "they" had run their operation with near impunity for the last 1 1/2 years ,that I know of personally.I wanted to give the people(my friends) a better chance of getting out of their suffering and getting back on their feet by making "crack " not so readily available and this would be accomplished by seeing this place closed down.
Alot of people(80%), but not all, come to the mission as a result of an addiction that has run rampant in their lives and they find themselves desperate and broke with no place to go.
They either have no family to assist them and /or have burned their bridges.
(See the last window to the left,,imagine a black guy hanging out of this window,rain or shine, hot or cold, 24 hrs a day yelling at every single person that walks by"What you looking for...we got the bomb rocks...no ,come back, we hook you up cuz!"even if , like in my situation,they know you don't do it.And he knows. I have told him many times to shove his crap up his ass, as I have been on my way to the MC Donald's .And if I didn't want to walk a block out of my way to avoid these people, I had to put up with this shit. Everyday.Everyone did. And are they persistent!Hoping this is the day you are vulnerable for some reason or another and need a little something to ease your troubles!)
I don't have a problem with people wanting to inebriate themselves at the appropriate time or self medicating due to mental or physical pain, but certain drugs are intentionally formulated to cause severe dependency and debilitation. And that is were the problem lies.There is documented history available on the net and the other media outlets on how potent derivatives of certain plant alkaloids have financed wars and enslaved/subdued populations by introducing these substances into the culture.
Another 2% of the mission population are actual people that are down on their luck, by some misfortune. And these are the ones who wind up getting out of the mission real fast!
Now the remainder are the displaced mentally ill(and alot of these people are also severely addicted) and the elderly who for some reason have no advocate to insure their welfare and well being. Many in this population have lived at the CRM for years, making it their defacto home).
I am an instrument of fate, like I've said before , and I personally don't have to do any thing directly(read "Why I hesitate to call myself a witch.by Sandra.Crafters and Natural Witches "on reservedmind.blogspot.com under commentaries and articles Click here to view!),by some action ,to bring about a change. I just have to be aware of the problem and focus(prayer) my intent(energy)and the problem starts to take care of itself in viable ,tangible ways. But I do have to be physically present in the vicinity for extended periods of times for these changes to come about,....why? I do not know. Unless it is a form of merit only rewarded with actual sacrifice. See, I would stay 3-4 days during the week at the mission, living and getting to personally know the people(embedded ) , making my self aware of the many areas that needed assistance and meditating(focus) on it for the solution to manifest itself. And then when the negative environment(energy)would start overloading my system, I would retire/ go to rest at an undisclosed location ,usually for 3-4 days . This "crack problem" had a lot of Resistance (evil) behind it and it proved a powerful disease to combat spiritually,not to mention the physical danger that was involved , and so it took almost a year and a half for the goal of eradication to come to fruition.
The Apt's were raided ,the crack dealers arrested,and the place shut down last month.I had nothing to do with it being shutdown(except for the prayer mentioned above) ,but it has been my experience, all of my life,that through prayer and breathing, miracles of healing have occurred .
It is both my gift and burden, as it is very rewarding but very taxing on all aspects of my person.
Don't get me wrong .There is still crack sold on the streets surrounding the CRM but at least these people have to sort of go out of their way to find it now. And the extra time that they spend looking for it might give them a chance to rethink their desire and the consequences that come about as a result of their addiction and actions.
Now be AWARE! I also am enabled with an automatic safety/security force that protects/avenges me ,when a person has hurt or has attempted to hurt me. Ask those that know of my life and know of the people that have tried or who have caused me harm,what happens to them.Now really...don't take this lightly , as I am not joking or arrogant. Nor do I write anything here as a deceivement ,as I know and respect the power of the spoken and written word and its' influence.
Most of these people have died .Yes, "died", as in finite,adios, they are no longer here .These people all died with me putting no effort or thought into their deaths.The catalyst was the harm that they did to my person.
For example:there is Judge Couch(immoral,unethical,corrupt judge who illegally forced me to represent my self in court and then had me convicted per his instruction to the jury),
Kevin Hanshue(demon drunk who made mine and everybody lives hell through his extreme sadistic perverted behavior at 815 NW 22),
Charlene the Big Indian(This girl was around 6'3" and weighed around 300 lbs.She was sent as an informant under duress by Officials in Cleveland County,to keep an eye on me and when I would not play their game,to set me up to be arrested ).
And then of course the poor girl that was hooked on crack that took me for 10.00 dollars(money I had lent her and her husband).She was arrogant in her disease and flaunted the fact that she and her husband were not going to pay me because it was not convenient due to her "crack" habit. Well truly,I didn't want her to die, that was a little extreme, but like I said, I am an instrument of Fate. Your Fate and destiny, not mine . And that which befalls these people is a condition of their actions. I should have focused more on the last girl to be healed, but I didn't...and she died.
But at the same time , things go really well for those that bless me with their civility and kindness.They usually receive some form of peace that was missing from their lives (and at the least, many have told me how they slept so well, when they wake up ,if I had stayed around them during sleepy time) that they profoundly acknowledge. And they prosper .
Not just people, but animals and plants.And then of course, inanimate things such as programs , events or projects, are also affected by my intent and focus. A lucky charm , of sorts? I am grateful and accept my destiny with humility and graciousness through the Wisdom and Comfort of the Holy Spirit.
Well, I just talked to Ernest and I've got some good news. Everything has come to fruition around the same time.Including the problem of the volunteer staff in the shower area not having adequate cleaning supplies for disinfecting and cleaning the shower area, resulting in the area being contaminated with the bacteria"MRSA"(methicillin resistant staph aureus) were I acquired the staph that aggravated my spider bite.
Now Ernest,he works as a volunteer in the box/shower room,(as many of the jobs at the mission are done by a volunteer staff,who comprise mainly of mission residents)and he told me that they are finally using disinfectants , detergents and other chemicals necessary for the health and well being of the 600 people that stay there a night.
No telling how many people wound up with complications related to the staph infection before the mission started buying/using these supplies,which must have been very recent (like this week).Before this, it was common for them to clean up the showers as good as humanly possible with only water and if they were lucky, they'd have some bleach.Well,the use of the recently acquired supplies should help minimize the risk of Staph infection,spider bites or a lice infestation.To be continued......
For example;read(those crazies drove me to the missionclick here to read).The main goal was to help alleviate the crack problem in the CRM area ,as that was the place were I had heard people go if they want a "rock".My addicted friend told me this.
Now I am a proponent against homelessness, as I have personal experience in this matter, due to the fact that shit does happen( ex: like the time our families whole household goods and furniture was moved from Ft. Polk,Louisiana to Houston ,Texas by the military in 1992 via Bekins Moving and Storage, and how BEKINS wound up holding it hostage for three years.All the people and friends that met us during these years thought me and my wife(ex ?) were lying about having furniture and possessions ,as they had never seen it( we had our places furnished minimally) and probably assumed we were liars, idiots or druggies.This was a "whole house full " of goods ,furniture and personal items. And during these years we lived with the minimum comforts until it was returned with the help of Sen.Nickles.)
But nonetheless, alot of the situations at the Mission are not due to this "shit happens" clause but as a result of peoples deliberate actions that they know will result in dire consequences.The sad thing is ,there are many resources available to remedy many of these problems(section 8,public housing,food stamps..) And then there are areas of support that could use some improvement(like more readily available treatment for addictions,counselors are needed at the missions actively seeking out those people and determining their individual needs and actually walking them through the process. )
Well ,the main distribution point was across the street from the mission
, in the two story Apt. complex(here is a photo of the "APTS."after the closing) and "they" had run their operation with near impunity for the last 1 1/2 years ,that I know of personally.I wanted to give the people(my friends) a better chance of getting out of their suffering and getting back on their feet by making "crack " not so readily available and this would be accomplished by seeing this place closed down.Alot of people(80%), but not all, come to the mission as a result of an addiction that has run rampant in their lives and they find themselves desperate and broke with no place to go.
They either have no family to assist them and /or have burned their bridges.(See the last window to the left,,imagine a black guy hanging out of this window,rain or shine, hot or cold, 24 hrs a day yelling at every single person that walks by"What you looking for...we got the bomb rocks...no ,come back, we hook you up cuz!"even if , like in my situation,they know you don't do it.And he knows. I have told him many times to shove his crap up his ass, as I have been on my way to the MC Donald's .And if I didn't want to walk a block out of my way to avoid these people, I had to put up with this shit. Everyday.Everyone did. And are they persistent!Hoping this is the day you are vulnerable for some reason or another and need a little something to ease your troubles!)
I don't have a problem with people wanting to inebriate themselves at the appropriate time or self medicating due to mental or physical pain, but certain drugs are intentionally formulated to cause severe dependency and debilitation. And that is were the problem lies.There is documented history available on the net and the other media outlets on how potent derivatives of certain plant alkaloids have financed wars and enslaved/subdued populations by introducing these substances into the culture.
Another 2% of the mission population are actual people that are down on their luck, by some misfortune. And these are the ones who wind up getting out of the mission real fast!
Now the remainder are the displaced mentally ill(and alot of these people are also severely addicted) and the elderly who for some reason have no advocate to insure their welfare and well being. Many in this population have lived at the CRM for years, making it their defacto home).
I am an instrument of fate, like I've said before , and I personally don't have to do any thing directly(read "Why I hesitate to call myself a witch.by Sandra.Crafters and Natural Witches "on reservedmind.blogspot.com under commentaries and articles Click here to view!),by some action ,to bring about a change. I just have to be aware of the problem and focus(prayer) my intent(energy)and the problem starts to take care of itself in viable ,tangible ways. But I do have to be physically present in the vicinity for extended periods of times for these changes to come about,....why? I do not know. Unless it is a form of merit only rewarded with actual sacrifice. See, I would stay 3-4 days during the week at the mission, living and getting to personally know the people(embedded ) , making my self aware of the many areas that needed assistance and meditating(focus) on it for the solution to manifest itself. And then when the negative environment(energy)would start overloading my system, I would retire/ go to rest at an undisclosed location ,usually for 3-4 days . This "crack problem" had a lot of Resistance (evil) behind it and it proved a powerful disease to combat spiritually,not to mention the physical danger that was involved , and so it took almost a year and a half for the goal of eradication to come to fruition.
The Apt's were raided ,the crack dealers arrested,and the place shut down last month.I had nothing to do with it being shutdown(except for the prayer mentioned above) ,but it has been my experience, all of my life,that through prayer and breathing, miracles of healing have occurred .
It is both my gift and burden, as it is very rewarding but very taxing on all aspects of my person.
Don't get me wrong .There is still crack sold on the streets surrounding the CRM but at least these people have to sort of go out of their way to find it now. And the extra time that they spend looking for it might give them a chance to rethink their desire and the consequences that come about as a result of their addiction and actions.
Now be AWARE! I also am enabled with an automatic safety/security force that protects/avenges me ,when a person has hurt or has attempted to hurt me. Ask those that know of my life and know of the people that have tried or who have caused me harm,what happens to them.Now really...don't take this lightly , as I am not joking or arrogant. Nor do I write anything here as a deceivement ,as I know and respect the power of the spoken and written word and its' influence.
Most of these people have died .Yes, "died", as in finite,adios, they are no longer here .These people all died with me putting no effort or thought into their deaths.The catalyst was the harm that they did to my person.
For example:there is Judge Couch(immoral,unethical,corrupt judge who illegally forced me to represent my self in court and then had me convicted per his instruction to the jury),
Kevin Hanshue(demon drunk who made mine and everybody lives hell through his extreme sadistic perverted behavior at 815 NW 22),
Charlene the Big Indian(This girl was around 6'3" and weighed around 300 lbs.She was sent as an informant under duress by Officials in Cleveland County,to keep an eye on me and when I would not play their game,to set me up to be arrested ).
And then of course the poor girl that was hooked on crack that took me for 10.00 dollars(money I had lent her and her husband).She was arrogant in her disease and flaunted the fact that she and her husband were not going to pay me because it was not convenient due to her "crack" habit. Well truly,I didn't want her to die, that was a little extreme, but like I said, I am an instrument of Fate. Your Fate and destiny, not mine . And that which befalls these people is a condition of their actions. I should have focused more on the last girl to be healed, but I didn't...and she died.
But at the same time , things go really well for those that bless me with their civility and kindness.They usually receive some form of peace that was missing from their lives (and at the least, many have told me how they slept so well, when they wake up ,if I had stayed around them during sleepy time) that they profoundly acknowledge. And they prosper .
Not just people, but animals and plants.And then of course, inanimate things such as programs , events or projects, are also affected by my intent and focus. A lucky charm , of sorts? I am grateful and accept my destiny with humility and graciousness through the Wisdom and Comfort of the Holy Spirit.
Well, I just talked to Ernest and I've got some good news. Everything has come to fruition around the same time.Including the problem of the volunteer staff in the shower area not having adequate cleaning supplies for disinfecting and cleaning the shower area, resulting in the area being contaminated with the bacteria"MRSA"(methicillin resistant staph aureus) were I acquired the staph that aggravated my spider bite.
Now Ernest,he works as a volunteer in the box/shower room,(as many of the jobs at the mission are done by a volunteer staff,who comprise mainly of mission residents)and he told me that they are finally using disinfectants , detergents and other chemicals necessary for the health and well being of the 600 people that stay there a night.
No telling how many people wound up with complications related to the staph infection before the mission started buying/using these supplies,which must have been very recent (like this week).Before this, it was common for them to clean up the showers as good as humanly possible with only water and if they were lucky, they'd have some bleach.Well,the use of the recently acquired supplies should help minimize the risk of Staph infection,spider bites or a lice infestation.To be continued......
Friday, June 22, 2007
I'm finally getting out of the Hospital after 3 weeks!!
Well ,my dear readers ,I'm finally being discharged out of the hospital on 6/22 @ around or after 3:ooP.M.. Tony and Becky will be picking me up and I'll resume my life and continue the missions that I was working on before I was admitted.Now the stay here was not without its' incidences that I would almost call intentional negligence and malfeasance( http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Malfeasance )or at the least ,gross misconduct.I went through the chain of command to try to resolve these issues ,but I kept meeting "Resistance" at all levels,for some reason people were hesitant to do there jobs ,trying to placate me with their opinions of what had actually transpired.Miscommunication and confusion were reasons cited ,but even so ,these incidences warranted investigation and resolution in some form of training and of course accountability of these certain people .Some even went as far as to suggest that these incidences either had not transpired and or that I was blowing things out of proportion.One person in a supervisory role even berated me for even suggesting and voicing these concerns of mine and the treatment I received. I was supposed to be grateful beyond measure and how dare me that I even opened my mouth.The attitude that I was one just trying to stir up trouble and that every aspect of my treatment was never to my satisfaction or standards was common amongst these individuals that played a role in the distress that I suffered.All I wanted in the beginning,was for these individuals to be held responsible and accountable for their actions so that these incidences and actions would be minimized or not reoccur at all with other patients in the future.
For example(see"Here are the pics of my foot"):The incident when I did not receive my medication and or get my I.V. restarted(6/15) after it came out,despite numerous calls to the nurses station in a period of almost 2 hours and the promises that the nurse was on her scheduled rounds and she would be with me shortly.Shortly ,in my opinion,does not mean almost 2 hours!My recourse was to call the house supervisor when I received no assistance on the floor despite me going up to the nurses twice in my wheelchair.When I informed them at the station that I still had not received my medication(incident started and lasted from 6/15 11:45P.M. -1:30 6/16)at 1:20A.M. and I had called the House supervisor to come resolve this situation,they rushed in and administered 4 cc's of morphine,1 loritab(10),2 ultrams,1 restoril,and 50 units of fenegrine all in 2 minutes.I ,being in severe pain at the the time did not realise that this was an excessive and potentially fatal amount and mixture of drugs(read "Why should Ultram not be prescribed? http://www.drugs.com/pdr/ultram.html ).I weigh around 130 lbs. at stand at 5'4".The intent was to "quiet" me before the house supervisor arrived ,who of course took her time getting there(more than an hour),She is very busy and I understand this,but this was gross misconduct on the part of the administering nurses.
I will document more of these incidences that occurred, here in the future.Like (6/20)the nurse who told me that "all" my medication had been discontinued except Tylenol when I asked for some pain medication(wasn't true at all).When I asked him twice if he meant all the medication had been discontinued,he confirmed and said all I was prescribed was Tylenol.Then I asked him to please contact my doctor ,as there seemed to be a mistake and that I was in severe pain ,he flatly said "No,I'm not calling her!"I asked him again ,to please page her and ask her to prescribe something stronger than Tylenol,he again said,"No"and added,"She is not here."I said to him,"Of course she is still here ,she just came on at 6:00P.M. and it's my right to ask ."He stomped out of the room and when he came back his story had changed.TO BE CONTINUED...(THIS INCIDENT STARTED AT 9:45 AND WAS NOT RESOLVED COMPLETELY TILL 2:00 A.M.)
Now when he came back he informed me that he had already given me all my scheduled meds at 8:00 p.m. and I would not be receiving the next dose till 12:00 and I couldn't have morphine as it had been d/c'd.I told him tht all I had received at 8:00 p.m. was a stool softener and 1 lortab and I believed that my ultram was due ,but even if the morphine had still been prescribed I didn't want that or had I asked for it.He insisted that he gave me the ultram w/ the lortab and the colace.I told him no he hadn't and even if that was true,hadn't he just told me that I had all my meds,except for Tylenol,discontinued?He got really red in the face!I told him that I was in severe pain ,as I had just walked on it for the second time since surgery,down to the library and that it was really hurting,please page my doctor so that she can order something in the mean time.He told me he was not continuing this conversation w/ me and started to walk out of the room.I told him on his way out that I now wanted to talk to the charge nurse immediately.I waited 5 min and decided to call for her myself on the call button.She came to my room,I explained all that I wrote above to her and she proceeded to tell me how I had been given all my scheduled meds and that I was not getting any till 12:00.I confirmed w/ her that my meds had not been d/c'd,and I told her why I knew I hadn't received them,I knew I was going to be going downstairs @ 8:30 and when I returned would be in pain and I had not pushed for the ultram so that I would have them when I returned.I talked to her for at least 45 min. before she paged Dr.Satzler and got an early dose at 11:00 P.m. To be continued...
For example(see"Here are the pics of my foot"):The incident when I did not receive my medication and or get my I.V. restarted(6/15) after it came out,despite numerous calls to the nurses station in a period of almost 2 hours and the promises that the nurse was on her scheduled rounds and she would be with me shortly.Shortly ,in my opinion,does not mean almost 2 hours!My recourse was to call the house supervisor when I received no assistance on the floor despite me going up to the nurses twice in my wheelchair.When I informed them at the station that I still had not received my medication(incident started and lasted from 6/15 11:45P.M. -1:30 6/16)at 1:20A.M. and I had called the House supervisor to come resolve this situation,they rushed in and administered 4 cc's of morphine,1 loritab(10),2 ultrams,1 restoril,and 50 units of fenegrine all in 2 minutes.I ,being in severe pain at the the time did not realise that this was an excessive and potentially fatal amount and mixture of drugs(read "Why should Ultram not be prescribed? http://www.drugs.com/pdr/ultram.html ).I weigh around 130 lbs. at stand at 5'4".The intent was to "quiet" me before the house supervisor arrived ,who of course took her time getting there(more than an hour),She is very busy and I understand this,but this was gross misconduct on the part of the administering nurses.
I will document more of these incidences that occurred, here in the future.Like (6/20)the nurse who told me that "all" my medication had been discontinued except Tylenol when I asked for some pain medication(wasn't true at all).When I asked him twice if he meant all the medication had been discontinued,he confirmed and said all I was prescribed was Tylenol.Then I asked him to please contact my doctor ,as there seemed to be a mistake and that I was in severe pain ,he flatly said "No,I'm not calling her!"I asked him again ,to please page her and ask her to prescribe something stronger than Tylenol,he again said,"No"and added,"She is not here."I said to him,"Of course she is still here ,she just came on at 6:00P.M. and it's my right to ask ."He stomped out of the room and when he came back his story had changed.TO BE CONTINUED...(THIS INCIDENT STARTED AT 9:45 AND WAS NOT RESOLVED COMPLETELY TILL 2:00 A.M.)
Now when he came back he informed me that he had already given me all my scheduled meds at 8:00 p.m. and I would not be receiving the next dose till 12:00 and I couldn't have morphine as it had been d/c'd.I told him tht all I had received at 8:00 p.m. was a stool softener and 1 lortab and I believed that my ultram was due ,but even if the morphine had still been prescribed I didn't want that or had I asked for it.He insisted that he gave me the ultram w/ the lortab and the colace.I told him no he hadn't and even if that was true,hadn't he just told me that I had all my meds,except for Tylenol,discontinued?He got really red in the face!I told him that I was in severe pain ,as I had just walked on it for the second time since surgery,down to the library and that it was really hurting,please page my doctor so that she can order something in the mean time.He told me he was not continuing this conversation w/ me and started to walk out of the room.I told him on his way out that I now wanted to talk to the charge nurse immediately.I waited 5 min and decided to call for her myself on the call button.She came to my room,I explained all that I wrote above to her and she proceeded to tell me how I had been given all my scheduled meds and that I was not getting any till 12:00.I confirmed w/ her that my meds had not been d/c'd,and I told her why I knew I hadn't received them,I knew I was going to be going downstairs @ 8:30 and when I returned would be in pain and I had not pushed for the ultram so that I would have them when I returned.I talked to her for at least 45 min. before she paged Dr.Satzler and got an early dose at 11:00 P.m. To be continued...
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
adulterants and my body and PAIN!!I'm allergic!I'm natural.
This 1st part of this entrance is dedicated to all the medical staff that provided me care in a professional manner and w/ the respect all patients deserve.I will miss all of you .I will be discharged 6/21.these pics are a few of the people that I was able to take a photograph of,..sorry I couldn't get everyone,but you all will be remembered in my prayers and dreams.This is an acknowledgement of their service.The second article ,of course is about the problems that I encountered w/one specific sadistic ,greedy,doctor who has a God complex and through his arrogance and actions caused me a little (actually alot)of distress.I don't mind naming him...I present to you the doctor...Gary Anderson...if you read this Doc ,you do not listen to your patients.You could use a little humility in your life and you will get it as a result of you playing those games .It is not my will, I am just an instrument of Fate and it is your Fate that will befall you without me doing anything.I feel sorry for you ,as your disposition limits you in scope.The things you thought you did in secret and on the sly were actually not hidden and to those you fooled because of your prejudices(?)will come to light soon.Your colleagues will view you differently and your power will diminish.Maybe this will help with the disease of your God complex. I tried,but you did not listen.Too bad ,you have great potential.
Pictured here is a Pal named Kim,who also provided the same great treatment as Linda...but going a little further by always making sure I had a newspaper to read in the morning
(click on photos to enlarge)
My..look at this beauty!Her name is Krista,and she gives me my breathing treatments...her occupation is "respiratory therapist"!One of the things that made my stay tolerable and enjoyable was the beautiful people(inside and out) that I encountered here at Baptist.Most were really professional and exuded a very healthy attitude ....in my opinion a necessity for the patients well being,promoting a faster recovery ...or for those with a terminal illness,a sense of well being and peace!Again ,I can't say thank you enough,for you are vital part of a classical conditioned positive reinforcement regiment.I am glad I chose Baptist for my treatment!
My..look at this beauty!Her name is Krista,and she gives me my breathing treatments...her occupation is "respiratory therapist"!One of the things that made my stay tolerable and enjoyable was the beautiful people(inside and out) that I encountered here at Baptist.Most were really professional and exuded a very healthy attitude ....in my opinion a necessity for the patients well being,promoting a faster recovery ...or for those with a terminal illness,a sense of well being and peace!Again ,I can't say thank you enough,for you are vital part of a classical conditioned positive reinforcement regiment.I am glad I chose Baptist for my treatment!
here is the "pretty"wonderful Laura, a nurse (AUA) who also works on 6
EAST,she was great ...always greeting me with a smile and getting the things that I requested in a reasonable time(fast).
Here is what I looked like 3 weeks ago,before I was admitted
to Baptist Hospital.I have lost alot of weight and my muscle tone is lacking now.Almost time to get back to work ...in many areas!
This picture here is of nurses Tiffany and Joe.They were working as a pair at the time of my stay.Good Team!
Here is Linda,a PAL(patient assistant liaison) She was very kind and inquisitive of my condition.She always made sure that I had fresh iced water,clean linen,towels and personal hygiene items.My meals were also delivered w/ a hot moist towel,just like a fine Japanese restaurant.
Pictured here is a Pal named Kim,who also provided the same great treatment as Linda...but going a little further by always making sure I had a newspaper to read in the morning
without me even have to ask after the first day.She was even so kind as to make sure in the evenings that I had a box lunch for a snack w/plenty of V8 juice to drink.Above and beyond the call of duty!All these people are invaluable assets to the Hospital and I hope one day they are paid according to their conduct and interactions w/their patients.I know that they are not paid what they are worth by no means.
Here is another Kim(nurse,AUA)who is engaged and will be getting married in Sept.of this year.Good luck Kim w/ all the details,and don't sweat it too much
Here is the beautiful"Nurse Sarah"
(original pic)
Here is Sarah(nurse) edited and cropped,using a soft glow effect w/ a classic border that I used on Kodak.com at their easy share program.pretty neat ..eeeh!You can order photos online at a reasonable price starting at .15 cents each.they will mail them to you at a reasonable price also.this is one way that I also make money.I went to the Oklahoma School of Photography in 1995...so I guess that makes me a photographer also!You didn't know i had so many talents ..eeeh!
I think it came out pretty nice ! I don't think she liked it ,but she is of the opinion that she does not photograph well.She is a very pretty woman and this photo proves it!
Here is the beautiful"Nurse Sarah"(original pic)
Here I am getting Fat( it is just gas ...really ..smell!)LOL
Yesterday Dr. Anderson came in to check on my progress and he confirmed what I initially thought of him...a SADIST(lol)!(NOW DON'T GET ME WRONG ,I BELIEVE HIM TO BE A COMPETENT ORTHOPEDIC SURGEON,BUT IMPRESSING HIS MORALS AND VALUES ON ME AS A RESULT OF HIS ASSUMPTION THAT I'M A SUBSTANCE ABUSER BECAUSE OF MY APPEARANCE..LONG HAIR PROBABLY,IS NOT PROFESSIONAL OR BENEFICIAL TO ME THE PATIENT...read the previous article in "PICS OF MY FOOT" )The day after surgery he came to see me ,and I had not had my scheduled meds yet and the wound was really hurting.He wanted to take the bandages off and take a look.Now remember he packed the wound w/ gauze( the size of a half dollar and deep from the top of my foot to the bottom(sole)and believe me ...there was a lot of gauze soaked w/ betadine and encrusted w/ puss and blood.It was not going to come out easy.I told him I was hurting and he said it wouldn't hurt much and he would pull it all out fast.(he's the doc..must know what he was talking about!?eeh).It son of a bitch hurt like hellllllll!!!!If that wasn't enough he had to test my pain threshold by sticking his fingers here and there asking"does that hurt?"Yeah,M****f**** that hurts.Then he had to repack the wound and he knew I was in Paaaain!!Did he administer the morphine on order before he proceeded ...NOOOOO!The pain was so severe that I immediately was bathed profusely in SWEAT...my eyes rolled into the back of my head, I almost had a seizure,and was I semiconscious for nearly 2 1/2 hrs.afterwards and while continuing to sweat profusely during this time .Thank God there was a nurse present who saw what was happening to me and she took pity on me and did what a good caregiver does ..she gave me the morphine as soon as the DOC left!It was just a little to late ,but I believe that it actually stopped me from going further under and progressing the onset of the seizure.....(to be continued tomorrow)time for dinner!!
Well I 'm back and I continue my tirade(hehehee).
Now like I said earlier,he came to see me Sunday the 17Th and he thought that I was really progressing FAST! This I attribute to his expertise in the field of surgery.He was very competent in making sure that through the second surgery , he had got all the necrotic flesh.But...and this is a big but(BUTT ..lol)he asked me how my pain was and had me touch my wounds through the bandages and evaluate my pain. I told him that I was not feeling any pain at the time due to the wonderful drugs I had been prescribed.(not so much the opiates..they are short acting and they just get me "high"which I do not prefer to be all the time ..inebriation is good from time to time ,but I don't like my awareness being diminished perpetually)The ultram is a great pain reliever w/ minimal disorientation.It does the job! I told him I was into about an hour of the action of the drugs and that is why I believed the pain was tolerable.I know that around the third hour I will start hurting and by the fourth I am,in my opinion,in considerable pain.If the pain is unnecessary and I have resources ,why not use them.I'm not into any type of pain,whether it be emotional,physical or spiritual!Well,not of my own volition anyway... but shit does happen and I deal w/it as best as I know how!
So ,he tells me that I'm doing fine and he does not see any reason to continue with the pain medication that I was currently on and that he was going to immediately discontinue all of them and only provide Tylenol 3 which is an analgesic(pain reliever) http://www.medicinenet.com/codeine/article.htm with codeine and acetaminophen, which when I was admitted,I had informed intake that I was highly allergic to it. I know it was on record in my chart and on my patient ID wrist band.I was floored.I didn't know what to say and I gave him a blank stare.Now people ,this wound is still open and the ligaments ,tendons and muscle are still viewable.The skin has not grown over and the nerves are regenerating ,which when exposed to air ,cause considerable pain.Now I have a high tolerance to pain ..but this was surgery! I've been in the past stabbed all over my body 17 times in one sitting(including a partial pneumothorax( http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/pneumothorax/DS00943 ) ,so I know a little about Pain and the the extent it can go to and what I can tolerate... and this wound is comparable at times to that pain.And when the drugs start wearing off it hurts (it's not psychosomatic)!.So I did not say anything to the Doc,as it would have been of no use ,as he had insinuated before several times that he was of the opinion that it was unnecessary to have these medications longer that 3-4 days after surgery.
It was about me and I took it personal.Of course I was a little(lol) bothered by this but I kept it inside and said nothing .Now during the course of my stay ,I had encountered 2 nurses who provided me care that exhibited the same attitude , and who had withheld my medication or shorted me (getting one 7.5 loritab rather then the prescribed two..for example.And I also waited 2 1/2 hours after my scheduled time to be given my meds despite repeated calls to the nurses station and assurances that the nurse knew about it and was on her way) the pills.Having worked on a pre/post op ward at William Beaumont Army Medical Center,El Paso,Texas(urology,opthamology,neurology...etc) and being familiar w/ substance abuse amongst Medical staff,I had a very strong opinion of why I was not receiving the prescribed scheduled medication, but I can't and won't try to prove it.I was/am only concerned with my condition and I am not to impress my values and morals on others unless it, at the time, effects me .Please don't dictate to me what you think my pain threshold is or should be .I am 41 years old and justified in the condition I'm in and the wound that I suffer.Big boys should be able to make informed decisions , take part and have a say in their pain management and healing process!
Nonetheless , I waited to talk to my primary care physician about these incidences and she agreed that that I was still in need of pain medication.I told her that I was more than willing to have the opiates D/C'd,but please leave me the ultram.To my relief,she said that she was not discontinuing any of the meds or making any changes in the orders.
But I might have offended her by being critical of the Doctor and the nurses,and to an extent ,the wound care team. That was not my intent and I was not trying to be a cry baby.I was concerned of a reoccurring infection and wanted to prevent it by taking an active part in my treatment.But, come to think about it ,if I encountered these situations ,others have probably also been subjected to these attitudes and actions and maybe they were not as vocal or aware of the extent of these actions these people take and the impact that they have on their treatment and recovery.Please do not be offended, just be aware that these things do happen and the right course must me taken to insure the safety and well being of the patient. I ,for one ,am not angry anymore,as I took the appropriate actions :And that is what is called "self empowerment".That is my goal in all life situations..to enable people to empower themselves, to provide a life for themselves, that is worth living and that is at a level that is humane.It is personally satisfying to do for oneself and to see others do the same.That is why I embedded my self at the City Rescue Mission,so that these people would entrust in me their confidence and allow me through my actions and willingness to live with and through their struggles, to enable their voice...to empower them to gain the level of life that is reasonable to them.If they do not know that there is a better quality of life available to them,then I try to show them.And that it is attainable.
Life's pain is one thing that we all have experienced and hold as a common denominator,but usually this pain is unnecessary and a result of apathy on the part of the observer and the observed(but don't forget about the truly evil person who professes his love for the dark and who's goal and ambition is to inflict pain and suffering..example:satanist and those born inherently evil).We all were granted the right to play a role in this great drama of life and we do have the choice to decide which role we want to play.Act yourselves into the role that you have always desired and dreamt about ..and you save your brother and sister in the process...this is the miracle of life;the ability to create or destroy.Free will is the gift from the DIVINE and not to exercise it is unacceptable ...and it goes against human nature(but some would deny you this act,"conform to me" is their motto).To deny our humanity ...that is the reason we are subjected to pain ,to cause us to willingly take our life ,of our own volition, through abuse and negligence of ourselves,either through a fast or slow suicide.The distortion of the beauty that is in front and within us is one of the results .And this pain blinds us to this beauty,causing us to retreat within ourselves and be alone in our discomfort in this realm and our life,causing us to turn our backs on each other.It does not have to be this way ..it is unnatural.It goes against our nature.Now it 's up to you ..now that you are aware.Peace!Go and LIVE!
Saturday, June 16, 2007
Here are the Pics of my foot!!
all these pics are from my camera
Well, I finally was able to take some pics of my foot here at the hospital.Believe me when I say the foot looks 100% better than it did 2 weeks ago,but it still looks bad and it still hurts tremendously.Last night ,as a result of an incident that occurred involving the med staff (won't go into it here)I was really feeling no pain,as I was medicated to the max!I was given 4cc's of morphine,1 (10)loritab,2 ultrams,1 visitaril and 50 units of fenegrine all at once...boy did I sleep well!!The best rest I've had in the two weeks since I've been here!http://radarsat.space.gc.ca/asc/eng/kidspace/q&a/chris_answers2.asp(fenegrine)
http://www.pfizer.com/pfizer/download/uspi_vistaril.pdf(vistaril)
http://www.scriptsrehab.com/di-loritab.htm (loritab)
http://www.ultram-er.com/ (ultram)
Now ,these are some serious drugs and anybody who has known me for awhile
understands my stance on drugs used for the purpose of recreation ( I highly disapprove)., as my body and psyche are highly allergic to manmade substances(including adulterants in foods and other products)and I refrain from even using them for justified medical conditions,but this time in the hospital is an exception as I do not want to risk losing my foot.My doctor(Dr. N. Satzler)is a a competent professional and I trust her and her decisions that she made w/ the orthopedic surgeon,Dr. Gary Anderson.I owe them that much for saving my foot and they will be remembered for the extent of their actions in allowing me to be treated w/ all the resources available to them.Also,thanks to those that worked behind the scene ,directly and indirectly,to make my extended stay possible. Being bright natured in my spirit allows for them to be justly rewarded and to be blessed as a result of their kindness and care.You are blessed...pass it on!Well ,enough of this writing ,as I must be getting upstairs for my scheduled meds and for dinner(yum yum)!!Be aware and be blessed to except the beauty of your humanity ,to shine for all to see ..that it is YOUR right and responsibility to also shine, for others to see and for them to be enabled to bring out the beauty of creation that is within and without us.Don't let this pain of the world kill your conciousness (awareness)of what was freely given to you by the Divine.The experience of awareness(LIFE).LIVE!LIVE LIFE!LIVE LIFE LONG(STRONG)!!Peace!
Ted Leon III
Well, I finally was able to take some pics of my foot here at the hospital.Believe me when I say the foot looks 100% better than it did 2 weeks ago,but it still looks bad and it still hurts tremendously.Last night ,as a result of an incident that occurred involving the med staff (won't go into it here)I was really feeling no pain,as I was medicated to the max!I was given 4cc's of morphine,1 (10)loritab,2 ultrams,1 visitaril and 50 units of fenegrine all at once...boy did I sleep well!!The best rest I've had in the two weeks since I've been here!http://radarsat.space.gc.ca/asc/eng/kidspace/q&a/chris_answers2.asp(fenegrine)
http://www.pfizer.com/pfizer/download/uspi_vistaril.pdf(vistaril)
http://www.scriptsrehab.com/di-loritab.htm (loritab)
http://www.ultram-er.com/ (ultram)
Now ,these are some serious drugs and anybody who has known me for awhile
understands my stance on drugs used for the purpose of recreation ( I highly disapprove)., as my body and psyche are highly allergic to manmade substances(including adulterants in foods and other products)and I refrain from even using them for justified medical conditions,but this time in the hospital is an exception as I do not want to risk losing my foot.My doctor(Dr. N. Satzler)is a a competent professional and I trust her and her decisions that she made w/ the orthopedic surgeon,Dr. Gary Anderson.I owe them that much for saving my foot and they will be remembered for the extent of their actions in allowing me to be treated w/ all the resources available to them.Also,thanks to those that worked behind the scene ,directly and indirectly,to make my extended stay possible. Being bright natured in my spirit allows for them to be justly rewarded and to be blessed as a result of their kindness and care.You are blessed...pass it on!Well ,enough of this writing ,as I must be getting upstairs for my scheduled meds and for dinner(yum yum)!!Be aware and be blessed to except the beauty of your humanity ,to shine for all to see ..that it is YOUR right and responsibility to also shine, for others to see and for them to be enabled to bring out the beauty of creation that is within and without us.Don't let this pain of the world kill your conciousness (awareness)of what was freely given to you by the Divine.The experience of awareness(LIFE).LIVE!LIVE LIFE!LIVE LIFE LONG(STRONG)!!Peace!
Ted Leon III
Friday, June 15, 2007
Update @ baptist
Well,I'm still here folks..recovering from anemia and a MRSA.The photos that i promised of the foot never arrived via email,so I will have to take a pic myself...but the wound is healing and it does not look as serious as it did in the begining.I would have taken a pic earlier but i just received my camera today from my friend Tony who was holding all my electronic equipment at his house while I was in the hospital.I asked for it last week,but their car had brake problems and then he was let go from his job.He is really cool to take a cab up here and bring me the back pack.He will be justly rewarded!
Here is a link to the MRSA(Methicillin Resistant Staphylococcus aureus) I have( http://www.amm.co.uk/files/factsabout/fa_mrsa.htm )
The food here is great and I commend the food services for providing nutritous meals that are also appealing and tasteful!Pork chops,country fried steaks,chicken and dumplings,pumpkin pie,cheese cake....oooh ,I'm getting hungry again!And soups and sandwiches in between!Thank you Baptist and the the staff that makes this experience as wonderful as possible considering the circumstances
Medical Treatment
An antidote has been developed but is mainly effective within 24 hours after the bite. Since people typically only visit their doctor after the 24 hour window has expired, an antivenin has not been commercially available.A number of methods have been used by the medical community to fight the symptoms of a Brown Recluse spider bite.
Emergency room treatment often consists of local debridement (removal of dead tissue), elevation, and loose immobilization of the affected area. Cool compresses are also sometimes applied to help slow the activity of sphingomyelinase D, the protein thought to be responsible for tissue destruction. A urinalysis may be conducted to check for evidence of systemic bite symptoms such as hemolysis. Corticosteroids, Dapsone, Antibiotics, Skin Grafting, and cutting out the surrounding tissue are other treatments frequently used. Antibiotics are probably the most common method and are typically prescribed to prevent infection. Staph and Strep infections can occur due to the open wound. Amputation is also performed when necessary.
Do not apply camphor, phenol, or other household disinfectants to a Brown Recluse bite wound
http://www.brown-recluse.com/bitephotos.html
Here is a link to the MRSA(Methicillin Resistant Staphylococcus aureus) I have( http://www.amm.co.uk/files/factsabout/fa_mrsa.htm )
The food here is great and I commend the food services for providing nutritous meals that are also appealing and tasteful!Pork chops,country fried steaks,chicken and dumplings,pumpkin pie,cheese cake....oooh ,I'm getting hungry again!And soups and sandwiches in between!Thank you Baptist and the the staff that makes this experience as wonderful as possible considering the circumstances
Medical Treatment
An antidote has been developed but is mainly effective within 24 hours after the bite. Since people typically only visit their doctor after the 24 hour window has expired, an antivenin has not been commercially available.A number of methods have been used by the medical community to fight the symptoms of a Brown Recluse spider bite.
Emergency room treatment often consists of local debridement (removal of dead tissue), elevation, and loose immobilization of the affected area. Cool compresses are also sometimes applied to help slow the activity of sphingomyelinase D, the protein thought to be responsible for tissue destruction. A urinalysis may be conducted to check for evidence of systemic bite symptoms such as hemolysis. Corticosteroids, Dapsone, Antibiotics, Skin Grafting, and cutting out the surrounding tissue are other treatments frequently used. Antibiotics are probably the most common method and are typically prescribed to prevent infection. Staph and Strep infections can occur due to the open wound. Amputation is also performed when necessary.
Do not apply camphor, phenol, or other household disinfectants to a Brown Recluse bite wound
http://www.brown-recluse.com/bitephotos.html
Wednesday, June 6, 2007
having Fun At Baptist Hospital!(LOL)
Here is the library at Baptist w/ the computers
Look at my foot covered w/ plastic,as to minimize getting another infection!
This ,of course is an aerial view
(not taken by me )of the hospital
Look at my foot covered w/ plastic,as to minimize getting another infection!
This ,of course is an aerial view
(not taken by me )of the hospital
Hello people ,are you doing alright ?Well I'm at baptist hospital for a spider bite that became aggravated and surgery was done on it on Sat.I have a big hole on the top of my foot that extends to the sole of my foot over the big toe and the second one(i can see the bone is exposed and I can see the ligaments and muscle and tendons.The nurse took a pic w/her cell phone and she will email it to me later tonight so that you all can see it and throw up!HAHAHA(as of this writing I have still not received it yet,6/15 update) .Sorry if this letter is a little incoherent ,as the nurse just gave me a shot of morphine and i am not thinking to clearly!I am going in for more surgery later on today for a section of the foot on the right side near the little piggie,as the doctor said like necrosis has set in again.I am really lucky that Bill gave me those motrin and the neosporin or i think I might have lost my foot(preemptive strike!).thanks Bill!Anybody get a bite like this ,don't go to St Anthonys,for I heard that there policy is just to treat it w/ antibiotics and no debriement or irrigation.No wonder a lot of people lose there limbs when treated there.They have a mindset of contempt for those that are not able to to afford insurance or have other resources to pay the costs.Well, thats all for right now,I'm in room 674(private!)if your in the neighborhood....HAHAHA(lol)Love you all , Ted Leon
These are some of the profsssionals that are afffiliated w/ baptist
(not taken by me)
(not taken by me)This is another view of the library located on the concourse level in building "D",
provided free to patients and employees...is this a great hospital or what?!!
Thursday, May 10, 2007
OOOOH,The Tenacity...
These pics were taken on 5-10 at the corner of Harvey and RobertS Kerr.The white building
in the distance is the library and that to the right is part of the Oklahoma County Courthouse.
Awhile back,an agent w/ the FBI by the name of Ronald M.asked me where I found the tenacity
to continue despite the trauma and the struggle that was evident in the drama that played out in Norman with me and several agencies and peoples(groups) .I replied,"What was I supposed to do?Bend over and ask them to F**k me and then allow them to do it to my children and wives and friends?There was no tenacity on my part,just reacting to events and situations the way I was made to do...it was part of my makeup!This plant reminds me alittle of the times I had down there.I,like the plant ,just found my self in a place that life had brought me to and I was living the best way I knew how,despite the obstacles and dangers.I don't think that Pot Plant decided on its' own to take root on a cracked,downtown, oklahoma city sidewalk feet away from the courthouse and every imaginable law enforcement official on the lookout for the "things" that are illegal.Look how robust this little fellar is and how proud he stands in the sunlight...until somebody decides that he is undesirable and most likely grabs him by his stalk and YANKS him...!He was just doing what he was meant to do,grow and provide beauty and health to all who look upon HIS creations.Maybe ,it wiil continue to grow in peace ,...but you know it shall never be ....unless someone steals him away in the night and takes him to refuge to live out its' days as was meant...growing and living and giving and taking and....
in the distance is the library and that to the right is part of the Oklahoma County Courthouse.
Awhile back,an agent w/ the FBI by the name of Ronald M.asked me where I found the tenacity
to continue despite the trauma and the struggle that was evident in the drama that played out in Norman with me and several agencies and peoples(groups) .I replied,"What was I supposed to do?Bend over and ask them to F**k me and then allow them to do it to my children and wives and friends?There was no tenacity on my part,just reacting to events and situations the way I was made to do...it was part of my makeup!This plant reminds me alittle of the times I had down there.I,like the plant ,just found my self in a place that life had brought me to and I was living the best way I knew how,despite the obstacles and dangers.I don't think that Pot Plant decided on its' own to take root on a cracked,downtown, oklahoma city sidewalk feet away from the courthouse and every imaginable law enforcement official on the lookout for the "things" that are illegal.Look how robust this little fellar is and how proud he stands in the sunlight...until somebody decides that he is undesirable and most likely grabs him by his stalk and YANKS him...!He was just doing what he was meant to do,grow and provide beauty and health to all who look upon HIS creations.Maybe ,it wiil continue to grow in peace ,...but you know it shall never be ....unless someone steals him away in the night and takes him to refuge to live out its' days as was meant...growing and living and giving and taking and....
Sunday, April 29, 2007
OKlahoma City Memorial Marathon
Well this is the update on the Oklahoma City Memorial Marathon!I did ride the bike 22 miles along the route.As you can see, I did take photos and video.These people were well paced,and even though I was on the bike theywere hard to keep up with and ahead of to get the video and the pics.As I write this update ,my muscles are cramping and torn...ooowww!I didn't go back downtown as I had business to attend to, but the ride and the energy from the people was just the thing I needed.I will run next year and maybe before then.Congrats to everyone who participated in any capacity.It was FUN!There were other bikers along the way and photographers.
Well ,people ,tomorrow(TODAY) is the annual Run commerating the bombing of the Federal Building in Oklahoma City.The run is 26.2 miles and I don't think I will be running it this year.Wish they had a biking event ....But I'll probably be riding the course to get the feel for next year or the next available run.There are a few , I think ,through the year.click here for the official web site and results
Thursday, April 26, 2007
Oklahoma City Arts Festival Time!!
Oh Boy !The smells ,the sounds ,the sights...the senses come alive and one is invigorated by Spring and the creativity and renewal that one is stimulated with at the Oklahoma City Arts Festival.There is live music,performances by various acts,displays of art and other activities..including beer drinking and food eating.Vendors Galore.This is an all Day Affair...so come on down.Look in the Oklahoman for a list of acts and time performances daily.There are several stages for your enjoyment with a variety of genres and styles to suit your tastes.So ,mingle and get your tummy full..it only happens once a year and the experience is just to great to miss! Admission is FREE!
FESTIVAL OF THE ARTS (link)
Hurry ,the festival only runs 4-24/4-29
tues-sat11:00-9:00
sun-11:00 -6:00
WARNING;NO PETS
FESTIVAL OF THE ARTS (link)
Hurry ,the festival only runs 4-24/4-29
tues-sat11:00-9:00
sun-11:00 -6:00
WARNING;NO PETS
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
This is what I published last year..(Feb.)06
Here is A Pic of John and Donna(FRIENDS ,AND AT TIMES COWORKERS)DONE WITH NEON EFFECT(NEAT)
No Dogs, no smoking ,and no backpacks!?by Ted Leon
Has anybody noticed how the homeless are highly discriminated against in the downtown area of Oklahoma city? And we aren’t talking about the average derelict that hasn’t showered in who knows how many moons and smells profusely like mouthwash heaven with a little tinge of piss and vomit. And don’t we all wish just a little sometimes that “those” people would just move down the block downwind and from hearing distance. There are some reasons that the “civilians are justified in their discomfort.
The new homeless are the families with kids, the out of work man or woman. Those who lived from paycheck to paycheck and got hit by some misfortune and are now at the mission or staying with families, just trying to get a hand up on the situation. Most people don't see this discrimination because it is done on the sly so that the average “citizen” won’t take notice. Some homeless just think that is the way things are run. These policies are done under the guise of safety ,comfort and convenience." Security” they cry. Under the guise of “Homeland Security” or some other smoke screen. One example of discrimination is the policy of “Mc Donald's’” at Western. On there bulletin board on the wall next to the cash registers is an 8x10
Paper that states that for the safety and comfort of their guests all backpacks and large bags must be left in the foyer. These precautions are for security reasons. All guests who choose to leave these items are reassured that a security guard will watch them.
First of all ,the foyer is not more than a few feet from the door .If there is a bomb that goes off in the glass foyer it will be a mess.
Secondly, the comfort of the guests will not be effected by a backpack. Homeless people are not the only ones who use them. Believe it or not, other “classes “ of folks use them. They are quite the rage in the States ! The management must believe that any one with a pack must be homeless and not some poor fool going to work on foot who stopped by for a bite. What a great inconvenience it is for the working poor or anybody for that matter ,having to worry if somebody will steal their pack in the foyer….see ,the security guard is not there in the foyer “watching” your stuff. Now, nobody is aware of this policy except the man with the pack ,
because he will be the only one asked by the security to put the pack in the foyer or leave. People in cars don’t have to bring their packs in ,unless they have something in it they want to work on, and they won’t be asked to conform to policy.
By the way ,the notice on the bulletin board is inconspicuous.
People get the feeling they are not welcome.
Drugs /source unknown
Despite numerous declarations of a "war on drugs" over the past three decades, Americans continue to produce, use and sell illegal narcotics. Illegal drugs are both a symptom and a cause of some of American society's most intractable problems, including high crime rates, homelessness and the breakup of traditional two-parent families. To explore America's drug policies and drug culture is to examine the criminal-justice system, the health-care system, wealth and poverty in America, and even racism.
Beginning in the mid-1980s, the federal government and many states enacted mandatory prison sentences for people convicted of even minor drug offenses, and major sentences were set for drug dealers and traffickers. Thousands of drug lords and drug users alike have been prosecuted -- contributing to an explosive growth of the U.S. prison population. But because demand for drugs and the financial reward for selling them has remained strong, there have always been new traffickers ready to step in when others wind up behind bars!
Fatal fall from parking garage is second incident last month(The Oklahoman) Contributing: Staff Writers Chad Previch and Joe Wertz 1/26/06 Oklahoma City police are investigating the death of a man who apparently jumped from a downtown parking garage — the second person to do so this month. About 9 a.m., the victim, whose name has not been released pending notification of relatives, plunged from the seventh level of the nine-story garage at 1 N Walker, police Capt. Jeffrey Becker said. “There were quite a few witnesses,” Becker said. “This happened right in front of the (Greyhound) bus station.” The victim is described as a white man in his 60s who may have been a transient in the area, Becker said. There was no immediate indication of foul play, Becker said, and the death is considered an “apparent suicide.” Jan. 11, an Oklahoma attorney jumped from the same garage, a police report states. Witnesses told police they saw the man fall to his death. He was identified as Mark Lowery, 52. Prior to that, the last suicide committed at the garage was on Dec. 10, 2003, police records show Fatal fall from parking garage is second incident this month Contributing: Staff Writers Chad Previch and Joe Wertz Oklahoma City police are investigating the eath of a man who apparently jumped from a downtown parking garage — the second person to do so this month. About 9 a.m., the victim, whose name has not been released pending notification of relatives, plunged from the seventh level of the nine-story garage at 1 N Walker, police Capt. Jeffrey Becker said. “There were quite a few witnesses,” Becker said. “This happened right in front of the (Greyhound) bus station.” The victim is described as a white man in his 60s who may have been a transient in the area, Becker said. There was no immediate indication of foul play, Becker said, and the death is considered an “apparent suicide.” Jan. 11, an Oklahoma attorney jumped from the same garage, a police report states. Witnesses told police they saw the man fall to his death. He was identified as Mark Lowery, 52. Prior to that, the last suicide committed at the garage was on Dec. 10, 2003, police records show Fatal fall from parking garage is second incident this month Contributing: Staff Writers Chad Previch and Joe Wertz Oklahoma City police are investigating the death of a man who apparently jumped from a downtown parking garage — the second person to do so this month. About 9 a.m., the victim, whose name has not been released pending notification of relatives, plunged from the seventh level of the nine-story garage at 1 N Walker, police Capt. Jeffrey Becker said. “There were quite a few witnesses,” Becker said. “This happened right in front of the (Greyhound) bus station.” The victim is described as a white man in his 60s who may have been a transient in the area, Becker said. There was no immediate indication of foul play, Becker said, and the death is considered an “apparent suicide.” Jan. 11, an Oklahoma attorney jumped from the same garage, a police report states. Witnesses told police they saw the man fall to his death. He was identified as Mark Lowery, 52. Prior to that, the last suicide committed at the garage was on Dec. 10, 2003, police records show.
(There was alot of depression, when I 1st arrived at the mission ,amongst the peoples that I met in the beginning, probably brought on by repressed anger that was usually justified and brought on by these persons own actions.Most knew how they got there and why. How do I know ? I asked them! One guy named Dave( a master carpenter)gambled his way to poverty and destitution.This guy didn't drink or do drugs ,but he made up for it w/ his gambling.I asked him what the emotion was that drove him to keep doing the insanity of gambling what he no longer had...ego,false pride ,arrogance..the feeling that the big score was next...the addiction to the way he felt,even though he was losing ...just like a drug reaction(allergic).
Others are serious boozers,pill heads,crack heads,meth heads,paint heads...etc...compounded by their stupidty or what other handicaps they claim.
My best friends turned into these peoples and as easy as it would be for me to turn away and go elsewhere ..I can't!Repeat!All my friends...whereever I go...this is happening.Can't turn away.Iknow what I can do! Not turn away!Not further stigmatize them by playing the me and you game.This is why I came to the CRM,to be amongst the" sick".That is how I embedded my self into these peoples lives ,to entrust myself to them, by example.And I don't sugar coat!There are alot of people caught in the grip of their diseases who really don't care for me (I don't preach)as they are aware of my stance and are threatened by it though they are not under any threat or duress,except to become human again,and that what scares them the most!)4-24 ted leon
The 1st article I wrote last year and it showed that my attitude was a little more angry and unfocused towards both groups( homeless and homemore ) and I published a rag called the CRM TRASH that I distributed to the mission people who,most, got a kick out of it and also a little angry too...but that's what most of them did, got angry and did nothing...I guess I'm still a little mad! There were a lot of other articles thatI wrote that did not get saved because of some reason or another...but they were great, take my word!These I just happened to send to my email as an attachment...I wish the original format could be displayed here but the link I had set up w/ 4shared.com did not display or read as intended. 4-24 ted leon
Homelessness/unknown source
Increasing numbers of people living on the streets in small as well as large cities across the U.S. prompted growing concern in the 1980s and 1990s. Surveys by the U.S. Conference of Mayors (USCM) reported annual increases in demand for emergency shelter from the mid-1980s on. In 2001, the USCM reported, emergency shelter requests rose an average of 13% in the cities surveyed.
Precise estimates of the number of homeless people in the U.S. were difficult to obtain. As part of the 1990 census, the U.S. Census Bureau attempted to count the number of homeless individuals living in the U.S. Counters for the bureau found 178,828 people in shelters and 49,793 living on the streets. Advocates for the homeless claimed that the true figure was much higher, however, possibly as high as three million. In 1999, the National Coalition for the Homeless estimated that on any given night, about 700,000 people are homeless, either sleeping on the streets or in shelters.
One reason often cited for the rise in America's homeless population was the growing trend toward deinstitutionalization of the mentally ill. As a consequence, many former mental patients found themselves released from mental hospitals or institutions without any viable alternative but to live on the streets or in homeless shelters. It is estimated that one-quarter to one-third of homeless people are severely mentally ill.
(in my opinion,1/3-1/4 is a very liberal number, as I would say that the mentally ill ratio is a lot higher,as close as 1/2 - 3/4,as a result of drug induced mental illnesses ,in addition to the "regular" mentally ill.)
Again, this where I say how bad this crack,meth,and pharmaceutical drug epidemic is effecting/affecting our already disfunctional world and the people that live in it and the ones we interact with and care for and hate for and hate and love...ted leon 4-24
children like this are our concern and our hope!To beautiful and to much potential to turn our backs on them.
Please Bless and pray!All Gods' creatures.Pray for our beauty,not Doom!
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